A trip downtown. An interesting meeting on a Saturday with a major surprise. Another trip to Doug’s cabin. Another big surprise for us. Maybe a voice for Gwen? A test? Back home for the summer.

A Year In My Life
Part II - 3

Wednesday, March 5

Not having any afternoon classes Kate and I had decided to go downtown to just wander around and make a special stop. After stopping for something to drink I had asked Kate, “Are you ready?”

“Lover,” she said, “more than you will ever know.”

I took her hand in mine and we walked down the street a few blocks to the county court house.

About an hour later as we walked out of the court house I said, “I think that’s the best forty dollars that I’ve ever spent.”

“And, it feels so right.”, Kate said.

This evening, Kate and I were in the lounge area of her dorm. We weren’t sitting in our usual seclude spot, but in a place that had room for about eight people with nice overstuffed chairs and couches. As usual we were on one of the couches and she was cuddled up next to me. We had asked our friends to meet us here.

We soon saw Bill walk into the dorm, we waved to him and he walked over to us.

“Hi guys.”, he said, “So, what’s up?”

“We’ll tell you as soon as the others are here.”, I said

“Why so secret?”

“You’ll see.”

Soon the others were there, my roommate Doug, his girlfriend Beth Ann, Jaimie, and Wendy. Kate and I made the introductions.

Then Wendy asked Kate, “You two didn’t, did you?”

Kate said, “Cousin, sit down and we’ll tell all of you at the same time.”

Then Jaimie asked, “All right you two. What’s so secret?”

Kate and I looked at each other. Then I took a piece of paper out of a book that I had with me and laid it on the table. Everyone looked at it, then Doug looked at me and said, “You two got married?”

“Not yet,” I said, “but that’s why we asked all of you to meet us here.”

“What’s going on?”, Jaimie asked.

“Katie and I are going to be married Saturday and we’d like the five of you to be there.”

“Do your parents know?”, Wendy asked.

“No.”, Kate said, “We just can’t wait any longer. We’re going to try to keep it a secret as long as we can. If they find out, then will explain.”

“You’re going to break your dad’s heart not to mention your moms’. Why don’t you just live together?”

“We could do that, but it’s not what we want to do. We want to be together as husband and wife. Then after we graduate we’ll have a wedding for everyone. Besides, and you know this, freshman and sophomores are required to live in the dorms unless they’re married. I really don’t think the university would let us live together in the married student’s dorms unless we are married.”

“Cousin, I don’t know about this.”

“I know. We’ve just waited as long as we can.”

“It’s your life. What do you want us to do?”

“We’ve talked to the associate minister at the Unitarian Universalist Church on West Center and she’s more than happy to marry us on Saturday afternoon. We’d like all of you there. It’ll be a very short and simple ceremony.”

Wendy said, “Well, since it’s at a church and not a judge or someone. Then I guess it’s all right.”

“Wendy,” Kate asked, “are you having a problem with this?”

“No, I guess not. I just wish you’d tell your parents.”

“Cousin, I’ll promise you this. If we feel there’s a good time to tell them, at any time before we graduate, we’ll tell them.”

“Wendy,” I said, “Kate and I know that this isn’t the proper way to do this, but we can’t wait. I think you know better than anyone that Katie and I love each other very much. I agree with Kate if there’s a good time to tell them we will.”

“All right you two,” Wendy said, “you sure aren’t giving me much time to find a dress.”

“No.”, Kate said, “It’s not going to be anything fancy. Just come comfortable.”

“Can I bring someone?”

“Sure you can. Who?”

“Just a good friend. It’ll at least make for balanced couples.”

“I didn’t know you were dating anyone here?”

“Cousin, I don’t tell you all my secrets.”

“Bill and Wendy could you drive?”, I asked, “We can all meet at the church as one-thirty. If that’s all right with everyone?”

Luckily everyone agreed that Saturday would work. We all sat around and talked for a little while. Then, as we were breaking up Jaimie held back and with a grin asked, “I just have to know. When you two have a church wedding, who’s wearing the gown?”

Kate, with her mischievous smile, said, “Maybe both of us.”

After Jaimie had left, Kate said, “Did you see the way Beth Ann looked at Doug when we said we were getting married?”

“No.”, I said, “In what way?”

“I’m not sure, but it looked like a ‘When are we going to do this?’ look.”

“You’re not reading something into this, are you?”

“I don’t think so.”

Kate and I sat there a while longer, then said a long goodnight and I headed back to my dorm room.

My roommate was there studying and when I walked in he said, “Man. I don’t believe you. After the way she treated you. You’re going to marry her.”

I responded with, “That whole thing brought us closer together. It was a very hard time for both of us, but everything has really worked out for the best.”

“I sure hope you’re right.”

“We are.”

“You two going anywhere special Saturday night?”

“We hadn’t planned on it. Why?”

“Want to use the cabin?”

“That would be great.”

“I’ll check. This time of the year shouldn’t be a problem. No one should be using it.”

“Katie saw something between you and Beth Ann when we said that we were getting married. Was there a problem?”

“No, we’ve been together since before high school. We actually grew up next door to each other.”

“The girl next door thing?”

“Yeah. Her family moved in when I was six or seven. We just hit it off from the start and recently we’ve been talking very seriously about getting married. Like you we also promised our parents that we’d wait until we graduate.”

“We didn’t stir up things too much. Did we?”

“No, Beth Ann thinks you guys were so nice to include her.”

“We both like her. Kate wanted a few friends there, so it was Wendy, Jaimie, and her.”

“I may do something after your ceremony, if you guys don’t mind?”

Saturday, March 8

I rode with Doug, Beth Ann, Bill, and Jaimie, to the church. Kate rode with Wendy and her boyfriend Roger. There was something about the groom not seeing the bride before the wedding.

We all arrived at the church just before two and met in a room off of a small chapel where the ceremony was going to be held. I saw Kate for the first time today and she was very pretty. She was wearing a pretty skirt and blouse, and her hair was done very nicely with flowers in it. Her makeup was just perfect. There goes the idea of not seeing the bride before the ceremony.

The associate minister joined us and then we followed her into the chapel. As we walked down the aisle I barely noticed the four people sitting at the front of the chapel. But, Kate did. She stopped in her tracks, turned, looked at Wendy, and said, “Tell me you didn’t?”

“I’m sorry,” Wendy said to Kate, “I had to tell them. Besides, you did tell me I could bring someone. If you’d have run away and come back married that would have been one thing. But, doing this I just felt they had to be here.”

“What? Tell who what?”, I asked.

“Didn’t you see who’s sitting in the second row?”, Kate asked.

I looked toward the front of the chapel and started to say, “No. Who is . . . Our parents!”

I just looked at Wendy and she said, “Sorry.”

Kate then said to the minister, “Reverend Miller can you give us a few minutes?”

“Yes, take all the time you need.”, Reverend Miller said, “And by the way, I’ve already spoken with your parents.”

“And?”

“I think that you’ll find that everything is fine.”

Kate then said to everyone, “Guys, someone let the word out to our parents. So, give us a few minutes to talk to them.”

Kate and I walked to the front of the chapel to face the music. As we walked up, all four of them turned and looked at us. Kate said, “Hi mom. Hi dad.” Then I said, “Hi mom. Dad”

Kate’s mother was the only one to say, “Hi kids.” The other three just looked at us.

Kate and I sat in the first row of pews in such a way that we could look at all four of our parents. We talked for a little while explaining why we were doing what we were doing and asking for their forgiveness. Like the minister had said everything appeared to be fine. I knew for sure that it was, when Kate’s dad asked, “Can I give the bride away?”

“Daddy,” Katie said, “I’d really love that.”

A little while later, Katie, her dad, Wendy, Bill, and I were standing in front of the minister. When the minister said, “Who willingly gives this woman to this man?”

Katie’s father looked at her, kissed her on the cheek, and with a trembling voice said, “Her mother and I do.”

He then placed her hand in mine. I looked at Kate’s dad and he had tears in his eyes.

The minister went through a very nice wedding ceremony. Katie and I exchanged vows and rings.

Finally the minister said, “I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may kiss the bride.”

I took Katie in my arms and gave her a very long kiss. When we broke the kiss, the minister said, “Ladies and gentlemen. I’d like to present Mr. and Mrs. Gary Kenneth Cutwright.”

There was a nice round of applause. Then all the hugs and hand shakes started. Of course both of our mothers were crying and so was Jaimie.

As we were standing around the back of the chapel talking, I saw Doug take Beth Ann aside. I couldn’t hear what he was saying, but I saw him take both of her hands in his and talk to her. I whispered to Kate, “Look at the front of the chapel.”

Kate turned to see what I was talking about. It didn’t take long until everyone was looking at Doug and Beth Ann.

We watched as Doug got down on one knee and offered Beth Ann a ring. You could see the tears come into her eyes as she said yes. He stood back up and they wrapped their arms around each other. We gave them a nice round of applause.

Our parents then took everyone out to a very nice restaurant. As we were eating and talking my father said, “Kids, please don’t keep anything like this from us. If we had missed this it would have hurt all of us very much.”

“Mr. Cutwright.”, Kate started to say, “We’re sorry . . . ”

My dad looked at Kate and interrupted her with, “Katie. It’s dad or something like that, not Mr. Cutwright.”

With a smile Kate said, “Sorry, dad. We’re both sorry for doing this and we won’t keep things like this from you. We also promise that we’ll have that proper wedding after we graduate.”

“Honey,” Kate’s mother said, “that’s all we ask. We’re glad you decided to marry and not just live together.”

A little later Kate and I were in Wendy’s pickup truck heading out of town. Kate asked, “Where’re we going?”

“It’s a surprise.”, I answered.

“Where are we going?”

“You’ll see.”

As she cuddled closer, Kate said, “Keeping secrets from your wife already?”

As we were pulled into Doug’s family’s cabin, Kate said, “I had an idea this is where we were going.”

“You did huh?”, I said.

“Sure. I figured that you’d want to go somewhere special.”

“So, this is somewhere special?”

“You know it is Mr. Cutwright. Isn’t this where we found each other again and everything that’s special between us?”

“Yes, Mrs. Cutwright, it’s a special place to me too. It’s where I feel that everything came back together for us.”

“You’re right lover and I love that?”

“Love what?”

“Mrs. Cutwright.”

We shared a kiss, went inside, and I quickly started a fire. Earlier today, Wendy and I had packed the things that Kate and I would need at the cabin. After Kate and I had brought everything into the cabin we assumed one of our favorite positions, cuddled together in front of a fireplace. It wasn’t too much later that there was a knock at the door. We looked at each other and both said at the same time, “Officer Wiggins.”

I went to the door and opened it. We were half right. It was Officer Wiggins and a delivery driver. The delivery driver had a very large bouquet of flowers for us. I called to Kate, “Honey, could you come here for a second?”

Kate walked over and when she saw the bouquet she said, “Gary, this is so sweet.”

“Sorry honey, they’re not from me.”

“Oh?”

“Take them in while I talk to Officer Wiggins.”

Kate took the flowers into the cabin and I talked to Officer Wiggins. I told him that we’d probably be staying until sometime on Monday. He asked me to call his office to let them know for sure.

As I walked back into the cabin, Kate had the flowers on a table in the livingroom and was reading the card. She handed the card to me. I read it and it said, ‘To a very special couple. All our love. Mom and Dad Cutwright. Mom and Dad Branson’

“That is so sweet.”, Kate said, “How did they know we were coming here? I didn’t even know until we were almost here.”

“Doug knew and so did Wendy.”, I said.

“It was probably that little snitch Wendy. It was so sweet of them to send these.”

“I know. They’re very pretty.”

“So, lover, now that we’ve had the visit from Officer Wiggins we can get down to business.”

“Business?”

“Sure lover, I want to consummate this marriage.”

“Me too.”

“Why don’t you lock up, set the alarm, and I’ll be back in a few minutes.”

Kate ran up to our bedroom. I did as she said, then sat back down and enjoyed the fire. I finally heard her close the door to our bedroom and saw Kate start walking down the steps.

I just couldn’t get over how pretty she was. She was wearing a gold satin chemise, with lace trim and spaghetti straps. A matching satin robe. A pair of white thigh-high stockings with pink trim, and a pair of stiletto slides with lace overlays.

She walked over to me, sat on my lap, looked at me, and said, “Lover. I’ve waited for this night for so long.”

She gave me a very long, very soft, kiss. The kissing and petting got very heavy, and it wasn’t much later that she got up, took my hand, and led me upstairs. As we reached the door to our bedroom, she opened it and started to walk in. I stopped her, picked her up, carried her into the room, and carefully laid her on the bed.

Sunday, March 9

The following morning when I woke up Kate was laying there watching me. She smiled and said, “I just love watching you sleep.”

“I just love watching you do anything.”, I said, “Now, where did you learn to do what you did last night? Where you talking to Wendy again or was it the book?”

“Sort of both. Did you like it?”

“Like it? It was more like loved it.”

“Thought you would.”

She started kissing me and it was another hour before we were finally out of bed.

Our shower together that morning was also very interesting. When Kate was washing my back, she nibbled on my ear and whispered, “I have a present for you later.”

“Later?”, I asked.

“Yes, later.”

“That’s not fair.”

“Yes it is. It’s fun to make you try and guess.”

I turned around and said, “You are so bad . . . and I wouldn’t have you any other way.”

“That so? Well you’d better get yourself rinsed off and out of this shower. Because, if there isn’t a big fire going in that fireplace soon you’ll be making your own breakfast mister.”

“That so?”

“You’d better believe it.”

I helped Kate with a nice breakfast of bacon, eggs, and toast. After we had cleaned up, we decided to go for a walk, but didn’t make it very far. We walked out on the patio and toward the dock. Just as we got to the dock it started to rain. A cold, hard, rain. We ran back to the cabin and by the time we got there we were soaking wet and cold.

Katie was shivering. I found a blanket and wrapped her in it, then I took her over in front of the fireplace. It took me a few minutes to really stoke up a roaring fire. When I stood up, Kate was standing there wrapped in the blanket. When she opened the blanket, I saw her naked body, and with a sly smile she said, “You’d better get out of those wet things and join me.”

It didn’t take me long to strip and join her under the blanket. We warmed up very quickly.

Later I called the security company and confirmed that we were staying until sometime Monday afternoon.

Dinner was very nice. We cooked prime rib, baked potatoes, and vegetables. As we ate, we joked about not getting food anywhere near this good at the university. Just as we were finishing cleaning up, Kate gave me a kiss on the cheek and said, “I’ve got to run upstairs. I’ll be right back.”

“Okay, I’ll probably be in front of the fire.”

I finished cleaning the kitchen and went into the livingroom. I tossed a couple more logs on the fire and sat down on the couch. About ten minutes later Kate came back downstairs, carrying a bag, and sat next to me. After a few seconds she said, “What are you waiting for?”

“I don’t know.”, I said, “What am I waiting for?”

“Your presents are in the bedroom.”

“Presents. What are they?”

“Go and see.”

“Aren’t you coming with me?”

“No.”

“No?”

“Go on.”

I slowly got up off the couch, gave Kate a questioning look, bent down, and kissed her. She smiled and said, “Go on. Hurry up.”

What I saw when I walked into our bedroom made me smile. On the bed was what looked like a duplicate to what Kate had worn last night, but these were all in my size. The makeup case and jewelry case that we used for Gwen was there, along with the breast forms and the spray adhesive. Kate must have borrowed them from Billie. I knew what she wanted, and you know what? So did I.

I picked up the makeup case and walked into the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror, undid what was holding my pony tail and let my hair fall to my shoulders. I spent a little while brushing my hair into a nice feminine style. Then I went to work on my makeup. I tried to come up with a nice sexy evening look and I thought that I’d done a nice job. I’d actually gotten a smokey look to my eyes. I also went with a dark red lipstick.

I went back to the bedroom and looked at the breast forms. I’d only worn these twice before, but hadn’t put them on myself. I figured nothing ventured, nothing gained. I took the forms and carefully sprayed the adhesive on the back of them. Then I carefully cleaned my chest. I thought that best way to put them on would be to lie down on the bed, but wasn’t sure if I could place them correctly without a mirror. Then I figured that I’d try to place them while looking in the mirror. I guess this worked, they looked good, and stuck very tightly.

I looked on the bed for a bra, but there wasn’t one. I figured that Katie wanted me braless. I wasn’t sure about wearing the forms all evening without a bra.

I found the matching thong to the one that Kate had worn last night and slipped it on. Hers hadn’t stayed on long. I wondered how long mine would.

I had a little secret. Jaimie and I had been talking one day, and I mentioned the shaper and how uncomfortable it was. She asked me if I tucked? I asked her what she was talking about? She told me it’s what you do to get your male bits out of the way and she told me how to do it. I had tried it a few times to see if I could do it and I could. So, I figured that I’d do it tonight and see how Kate reacted. Luckily the thong was tight enough to hold things in place.

Then I slipped on the white thigh high nylons. Somehow Kate had managed to keep hers on last night. I really do love the feeling of nylons, both on her and me. My legs were a little hairy, but not too bad.

Then came the gold satin chemise and the way this felt on my body was just amazing. It was just so soft and sensual.

I took a pair of long dangly earrings out of the jewelry case walked over to the mirror and replaced my studs with them. I checked everything again. Fluffed my hair a bit. Smiled and thought, ‘Katie. I think your makeup lessons are beginning to sink in.’ Then I said out loud, “Hi Gwen.”

I walked back over to the bed and slipped on the pair of stiletto heels. I hoped that I could still walk in them. I walked around the bedroom a little and it wasn’t too bad. I was a little wobbly, but felt that I could handle them.

As I was about to walk out of the bedroom door I remembered something. I took the wire rimmed glasses out of the jewelry case and slipped them on.

Finally I walked out of the bedroom and over to the stairs. Kate had heard me and was looking up at me. I wasn’t seeing Kate sitting there, it was Kelly. The long brown hair, heavier than normal makeup, glasses, and wearing the identical things to what I was wearing. We smiled at each other.

I carefully walked down the stairs. I guess it was sexy because Kelly said, “You are so sexy.”

“So are you lover.”, I replied.

“There is just something seeing you dressed that way that turns me on.”

I safely made it down the stairs to where Kelly was sitting, she stood up, wrapped her arms around me, and kissed me. It was a very soft, very sensual, kiss. She helped me sit on the couch. Then she walked over and put another log on the fire.

When she walked back over to the couch, I had moved to my usual position in the corner. She looked at me and said, “Lover. That’s my seat.”

“Your seat?”, I asked.

“Tonight you get to cuddle up with me.”

I smiled at her and moved over. She sat down and I cuddled up with her. We sat there quietly for a little while. Then she said, “I have something for my special girl.”

“What’s that lover?”, I asked.

“Since we’re married, I can’t have you being hit on by everyone.”

“How are you going to stop that?”

As she said, “With this.” She picked a small box up off the end table and opened it. In it was an engagement ring. She took the ring out of the box and slipped it on my left ring finger next to, something that I wasn’t going to take off, my wedding band.

I looked at her, smiled, and said, “It’s not very often a girl gets a wedding ring, then the engagement ring.”

“Only special girls.”

I sat up so that I could give her a nice kiss, then said, “Thank you lover. So, why Kelly?”

“I don’t know. I just felt like it and it felt good. It gives me someone else to be, almost like you. Except in the same gender. It’s just fun to do it.”

“Is it Gary and Kate, and Gwen and Kate or Gwen and Kelly?”

“It’s Gary and Kate for sure. Is it Gwen and Kate or Gwen and Kelly? I don’t know. It could be either or both. They all make sweet couples and great lovers.”

“Gwen has two lovers?”

“Do you mind?”

“Not at all.”

We cuddled back together on the couch, with me cuddling up to her like a girl would to her boyfriend. We sat there for a while enjoying the fire. Kelly finally turned so that she could look at me and said, “I really love what you did with your eyes.”

I smiled and said, “Thank you. I love your look too. These clothes are so pretty.”

She bent down and gave me a very sweet kiss. Then said, “It’s going to be a shame to mess up all your hard work.”

“How’s it going to get messed up?”

“A lot of love making.”

“Really?”

“You had better believe it.”

We started necking and it didn’t take Kelly long to become the aggressor. She really took charge. Kate could be a take charge person, but Kelly really took charge. When her roaming hands finally made it between my legs, she quickly sat up, looked at me wide eyed, and asked, “Where did it go?”

“Where did what go?”, I asked with a smile.

“Your . . . Your . . . “

“Oh that.”

“Yeah that.”

“Jaimie told me a secret.”

“A secret?”

“How to hide it.”

“Really?”

“She called it tucking.”

“Tucking?”

“Everything is tucked back between my legs and the thong holds it there.”

“Doesn’t it hurt?”

“No. But, it’s getting a little uncomfortable. It wants out.”

“Let me help you.”, Kelly said with a sexy little smile, as she knelt between my legs, slowly removed my thong, and . . .

Monday, March 10

Last night was wonderful. We’d spent a long time in front of the fireplace making love. Then, even more time in our bedroom. It was the type of love making that Kelly really loves and that I was really beginning to enjoy. It was long, slow, soft, and sensuous. With Kelly in charge.

This morning Kelly was out of bed before I was, but not by much. I felt her get out of bed, then heard the door to the bedroom open and close. I got up and followed her to the bathroom. She was completely naked standing in front of the mirror. I walked up behind her and kissed her on the neck. In the mirror I saw her smile, then she said, “Good morning lover.”

I said, “Morning babe.”

“You were fantastic last night.”

“No more than you were.”

“You felt so good in that chemise, not to mention how sexy you looked.”

“You really know how to flatter a girl.”

“Love, you are easy to flatter, because you always look so yummy”

“Yummy?”

“Good enough to eat. And I loved your surprise.”

“Surprise?”

“Your smooth front.”

“I thought you might like that.”

“We’re going to have to get you some tight fitting clothes and maybe a bathing suit for this summer to show it off.”

“A bathing suit!?”

“Sure love. You’d look fantastic in a two piece.”

“I could never pass in a bathing suit.”

“Oh yes you could, and with that flat front you’d be so sexy.”

Late in the afternoon we had put Gwen and Kelly away, cleaned the cabin, made sure the fire was out, made the phone call to the security company, set the alarm system, and were on the way back to the university.

“Want to stop at the student housing office when we get back?”, I asked.

“Sure.”, Kate said, “Think we can get a place this late in the semester?”

“I doubt it, but it won’t hurt to try. We can at least put in for an apartment for next fall.”

We’d driven another half an hour when Kate said, “Honey?”

“Yes Katie.”

“Ah. What are we going to do this summer?”

“What do you mean?”

“Where are we going to live when we go home? We won’t have enough money for our own place.”

“Good question. I hadn’t thought about that.”

“Me either.”

“Any ideas?”

“Maybe my parents house?”

“The noise would bother them?”

“Noise. What noise?”

“You’ve become a fairly noisy lover.”

“I have?”

“Love. When we first started having sex you made these cute little noises. Over time they’ve gotten a little louder. Last night they were . . . Well. They were almost animalistic.”

“I’m . . . I’m sorry.”

“Lover. Don’t be. I love it.”

“You love me being animalistic?”

“I love you anyway you are.”

“I never realized that I did that.”

“I think that you are so into it that you don’t know that you’re doing it.”

“I don’t?”

“I’ve watched you. I think that you just loose yourself in the moment.”

“What are we going to do?”

I’d kept a straight face as long as I could and with a grin I said, “I guess to keep the neighbors from calling the cops we’ll just have to muzzle you.”

“You brat! I don’t make noises. Do I?”

“Yes you do. They’re the cute little ones.”

“Cute little ones?”

“Yea and I love them.”

She cuddled up close to me and mumbled, “I’m going to muzzle you!”

When we were back on campus, we stopped at the student housing office to see if there was a chance that we could still get into married student housing this semester. Like I’d figured there wasn’t any openings. We did put our name on the list for next fall.

Tonight it was very hard on both of us as we said goodnight. Katie was in tears and I didn’t want to let go of her, and the walk back to my dorm seemed much longer than usual.

When I walked into my dorm room, my roommate was there and he said, “So. How does it feel to be married?”

“Actually.”, I said, “It feels very nice.”

“Then why so sad.”

“Having to say goodnight to Kate and then spending the night with you.”

“Gee thanks.”

“No. It was really saying goodnight to her and then having to leave her.”

“I bet that was rough. Did you stop at the housing office?”

“Yea. Nothing until next fall.”

“That’s tough.”

Friday, March 28

The past couple of weeks had almost been normal for Kate and me. Still every time we had to say goodnight and go our opposite ways was very hard.

Going home the past couple of weeks wasn’t an option either, Wendy had to work at the library every weekend this month. All of Kate’s roommates in the quad unit, except Linda, went home last weekend, and Linda was more interested in her new boyfriend then what Kate and I were doing. So, Gwen was able to visit her for the weekend, but it still wasn’t what we wanted.

Tonight was the monthly meeting of the support group. Earlier this week Kate had heard from Jaimie. She’d told Kate that she and Billie were going to dress up for the meeting and thought it would be nice if we did too.

We were at Billies’ late in the afternoon. Jaimie and Billie were already dressed. Billie had on a very nice dress and Jaimie was in a very pretty pants suit. After our usual greeting Jaimie asked, “Could you guys go with a really sophisticated evening look?”

“Sure.”, Kate said, “Why?”

“We’ve had a number of people ask to see different looks in makeup. Billie and I thought that you two could do a great evening look. Some of the others are doing different looks.”

“Why not.”

Kate and I went to Billie’s spare bedroom to get ready. We found the breast forms sitting on the dressing table. Kate looked at them and asked, “Do you really like the forms?”

“Yeah.”, I replied, “Why?”

“Just wondering.”

“It’s like Billie told us. It adds to the look and the feeling of being a girl.”

“How about attaching them?”

“That also adds to it. It’s like they become part of you. I think it’s as close to having the real things, without having them, that I can get.”

Kate attached the forms. Then after I slipped on my bra, I asked, “Katie. Would you do my makeup?”

“Sure love. But, you can do it yourself. You do a really good job.”

“Yeah, I just think you’ll do a much better job.”

“All right. But, watch and learn.”

When she was done with my makeup and hair. I looked in the mirror and was almost shocked. Kate loved doing my makeup and has always done a great job. The look she came up with was just down right fantastic. As I was looking in the mirror, I saw her get up, walk to the door, open it. Then I heard her say, “Billie. Do you have any really fancy earrings that Gwen could borrow?”

When Kate walked back over to the dressing table, she took a box out of one of the drawers and set it on the table. The box had four drawers to it and a flip open top. Kate opened one of the drawers. It was divided into a number of compartments. Each of the compartments contained at least one pair of earrings and some had two or three pairs. We looked through the earrings and there were a number of fancy ones.

Then Kate opened the top and there were more earrings. I said, “Billie has more than you do.”

Kate with a smile said, “I guess we’ll just have to do something about that.”

I just shook my head.

The earrings that were in the top were really fancy ones. There were a number of hoops of various types and sizes. There was also some long dangly ones which looked like they had diamonds on them. Kate started picking up various ones and holding them up to one of my ears. Finally she held up one pair and said, “What do you think of these?”

The earrings had three different lengths of drops that looked like rows of diamonds. I thought they were pretty and said, “I think they’re sharp.”

“Put them on and lets see.”

After I’d put them on, we carefully checked the look, Katie smiled and said, “They look great on you.”

I had to agree. I thought that the whole look was great, but maybe that it was too much for tonight.

Kate helped me into the waist cincher with the garters. Then as I got dressed, she did her makeup.

The skirt I was wearing was black with the lower two-thirds embroidered with a very fancy design. It hit me about three inches above the knee. The blouse was black silk with a deep v-neck and short sleeves, and the neckline was embroidered.

Along with the earrings I was wearing some other rings, including my engagement ring. Katie had also found a very pretty necklace for me in Billie’s things. I added a little perfume that Kate had given me.

I looked at myself in the mirror and smiled. Kate saw me looking at myself and just smiled.

I turned and looked at Kate, she was down right gorgeous, and she was only wearing panties and a bra. What she had done with her makeup was amazing. She was back to the Kelly look with the long brown wig. The dressiest clothing she had on campus was what she’d worn to our wedding. So, that’s what she was going to wear tonight. When she put them on, looking like Kelly, it was different. Strikingly different.

Just as we were going to walk out of the bedroom I slipped on my glasses. Kelly with a little smile said, “There’s my girl.”

The four of us walked into the church’s community room about fifteen minutes before the meeting was to start. We hadn’t seen most of these people since our confrontation with Tiffany a month ago. A number of them walked up to us and said something about it. It appeared that everyone was in agreement with what I’d done. All the comments were positive.

We looked around and didn’t see anyone else dressed up or with different styles of makeup. Kelly said to Jaimie, “I thought others were going to do different makeup styles?”

“Oh.”, Jaimie said, “Ah . . . I guess they’re not here yet.”

Kelly took me aside and whispered, “Something’s up.”

“What do you mean?”, I asked.

“I haven’t seen anyone else here with makeup that they don’t normally wear. Nothing fancy or extreme. No dress clothes. I’m wondering if we’ve been set up.”

“Set up for what?”

“I don’t know.”

Just then the meeting started and it was the usual quick business meeting. Afterwards the associate minister stood up and said, “We have a very special program tonight. So, would everyone please join me upstairs in the chapel.”

Kelly looked at me and said, “I think we’ve been had.”

“Why?”, I asked.

“Do you see anyone else that’s dressed up?”

“No. Just Billie and Jaimie.”

“Me either.”

“What do we do?”

“I guess we go along and see what happens.”

We went along with everyone else to the chapel and sat with Billie and Jaimie. The minister got up in front of everyone and said, “We had something very special happen here a few Saturdays ago. I wish you could have all been here. We had a special wedding.”

I saw Kelly look at Jaimie and heard her whisper, “You’ll pay.”

“Honey.”, Jaimie whispered back, “You two deserve this. You’re a special couple and you need to celebrate it. It’s worth whatever I have to pay. Do you mind if someone takes pictures?”

Kelly looked at me and said, “I don’t, if Gwen doesn’t.”

“I guess.”, I said.

The minister continued with, “The couple that was married are the newest members of our group. They were married in a traditional church ceremony in front of their families and some very close friends. Some of these friends, who are also member of our group, want them to have a special ceremony tonight in front of our group. We hope that you will help them celebrate this special time.”

The minister paused for a few seconds then said, “We know this couple as Gwen and Kelly. I know, a few months ago when I first met them, I thought they were both girls. I think we all learned last month that they aren’t. Would Gwen and Kelly please join me? Also, Jaimie and Billie.”

Everyone looked at us. Kelly was the first one on her feet and offered me her hand. Which I took. She whispered, “I figured we’d been set up.”

“You’re right.”, I whispered back.

We walked to the front of the chapel followed by Jaimie and Billie, and stood with the minister. The minister then said, “When I join a same sex couple. I use a commitment ceremony and I hope Gwen and Kelly don’t mind if we do that tonight.”

I looked at Kelly, she looked at me and smiled. Then I looked at the minister and said, “I think we both think that it would be very nice.”

Jaimie then handed me a bouquet of flowers and Billie did the same to Kelly. The minister stepped back a couple of steps and we turned to face her. Billie stood with Kelly and Jaimie stood with me.

The minister asked us, “Do you mind if I use your real first names tonight?”

I looked at Katie and said, “I don’t.”

Katie said, “Me either.”

The minister went through a short commitment ceremony. The vows that she had us repeat to each other was a very nice one. One that I don’t think either of us will ever forget.

I said, “Catharine. I take you to be my partner for life. I promise above all else to live in truth with you and to communicate fully and fearlessly. I give you my hand and my heart as a sanctuary of warmth and peace, and pledge my love, devotion, faith and honor as I join my life to yours.”

Kate repeated it to me.

When we had finished the vows the minister said, “Gary and Catharine. Your lives and spirits are joined in a union of love and trust. Above you are the stars and below you the earth. Like the stars your love should be a constant source of light, and like the earth, a firm foundation from which to grow. As you have consented in this ceremony in the presences of friends to be partners for life, I now pronounce you married and bound together body and soul. You may kiss your partner.”

Kate and I looked at each other for a second, then shared a kiss like the one we had last Saturday. The minister then had us face the audience and said, “Ladies and gentlemen. I’d like to present Mr. Gary and Miss Catharine. Know to us as Miss Gwen and Miss Kelly. Partners for life.”

There was a very nice round of applause from everyone. Then the minister said, “If you’ll allow the couple to retire to the back of the chapel. They will be happy to meet you there. Then we’ll gather in the community room.”

Kelly and I walked down the aisle along with Jaimie, Billie, and the minister. When we got to the back of the chapel, Jaimie and Billie gave us both big hugs. Jaimie then said, “We’ve got to run down to the community room. We’ll see you there in a few minutes. Have fun.”

We stood there with the minister greeting everyone as they came out of the chapel. There was a lot of hand shakes, hugs, and cheek kisses, that went along with words of congratulations. Once we had greeted everyone, we followed the last of them down to the community room.

When we walked into the community room, it was nicely decorated with balloon center pieces at each table, and a main table with a punch bowl and cake on it. We walked up to the main table and looked at the cake. It was a large nicely decorated sheet cake which said, ‘Congratulations Kelly and Gwen’ on it. What was really cute was the Victorian bride’s cake topper on it. It was two identically dressed Victorian brides holding hands.

Jaimie and Billie walked up to us and we both gave each of them a big hug. Kelly then said, “You two are just too much.”

“Honey.”, Jaimie said, “It was fun to do. I was thinking of getting a butch bride and feminine bride cake topper, but neither of you is butch. You both are so feminine that the Victorian brides were just you.”

We cut the cake together and shared the first two pieces. Kelly fed me hers and I fed her mine. Of course we made a mess on each others face. As everyone enjoyed the cake, Kelly and I wandered around talking to everyone.

Toward the end of the evening we both did as many brides do. We tossed out bouquets out into the group.

Kelly and I stayed afterwards to help with the cleanup. After we had finished cleaning up and were leaving the church Billie asked, “What are you two doing tonight?”

I said in a sad way, “I guess we’re just going back to your place, changing, and going back to our dorms.”

“How would you like to spend the night at my place?”

“You’re kidding?”

“No. I’m spending the night with a friend, so you two can have my place. I won’t be home until tomorrow evening.”

I looked at Kelly and she was grinning. So, I said, “That would be great.”

“It’s all yours. There’s food in the refrigerator. Feel free to cook yourselves anything you like.”

As they were dropping us off, Billie handed me the key and said, “I told my neighbors that you’d be staying here tonight.”

“Billie,” I said, “I can’t thank you and Jaimie enough for tonight.”

“Just enjoy yourselves.”

Jaimie handed Kelly a box and said, “The couple is supposed to keep the cake topper from their wedding cake. Here’s yours.”

Kelly and I walked into Bobbie’s apartment, and Kelly said, “Two weddings in a month.”

“I know. Tonight was a major surprise.”

“I wonder who Billie is spending the night with?”

“Maybe Jaimie?”

“I don’t know. They are very close.”

As I said, “I know someone who’s closer.”, I took Kelly in my arms and kissed her.

“Lover.”, Kelly said, when we broke the kiss, “I don’t know of anyone closer then we are.”

Saturday, March 29

It’s just wonderful to wake up cuddled with Katie. I just can’t wait to do it every day. She also knows how to make love and isn’t afraid to try new things. Last night Kelly took charge and she just drove me nuts.

I laid their just enjoying holding her. Feeling her breathing. Smelling her hair. Touching her smooth skin.

She stirred. I kissed her neck and whispered, “Good morning love.”

She rolled over, smiled, and kissed me. Then she whispered, “I just love this so much. I want to stay in bed with you all day.”

“Billie said that she wouldn’t be back until later this evening.”

“That’s right!”

After dinner Katie and I were cuddled on Billie’s couch when we heard a key in the door. I turned to see Billie and Jaimie walk into the apartment.

Billie said, “Hi you two. Did you have a good day?”

“A really nice day.”, Kate said, “A much better night. How about you two?”

“What do you mean?”, Jaimie asked.

“Come on. Billie was spending the night with a friend. The two of you drop us off and you come back together. What are we to think?”

“Well . . . ”

“Well what girlfriend?”

“Yeah. I was the friend.”, Jaimie said.

“How long has this been going on?”

“A couple of months.”

“Just when where you going to tell us?”

“I guess right now.”

Katie got up, and gave both Billie and Jaimie a big hug and kiss. I followed right behind her.

I had put Gwen away earlier this afternoon. So, as we were waiting for Billie to change Kate said to Jaimie, “I was never sure if you liked boys or girls.”

“Kind of both.”, Jaimie said, “Billie is special.”

“Special?”

“He’s like Gary. He’s a boy that likes to be a girl.”

“Really?”

“Yes. He can be whoever we want him to be.”

“So. Where did you spend the night?”

“We’d reserved a motel room for you. At the last minute we figured that you’d have more time alone here then at the motel. So, we took the motel room. Besides we get the apartment tonight.”

Kate leaned over, gave Jaimie a hug and I heard her whisper, “It’s fun being a girl. Isn’t it?”

Jaimie whispered back, “You know it girlfriend.”

We made a stop at Max and Tommy’s on the way back to the dorms. Then as Bill and Jaimie were dropping us off at Kate’s dorm, Bill said, “Stop over tomorrow evening I may have something to show you.”

“What?”, I asked.

“It’s a surprise.”

“Not another one.”

“Yep.”

“All right.”, Kate said, “You two behave.”

“Oh we will.”, Jaimie said, “You two behave too.”

I could hear sadness in Kate’s voice as she said, “I only wish we had the option.”

“I’m sorry honey.”

“Don’t worry. Gary and I will have our time.”

Kate and I sat in her dorm’s lounge room for a while. Then I took the long, lonely, walk to my dorm. Doug was gone for the weekend. So, I was alone with my thoughts.

Sunday, March 30

Kate and I met for lunch, then a few hours of studying in the library. After we had dinner we walked to Bill’s apartment. Bill answered our knock and said, “Hi guys. Come on in.”

We followed Bill into the living room. Jaimie was sitting there and she said, “Hi you two.”

“Hi girlfriend.”, Kate said, “Wasn’t expecting to see you.”

We chatted for a few minutes, then Bill got up and said, “I’ll be right back.”

After he had left the room Kate asked Jaimie, “So, you two moving in together?”

With a grin Jaimie said, “Already have.”

“When were you going to tell us this little bit of news?”

“It was one of the things that we saved for tonight.”

“Bill’s graduating this spring, isn’t he? Are you going back home with him?”

“Yes and yes. Then he starts law school in the fall. So, we’ll be around for a few more years.”

“I forgot.”

Bill was back with a box and he handed it to Kate saying, “We thought you’d like to have these.”

Kate opened the box and it was a wedding album. The front cover had a place for a picture and they had put a picture of the two Victorian brides cake topper in it. We started looking through the album. The first page was a hand printed copy of the commitment ceremony. The pictures were from the ceremony on Friday evening and the reception afterwards. I saw a tear run down Kate’s cheek, she looked at Bill and Jaimie and said, “This is so special. But, you shouldn’t have.”

“Yes we should have.”, Jaimie said, “You needed a way to remember a special day.”

“Thank you so much.”

“Yes. Thanks guys, this is great.”, I said.

Bill said, “There’s also a CD in the back with all the pictures on it.”

“Honey,” Jaimie said to Bill, “show them the other thing.”

I saw Katie smile as she repeated, “Honey.”

“Yeah.”

“That’s so sweet.”

We all got up and followed Bill to where his computer was. He cleared the screen saver and said, “I know neither of you were happy with the pictures from that one meeting. So, I thought that I’d show you this and see if you wouldn’t mind us posting it on the web site.”

Bill brought up a web page that showed pictures of our wedding. The two Victorian brides cake topper was the first picture on the page. There was also some text that described it a little. Our names weren’t mentioned and neither was the fact we weren’t really two girls.

After looking at the web page I said, “What bothered me the most with the other pictures, was that we didn’t know that they were being taken and the kiss with Tiff. This page is really cute and nicely done.”

“Thanks.”, Bill said.

I looked at Kate and said, “If Katie doesn’t mind. I don’t have a problem with you putting it up on the group’s web site.”

“No problem here.”, Kate said, “You did a very nice job.”

“Thanks guys.”, Bill said.

We stayed and visited with Bill and Jaimie until late. Then I walked Kate back to her dorm and we said a very long goodnight. It still wasn’t easy to say goodnight. Kate had a closet that she could lock, so she took the album and cake topper with her until we could find a safer place.

Thursday, April 3

As Kate and I were eating dinner I asked her, “Did you take that blind test in your Psychology class?”

“Yea.”, she answered, “I think everyone taking the freshman Psychology class takes it. Why?”

“Did you get anything back yet?”

“No. Did you?”

“Yes. If we still had our numbered receipt we could pickup our results after class today. I had a note in mine.”

“A note?”

“Yea. I guess that my test showed something interesting. They wanted to know if I wanted to participate in a research project.”

“A research project? What kind?”

“I don’t know. There’s a phone number to call for more information. I guess it’s all done blind. No one knows who anyone is.”

“Are you going to do it?”

“I don’t know. I think I’ll at least call and see what it’s all about.”

Friday, April 4

When I met Kate for breakfast this morning, she asked, “Are you going to call today?”

“Call who?”, I asked.

“That phone number that you found on the note in your Psych test results.”

“Oh yeah. That. I thought I’d call right after my first class.”

When I met Kate for lunch I didn’t bother picking up any food, but just went and sat with her. She looked at me and asked, “No lunch?”

“No. I’m not hungry.”

“Are you sick?”

“No. Why?”

“I’ve never known you to miss a meal.”

“I’ve got something on my mind.”

“Are you going to tell your wife?”

“Yeah. Not here.”

“Now I can’t eat. Come on lets go.”

It was a nice early spring day, so we walked to the pond and found an unoccupied bench. As soon as we sat down Kate said, “Now, tell me.”

“I called that phone number.”, I said.

“Well.”

“It was the answered by the secretary of the Psychology Department’s dean.”

“And?”

“When I told her that I’d gotten the test back and there was a note in it to call this number, she asked me for my test number. I gave it to her and she said that I needed to speak with a Dr. Richland.”

“Dr. Richland?”

“Yea. He’s working on a special research project to do with gender.”

“Gender?”

“When I spoke with him, he told me that my test showed that there was a possibility that I was confused about my gender.”

“You confused about your gender?”

“That’s what he said. They’re doing a research project and wanted to include me in the project.”

“Are you confused about your gender?”

“I don’t think so. I do love it when I dress as a girl and can pass. So maybe I am and don’t know it.”

“You don’t want to be a girl. Do you?”

“Lover. You know I don’t.”

“Just checking.”

“You know I love dressing up as a girl around you, but I love being a guy with you even more.”

“I know you do. Are you going to do it?”

“Maybe.”

“I think you should. It might be interesting.”

I pulled a slip of paper out of my wallet, took out my cell phone, and made a call. “Yes. Can I speak to Dr. Richland please?”. . . “Sure I can hold.”. . . “Dr. Richland. This is number 79432. We spoke earlier today.”. . . “Yes sir. I talked it over with her and I’d like to help with the research project.”. . . “Yes sir. Monday at eleven in your office.”. . . “Good bye.”

“Well that’s done.”, I said, “By the way. Have you talked with your mother?”

“Yes,” Kate said, “there’s no problem. I hope your mom understands.”

“She will.”

A little after four in the afternoon, we were pulling into the driveway at Kate’s parent’s house. I think I was almost as nervous as I was when I saw our parents in the chapel. We had asked Kate’s parents if we could stay with them when we came home from school.

On the ride home Kate didn’t seem to be herself. She was quiet and seemed to be down. When Kate, Wendy, and I walked into the house, we were greeted by Kate’s mom.

When I said, “Hello, Mrs. Branson.”

Kate’s mother looked at me, put her hands on her hips, and said, “Young man. It’s mom to you.”

“Yes ma’am. Hello mom.”

“That’s better.” And I received a big hug from her. Then she said, “I have your rooms ready.”

Kate looked at her and said, “Rooms?”

“Sure. You in your room and Gary can stay in Zack’s old room.”

“Mother!”

With a big grin her mother said, “I’m sorry. I just had to do that.”

“Mother. That wasn’t funny.”

“Yes it was.”, Wendy said, “I’ve never seen you react that fast to anything before.”

“Oh. Be quiet.”

A short time later, Wendy had left, and I was following Kate up to her room. When we walked into the room I asked, “Honey, what’s wrong?”

“Everything.”, Kate said.

“No. Everything’s perfect. We’ll have . . . “

Katie turned and looked at me. There were tears in her eyes. I set our cases down and just held her. Finally I whispered, “Honey, please tell me what’s wrong?”

“I. . . I just wanted this weekend to be perfect.”, Katie whispered, “Our first weekend together at home.”

“It is perfect. We’re together.”

“No it’s not. It’s my time of the month.”

I just held her while she cried. Finally she said, “I’m sorry lover.”

“Don’t be.”, I said, “We’re together. We’ll get to say goodnight and good morning to each other while laying in the same bed. We have the rest of our lives together.”

She stepped back a little so we could look at each other and said, “You are so wonderful. I don’t know why you put up with me.”

“Lover. It’s because you are a special person that I love very much and you put up with me.”

Sunday, April 6

The rest of the weekend was very laid back and relaxing. We spent equal time with my parents and hers. As well as visiting old haunts and seeing friends from high school. Just going to bed and getting up with Kate made for a wonderful weekend. Kate had brought the wedding cake topper and photo album home with her, and put them in a very safe place.

This evening on the way back to school Kate said to Wendy, “Cousin. I’m sorry that I was so short with you on Friday.”

“Don’t worry about it.”, Wendy said, “We all get that way once in a while.”

Wendy dropped Kate and me off at Kate’s dorm. It was another long goodnight.”

Monday, April 7

I had the eleven o’clock appointment with Dr. Richland over the Psych test, so Kate and I missed having lunch together. When we met that evening for dinner she asked, “How did it go?”

“Dr. Richland is very nice.”, I said, “We had a nice talk, and he explained what the research was all about and what we’d be doing.”

“So, does he think that you are confused about your gender?”

“He said that my test showed some interesting things and that it would take a few meetings to really determine anything. During our talk I came right out and told him that I enjoyed dressing in girls clothes. He was really surprised when I told him that I didn’t start dressing until I was seventeen. He wants to talk some more. Give me a few tests. Maybe even talk to you.”

“Talk to me?”

“Something about how you feel about gender issues.”

“Might be interesting. He doesn’t know who you really are, does he?”

“No. I’m just a number.”

I was also meeting with Dr. Hickey on a regular basis trying to come up with a feminine voice for Gwen. We thought that we had finally found something and she wanted to see what Kate thought. Tonight when I was meeting with Dr. Hickey, and Kate was going along.

At seven we were at Dr. Hickey’s home sitting with her in the living room. Dr. Hickey said, “Kate. I think we may have hit on a feminine voice for Gwen. Gary thought that you’d make a good judge.”

Kate said, “That’s what he said.”

“Are you ready to see if you like it?”

“Sure.”

“Gary. Go in the kitchen. I left something on the counter for you to read. Then come on back in when you’re ready.”

I got up and headed to the kitchen. I heard Dr. Hickey tell Kate, “It takes him a few minutes to find Gwen’s voice. I think you’ll be surprised.”

I went into the kitchen, found a piece of paper on the counter and read what was on it. I couldn’t help but smile. Then I started going through the voice exercises to bring out Gwen’s voice. Once I’d found it I walked back into the livingroom.

What Dr. Hickey had given me to read I really didn’t need to read from the paper. The first time I’d said these words to Kate it had meant so much to me that I remembered them verbatim. So, in what Dr. Hickey and I hoped Kate would like as Gwen’s voice, I said, “Katie. I take you to be my partner for life. I promise above all else to live in truth with you and to communicate fully and fearlessly. I give you my hand and my heart as a sanctuary of warmth and peace, and pledge my love, devotion, faith and honor as I join my life to yours.”

As I said these words I watched Kate. At first there was no reaction. Then I saw a smile slowly appear on her face, then tears appear in her eyes.

When I finished I looked at Dr. Hickey and she said, “I hope that you don’t mind that I picked that. When I heard the two of you repeat that to each other I just fell in love with it.”

“I don’t mind at all.”, I said. Then I looked at Kate and said, “Katie?”

“No.”, Kate said, “Not at all. I fell in love with it too.”

“And?”, I asked.

“The voice? I like it. It sounds funny coming out of Gary. From Gwen it’s going to sound great.”

“You really think so?”

“I do. It’s a little deep, but I think it’ll work for Gwen.”

We sat and talked with Dr. Hickey for a while. We discussed some of the other things that Gwen needed to work on. Such as vocabulary, grammar, and body language.

As we were leaving Dr. Hickey said, “Just be careful. Try to keep Gary and Gwen separate. Saying something as Gwen would say it when you’re Gary might not be good.”

“I figured that.”, I said, “You know. When I’m dressed as Gwen, I feel that I’m Gwen. I feel that what I do is what Gwen would do. I’m hoping that it’ll be the same way when she talks.”

“Gary’s right.”, Kate said, “It amazes me every time. When Gwen is here, Gary is no where to be found. It’s the same when he’s Gary. Gwen’s no where to be seen.”

As we walked back toward Kate’s dorm, she was hugging my arm and she said, “Now Gwen can participate in conversations.”

“Yea.”, I said, “Won’t everyone be surprised.”

“Going to tell Jaimie and Billie?”

“Mmm. I just might wait until the next meeting.”

Wednesday, April 9

I had another meeting with Dr. Richland, as number 79432, this afternoon. It was basically some more tests and a short talk. I wasn’t sure if this was going anywhere.

Friday, April 11

We were back home for the weekend and Kate was in a very good mood. Just before we’d left campus she had received a letter from where she’d worked last summer offering her a job as the head life guard at the lake.

As we walked into her house her mother greeted each of us with a hug and kiss. With a grin I said, “Hi mom.”

“I see you remembered.”, Kate’s mother said.

With an even bigger grin I said, “I didn’t want to receive the wrath of Mother Branson again.”

That got me a frown from Kate’s mother which turned into a smile.

I followed Kate upstairs to our room and as I set our cases on the floor she attacked me. It wasn’t long until we were on her bed with her sitting on top of me. She looked down at me and said, “Lover. If we weren’t having dinner in an hour I’d seduce you right now.”

“We’ve got all weekend.”

“I know and I’m not going to waste a minute of it.”

After dinner we were back to a favorite place, in front of the fireplace in the pool house. The necking and petting got very steamy. We knew Kate’s parents were going to the country club soon, so we held off going further.

We heard her parents pull out of the driveway. A minute later Kate had turned the fireplace off, grabbed me by the hand, and we were on the way to our room.

This girl never ceases to amaze me. I won’t go into details, but this weekend was fantastic. I will say this, we’re glad Kate’s parent’s bedroom is at the other end of the house.

Monday, April 14

“Hi lover.”, Kate said as I walked up to join her for lunch.

“Hi.”, I said as I gave her a kiss and sat down.

“Something bothering you?”

“I’m not sure.”

“So, tell me.”

“Dr. Richland wants to meet Gwen.”

“Why?”

“I’m not sure. When I called him this morning he wanted to get together again on Wednesday. He also told me that he’d been talking to his doctoral students about the study and that one was very interested in me. They both want to meet my feminine side. So, he asked if I’d come as Gwen on Wednesday and if one of his students could be there.”

“Are you comfortable doing this?”

“Kind of. We’ve talked a lot about Gwen and her going out. How it feels right when I’m her. He’s been very interested in her. Why I do it, why you like it, and stuff like that.”

“Do you want me to go with you?”

“I’d feel better if you did and it would be nice. You’ll probably have to wait in the outer office.”

“No problem. I have some reading to catch up on.”

“I’ll call Bill and see if I can change at his place.”

Wednesday, April 16

I didn’t want Jaimie or Bill to hear Gwen’s new voice just yet. So, I waited until we had left Bill’s apartment to start finding Gwen’s voice. Once I’d found it, Kate said, “You know. This is the first time I’ve heard Gwen’s new voice come out of Gwen.”

“It is, isn’t it?”, I said.

“I like it. It fits you.”

I just smiled.

As we walked into the Psychology Department’s outer office area the secretary asked, “May I help you?”

I said, “Yes. I have an appointment with Dr. Richland. I’m number 79432.”

“Yes Miss. I’ll tell him you’re here.”

She picked up the telephone, dialed a number, and said, “Dr. Richland your two-thirty is here.”. . . “Yes sir I’ll tell her.”. . . “Yes sir. Her.”. . . “Just a minute.”

The secretary then said to me, “Miss. You did say 79432 didn’t you?”

I said, “Yes. 79432.”

Speaking into the telephone, the secretary said, “Yes, she did say 79432. Yes sir, I’ll send her right in.”

The secretary hung up the phone and said, “Miss. You can go right in.”

I said, “Thank you.”, to the secretary. Then I said to Kate, “I’ll be back.”, and I gave her a little kiss.

I walked down the hall to Dr. Richland’s office, knocked on the door, and heard, “Come in.”

I opened the door and walked in. Dr. Richland was there and so was a young oriental woman. The woman looked at me in a questioning way and then said, “Dr. Richland. I thought that 79432 was male?”

I looked at her and said, “I am.” Right off I didn’t like her.

Dr. Richland looked at me and asked, “You go by Gwen when you’re dressed?”

“Yes.”

“Lilly. This is 79432. I asked him to come as his feminine side today.”

“Gwen. This is Lilly Chen. She’s one of my doctoral students and she’s shown an interest in using you in her doctoral thesis.”

The girl and I just looked at each other. Then, as I sat in the chair in front of his desk, I placed my purse on my lap and crossed my legs.

“Dr. Richland,” the girl said, “are you sure this is a guy?”

“Yes I’m sure.”, Dr. Richland said, “I’ve talked to him quite extensively. He’s told me that he’s always been passable and has recently learned how to change his voice.”

“There is no way that this is a guy dressed as a girl. This is a real girl. I think you’ve been conned.”

“Lilly. I don’t think so.”

I got up, glared at the girl, and said, “I’m sorry that you don’t believe me. I know that there’s only one way that you would know for sure and my wife is the only one that’s going to see that.”

Then I looked at Dr. Richland and said, “Dr. Richland. I’m sorry, but I don’t need this. I was willing to help with your research project. I just won’t stand being treated this way.”

I spun on my heels and walked out the door. I could hear the doctor and the girl in a heated discussion. As I walked back into the outer office area, Kate looked at me and said, “That didn’t take . . . What’s wrong?”

“The student of Dr. Richlands’ basically called me a liar. I wouldn’t take her crap, so I told the doctor that I was done. Lets get out of here.”

“Sure honey.”, Kate said as she gathered her things and got up.

As we were walking down the hall toward the elevator I heard, “Gwen. Gwen. Please wait.” It was Dr. Richland.

We stopped and I just looked at him.

“I’m sorry.”, he said, “She was way out of line. You are a very interesting person. I’ve learned a lot from you and I think there’s more to learn.”

“You can thank her for ruining it.”, I said.

“She’s gone. Please come back and talk with me.”

As I looked at Kate as I said, “I don’t know.”

Kate said, “Honey, it’s up to you.”

Looking at Kate, Dr. Richland said, “Is this your wife?”

I just said, “Yes.”

“Would you both come back to my office with me? I’d really like to talk to you.”

“I guess we could.”

“Good.”, Dr. Richland said.

Kate and I followed the doctor back to his office. As we sat he said, “I can see why Lilly was confused. You do present as a very passable girl. You even sound like one. In fact when you first walked in here I thought you were a girl.”

“Thank you.”, I said.

“Lilly wanted to use you in her doctoral thesis. I think seeing you, when she was expecting to see a guy dressed as a girl was a little overwhelming. I apologize for her reaction.”

“I am a guy dressed as a girl.”

“I know. I think you could and would fool anyone that sees you. I think my secretary would even agree with me. You make an extremely handsome girl.”

Out of the corner of my eye I saw Kate smile.

“Can I ask you something without upsetting you?”

“I guess.”

“I need to do this for my peace of mind. It’s just because you do look so much like a real girl.”

I looked at him and said, “Go on.”

Dr. Richland looked through my folder, then said, “Only 79432 should know this. When the two of you went to the country club Halloween party how were you dressed?”

“As twin witches.”

The doctor smiled, nodded yes, then looked at Kate, and said, “I can’t call you Mrs. 79432. Can I?”

“You can call me Kelly.”, Kate said.

“Is that your real name?”

“No.”

“It appears that you’re very accepting of Gwen?”

“Very much so. She’s a lot of fun to be with and do things with. It’s fun having a husband that’s also your best girlfriend.”

“She told me that this whole thing started back in your junior year in high school.”

“Yes. As a prank at a dance.”

“Do you have time to tell me your story?”

“I guess we do.”, Kate said looking at me.

“Sure.”, I said.

“Gwen,” Dr. Richland asked, “do you mind if I talk with Kelly alone?”

“I guess it’s all right. As long as it all right with her.”

“Sure.”, Kate said.

I got up and left Kate and the doctor to talk. I sat in the outer office for about an hour. Then I told the doctor’s secretary that I was going to the vending machine area and then sit in the lounge on the first floor for a while. I also told her that if Kelly was done before I got back to have her call me on my cell.

I left the office and the first place I stopped was the lady’s room. I walked in just like I’d done it all my life. At first I was the only one in there. Then as I was freshening my makeup two girls came in and they didn’t pay much attention to me.

I then headed to the vending machine area. I bought a bottle of ice tea, walked to the front of the building, and stood there looking outside.

I stood there looking out at the campus for a minute, then I just headed outside. I walked around for a little while and found a bench in front of the main library. It overlooked the main part of the campus. I sat there for a long time thinking about things. Thinking about what had happened over the past few years. Thinking about Katie and how much I loved her. Thinking about me sitting here looking like a girl and being confident that I could pass as one.

Then it hit me. I was sitting here in the middle of a large college campus, with hundreds of students walking past me without my safety net, Katie. I almost panicked. Then I realized that no one was really paying that much attention to me. They were going about their own business. I was getting the usual once over from a lot of the guys. I handled it as I always did by just ignore them and not making eye contact. From the girls that walked by I was getting and returning the occasional smile that girls exchange with each other.

I must have been lost in my thoughts as my cell phone ringing startled me. I knew it was Kate, so I answered it, “Hi lover.” . . . “Yea. It’ll take me a few minutes.” . . . “I’m over by the library.” . . . “Yeah, by myself. I just went for a walk.” . . . “Bye. See you in a few.”

As I started back toward Dr. Richland’s office, I was startled when the clock tower on the Administration Building struck five. Kate had been with the doctor for more than two hours and I’d been out on campus by myself for over an hour.

As I walked back into the Psychology Department’s offices the secretary smiled and said, “Go on back. They’re expecting you.”

I walked back to the doctor’s office and knocked. I heard him say, “Come in.” As I walked in, Kate turned, looked at me, and said, “Did you have a nice walk?”

“Sure,” I said, “I did a lot of thinking.”

“Gwen,” Dr. Richland said, “Kelly and I had a nice chat. If I didn’t have a class at six, I’d want to have a nice chat with the two of you. Do you think we could we get back together on Friday?”

“Sure.”, I said, “We’ve been going home on weekends. I do have a paper due next Monday and could use the weekend to finish it. Honey, what do you think?”

Kate said, “I could use some quiet study time this weekend.”

“Good.”, Dr. Richland said, “Will two o’clock work?”

As Kate and I were walking across campus toward one of the resident dining halls Kate said, “So, young lady, you were out on campus by yourself. Are we getting brave or what?”

“I don’t know.”, I said, “I almost panicked when I realized I was sitting there without you.”

“But you did it. You went out by yourself. Are you feeling more confidant?”

“Maybe. I don’t even know why I did it. I was just going to use the restroom and get something to drink. Then, when I was standing at the door to the building, I just walked outside and kept going. No one gave me any kind of strange look. Even when I used the restroom. The two girls that came in didn’t even bat an eye. It felt good.”

“Lover. I think your confidence level has reached a new milestone.”

We sat in the dining hall, eating dinner, and talking about what Kate and the doctor had talked about. It was just about the same things that he and I had talked about, except from Kate point of view.

As we walked back toward Bill’s apartment we stopped in a secluded spot. I looked at Kate and said, “You know what I miss?”

“What’s that lover?”, she said.

“The kisses that I stole from you when I walked you home from high school.”

“Like this one?”

Kate wrapped her arms around me and gave me a long, deep, kiss. Needless to say I was more than accepting. When we broke the kiss I looked at her and said, “Katie. I love you so much.”

She smiled and said, “No more then I love you.”

“Even looking like Gwen?”

“Yes, even looking like Gwen.”

Then I stole a kiss from her.

Friday, April 18

Kate and I walked in Dr. Richland’s office right at two. He confirmed what we already knew, that I was transgendered, that I had no interest in becoming a girl, and that Kelly was very accepting of me no matter what. He also said that when he met Gwen last Wednesday that he’d met a very confident woman. Not only in Gwen, but in Kelly. And that our relationship was very strong.

Then he told us something which was a surprise to both of us. He told us that he thought that I could live full time presenting as a woman, but remaining a man underneath. He also said that he wouldn’t be surprised if it happened at some point the future.

He went on to tell us that this summer he was going to write a paper on his research of gender identity disorder and that I was going to be a part of it. He also told us that there were very few transgendered people that accepted and embrace it as well as I do.

He then asked if we could stay in touch with him this summer while he wrote his paper and he gave us his private email address. I told him that we would and that I’d set up a blind email account on one of the free services.

As we walked back across campus Kate said, “Live full time as a woman, but be a guy underneath. I didn’t know you had it in you?”

“I didn’t either.”, I said.

“So, have you ever thought about doing it?”

Friday, April 25

Tonight was the final meeting of the support group for the school year. The last day of classes was May 9 and finals week was May 12.

As we’d done over the past few months, Kate and I where at Bill’s apartment to change before the meeting. Bill had just finished changing to Billie.

Katie had purchased my first little black dress for me. It hit me about six inches above my knees, had a scoop neck and puff sleeves. I had decided to go bare legged, no nylons. A first for me, except when I wore jeans, or pants. I got a little daring, no panties, just a thong.

After Kate had helped me with the breast forms and waist cincher I sat at Billie’s dressing table, in my underwear, doing my hair and makeup. I was going for a nice evening look. Nothing overboard.

I just love hoop earrings and that’s what I chose for tonight. Also, the necklace that Katie had gotten me, the one with the pendant that was shaped like two hearts. I put on a few rings, including the engagement ring. Then, just before I got up I slipped on my glasses and smiled at who was looking back at me.

As I stood up Katie said, “Young lady. I love that sexy butt of yours, but aren’t we a little underdressed with that thing?”

“I don’t think so.”, I said with a sexy little smile, “It’s warm tonight and I want to be comfortable.”

“No. You’re being bad.”

“Maybe a little.”

“Just be sure to keep your knees together and your dress pulled down.”

“Yes mother.”

That got me a serious frown and a, “Young lady. That’s no way to speak to your elders.”

I hung my head a little, grinned, and said, “Sorry.”

I slipped on my dress and Katie zipped it up. Then I slipped into my Mary Janes with the two inch heels. Katie looked at me over and said, “Very nice.”

As Katie was doing her make up, I started working on finding Gwen’s voice. I saw her watching me in the mirror. When I found my voice, she turned around, and said, “It’s interesting every time I hear you do that.”

“Yeah. Sometimes I can find it quickly. Sometimes it takes a little longer.”

After Kate had changed into Kelly we walked back to were Jaimie and Billie were. Jaimie said, “You two look very nice tonight.”

“Thanks.”, I said, “We aim to please.”

“Girlfriend. Where did that voice come from?”

“A lot of work with Dr. Hickey.”

“That is so great.”, Billie said, “I wish I could do that.”

“Go see her. She’ll tell you right up front if she thinks you can do it or not.”

The meeting was a big party celebrating the end of the school year and there were more people there then we’d ever seen before. One of the girls was being a disc jockey, so there was dancing, and all sorts of food and drink.

The people that I had spoken with at other meetings were surprised with my new voice and everyone wanted to know how I did it. Luckily Dr. Hickey was at the meeting, so I just smiled and pointed at her.

Part of this party was the recognition of members that were graduating, and Billie was one of those. Then they pulled out the two graduates that would actually be back next year for graduate school and again Billie was one of those. There were some tearful good byes. All in all, everyone had a great time. As we usually did after a meeting, the four of us went to our usual after the meeting place, Max and Tommy’s.

Saturday, April 26

There were a number of people who were at the meeting that also showed up at Max and Tommy’s. So, we had our own little party that lasted until they closed.

Jamie, Billie, Kelly, and I, then headed back to Billie’s. When Kate and I came out of the spare bedroom after changing, Jaimie asked, “Did you take your forms with you?”

“My forms?”, I asked.

“Sure.”

“Don’t they belong to the school?”

“Not any longer.”

“What do you mean?”

“I was talking with the theater department head the other day about the inventory that I’d done of the contents of the makeup rooms and I asked him why we had breast forms. He told me that two years ago a group had done a parody of the Harvard University’s Hasty Pudding group, and had purchased the forms for that and never used them.

“We went over the inventory and he marked a number of things including the forms to be disposed of. So, I just came out and told him that I had a couple of friends that were crossdressers and might just like the forms. He said that he just couldn’t give them to me, but could sell them to me at a very good price.

“The forms you’ve been wearing are yours. There’s also two cans of spray adhesive and two cans of remover that are yours.”

I just looked at her for a minute, smiled and said, “Thank you. That’s wonderful. Can I pay you for them?”

“No. I figured that you liked them. You’re such a good friend that it’s the least I can do.”

“Those had to be expensive?”

“Attachable ones are. He gave them to me for pennies on the dollar.”

I gave her a very big hug.

Thursday, May 15

Somehow the three of us, Wendy, Kate, and I, had managed to get all of our things into Wendy pickup. Then after my last exam we were on the way home for the summer. Kate had her job at the lake and I’d heard from my boss at the parks. They wanted me back.

Our first stop was at my house. We got rid of some of my things and picked up other things to take with us to Kate’s house. My mother insisted that the three of us stay for dinner. After dinner we headed to Kate’s house and after unloading all of her things, Wendy left. We had offered to go with her and help her unload, but she said that she didn’t have that much and her younger brother could help her.

After Kate and I had everything in her room we came back down for something cold to drink. Kate’s father had left for a meeting of some sort and we found her mother in the kitchen. Kate got us a couple of soft drinks out of the refrigerator and we sat at the kitchen table. Her mother finished what she was working on and joined us at the table.

Kate’s mother was usually very talkative, but was being unusually quiet. Kate and I talked about our plans for the summer, besides work. Including, getting away for a short honeymoon.

Finally Kate picked up on her mother not taking part in our conversation and asked, “Mom, is everything all right?”

“Yes. Honey. Why?”

“You’re just being so quiet.”

“I’m trying to figure out how to ask something . . . without either of you thinking that I was snooping.”

“Mom, just ask.”

Her mom looked a little apprehensive as she said, “I was doing some spring cleaning, getting your room ready for you and I found something.”

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