The Working Girl Blog #39: That's it

   

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The Working Girl Blog #39: That's it
As usual, to see all of Bobbie's "Working Girl" blogs, click on this link: http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/book/19261/working-girl-blogs

Someone who I know from Big Closet sent me an email last night, but I was only able to read it this morning (I suppose we have different time zones), Anyways, I won't go into the particulars of the email, but the gist of it was that the person that wrote the email was "disappointed" at the quality of the posts in my blog, "The Working Girl," here in BCTS. The person said that he/she liked it when it started, but the quality has steadily gone downhill. (Funny thing though, is that she said that I wrote so bad, she never even read any of my stuff here in BCTS...)

Well, I suppose she's right. I also think it has. As I had dreaded, it has come to the point where I have less and less to blog about - my humdrum life is generally not interesting, and what I have already written - I think that has exhausted all the interesting stuff that I can write about my day-to-day. New stuff will come, I am sure, but I am not confident there would be enough to keep the blog running. Recently, I have been struggling to write about things that would be interesting to the readers, as well as to remain true to the spirit of the site - a site for TG fiction, and a forum for TG (and TG-related) discussions and topics.

True, I can stray from that spirit, as Erin is quite liberal in allowing contributors to write about almost anything in her site, even if they're not TG-related. And a few contributors do. But I guess I don't want to do that - after all, I go to the site for TG stories and topics. So I don't want to water down the TG content of BCTS.

When I wrote the first blog of what turned out to be the first of thirty-eight Working Girl blogs three months ago, I had never thought that it would even reach thirty-eight. And when I decided to organize them into The Working Girl Blogs, I had this constant fear that the fount would eventually dry up and I wouldn't be able to continue on. It is a "working girl blog" after all, and there's only so much office stuff I can write about and still keep the blog interesting.

That person who wrote that email accused me of showing off, of bragging, and that what I wrote was just a lot of self-indulgent stuff. That hit me real bad. I never thought I was bragging. Ever since I started these blogs, I have tried to stay on what Anne calls the "happy side" of life. Perhaps I do that too well that I sound like I'm bragging. In this site are people who so desperately want to have the same thing I wanted, and are mired in the same darkness and sadness that I and people like me are heir to. The fact that, in my blogs, I deliberately try to stay on the greener side of the street, make it seem like I am not there in the dark with them. No one really knows how difficult it is to write and make it like I live life with such zest, as Mea puts it.

It's so difficult to be so... peppy, But I have tried not to lay my own demons on the site's readership, and hope to change people's reading material a bit by providing a bit of "light." But, apparently I do it so well that some people think I am showing off. I suppose, in a way, it is a form of showing off. The fact that it is such an effort to do so seems not to cut it for people like the one who wrote the email. I guess I do too good a job of it.

Well, whatever it is, because of this, and because I am finding it more and more difficult to do it, I am putting "30" on the Working Girl blogs... sort of. The effort of juggling my day-to-day as well as continuing the blog at the same time, and these are all on top of me coping with my own demons, is very difficult, to say the least (you might have noticed that I haven't been as prolific with my blogposts lately). So the regular blogs end here. I will still add to it from time to time, if I have something to write about, but no more trying to make it a regular blog.

I know it isn't possible to make everone happy, and that's true here in BCTS as well. I've had a few people here whom I have never gotten along with (such as the one who wrote the email), or people who strongly don't agree with the stuff I write, or just like to contradict me or like to pounce on my mistakes, but they're just a handful - actually, almost all the poeple here in BCTS are pretty okay, or are at least civil about it. If I was able to weather almost twenty years of having to deal with intolerant people who do not, or are not willing to, give people like us a chance, a few low-brow, prejudiced, narrow-minded exceptions should be easy to put up with.

That is not to say that I won't be writing other blogposts in BCTS, or writing new fiction - I have some stuff in the works: new installments for Danny, Mark and Kimmie (I am sure some people will be happy to hear that), plus a few brand-new stories/poems. And with more time on my hands, I think I can get them out quicker. And, like I said, I will be posting some Working Girl blogs from time to time.

My unending gratitude to those who have been reading my blog regularly for the past three months, and for all your uninhibited and exuberant expressions of appreciation.

Best to get back to work now.

Smile, guys. I'll be around. Seeya later!

   
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