Synopsis:

Jaimie had some problems with being in Linda and Amy’s wedding. Is Jaimie going to be all right? Will she go back in the closet? Will she be gone for ever? Or . . .

Story:

Salt & Pepper, and Sugar & Spice.

Chapter 7

Jaimie

Jaimie sat there for a while in thought, and in a trembling voice finally said, “I think, after today, Jaimie is going back in the closet.”

You could see the hurt come across Ronnie’s face. Amy noticed, and since she was sitting next to her, she took Ronnie’s hand, and held it. Sara and Mark just looked at each other. Linda just looked at Jason, and shook her head.

Finally Jaimie’s mom then just said, “Honey. Why?”

Jaimie looked at her mom with tears in her eye, then at Ronnie, and said, “I . . . I love being Jaimie, and I even love going out. But, going out is hard. I’m so afraid that I’ll be read, and both Ronnie and I will be humiliated. Dressing at home, and around Amy and Linda, is one thing. Being out like this is really hard on my nerves.”

“Jaimie.”, Mark Braverman said.

“Yes.”

“Before I met you for the first time, Sara had told me what Linda had told her about you. And, when I did meet you, I saw what she was talking about. You’re natural as a girl. Granted you are tall, but there are a lot of tall girls. Look at Ronnie. You’ve learned to act like a girl, you move like a girl, your mannerisms are feminine. I think your problem is that you’re not sure of yourself, and of who you are. Linda had this problem. I know Sara told you that I’m a psychologist, and do a lot of work with the transgendered community. Could we talk? I know I can help you find yourself.”

“I . . . I don’t know.”, Jaimie said, as she looked at Ronnie. Ronnie was looking at Jaimie with a little bit of a hopeful smile.

“Jaimie, it won’t hurt to sit down, and just talk. Just the two of us. We can even do it at our house, if you like? And, Ronnie can come along, and Sara can keep her company.”

Jaimie again looked at Ronnie, again she smiled, and nodded yes.

“Well.”, Jaimie said, “I guess it wouldn’t hurt to talk.”

Taking out a business card, Mark wrote something on the back, handed it to Jaimie, and said, “Good. Here is my home phone number. Give me a call when you’re ready to talk. And, please make it soon.”

“Thank you. I will.”

Sara whispered to Linda, “That’s something he doesn’t do for just anyone.”

“I know.”, Linda whispered back, “I didn’t get that number until after I’d known you guys for a while.”

Ronnie looked at Jaimie, and mouthed, “Thank you. I love you.”

Jaimie’s mom looked at her, and said, “Honey. I’ll help you in any way that I can.”

On the way home, Jaimie was very quiet. And, Ronnie knew that she was doing some serious thinking. So, she just left her to her thoughts.

After they arrived home, they helped each out of their dresses. Ronnie helped Jaimie remove the breast forms. And, Jason was back. The rest of the day Jason was very quiet. Ronnie figured that when he was ready to talk he would. She knew he didn’t sleep very well, as she didn’t sleep at all worrying about him, he had tossed, and turned most of the night.

The next morning, they were both up early. And, Jason was still very quiet, and it was beginning to get to Ronnie. About midmorning, she finally said, “Honey. Please talk to me.”

He looked at her, and said, “Lets go somewhere.”

There was a state park not far away, and they headed there. It had some nice secluded places to sit, and just be alone with nature. They found one of these, found a bench, and sat. They sat there in silence for a time, before Ronnie said, “Honey. Please talk to me. I’m worried about you.”

“I’m sorry.”, Jason said.

“That’s all right. But, please tell me what’s going on.”

“I’m not really sure. Everyone yesterday, including my mom and sister, were all right with Jaimie. I was the only one having problems with her. And, I really don’t know why. I love being Jaimie for you. And, it also makes me feel good. But, it also confuses me. And, there are just times that I’m scared of her.”

“Scared of her?”

“I’m afraid that she’s becoming too strong.”

“Too strong?”

“That she wants to take over. That she wants me to become her full time.”

Ronnie sat back, and just looked at Jason, and thought, ‘Oh God. I’m losing him. I couldn’t stand to lose him. And, I brought this whole thing on.’ Thinking this, brought tears to her eyes. Jason saw the tears, and said, “Honey, don’t cry.”

“I can’t help it. I did this to you. And, I’m losing you. You are my life. And, I can’t lose you.”

“Honey. You didn’t do this. It’s part of me. You just saw that it made me happy. So, you just helped me. And, you will never lose me.”

“But, . . . But, what if . . . “

“Honey. There’s no ifs. I’m going to talk to Mark. I want out of this one way or another, or at least to control it in some way. And, I think he can help. Or, I hope he can.”

Ronnie kissed him, and they just held each other. Jason couldn’t see the tears running down Ronnie’s cheeks. And, she wouldn’t let go of him. They just sat, holding each other, for a long time. Finally, Ronnie said, “I love you so much. I have nothing without you.”

“I know love. You’re also my whole life. And, I don’t like seeing you cry.”

“I’m sorry. But, I can’t help it. I’m so afraid that I’ll lose you.”

“No way are you going to lose me. I married you because I love you. There is no one else in my life but you. And, I’ll always be here for you.”

They just sat there together for a long time in silence. Finally, Ronnie turned, took Jason’s face in her hands, kissed him, and in a very serious tone, said, “Love. No matter what, I’m here for you. You are Jason first and foremost. But, we both know that Jaimie is a part of you. And, I know that will never change. We need to learn to live with her. With you in control. Not her.”

“I’m hoping Mark can do that for us.”

“If he can’t, we’ll find someone that can.”

Ronnie had made up her mind. She didn’t like seeing Jason this way. It wasn’t good for either of them. And, if she had to be the strong one. Then she would.

A few days later, Ronnie and Jason were pulling into the driveway of a very nice house. It was Sara and Mark’s house, and Jason had come to talk with Mark. Mark had asked Jason to be sure to come as Jason, and not Jaimie. Sara answered the door, and gave both Ronnie and Jason a welcoming hug. She said, “Mark’s in the den. I’ll take Jason there. And, then Ronnie and I will have a nice chat. I won’t be but a minute, Ronnie.”

Ronnie gave Jason a kiss, and whispered, “It’ll be fine.”

When Sara came back, she took Ronnie by the hand, and led her to the kitchen to get something to drink, and then out onto the patio. The patio overlooked a large wooded back yard, with a large pool just off the patio, that was secluded from the neighbors. The two girls sat together in silence for a long time, until Sara finally said, “You’re worried about Jason. Aren’t you?”

“Very.”, Ronnie answered.

“Don’t be. Mark is very good at figuring these things out, and he’ll help Jason.”

“I really hope so. Jason is worried that Jaimie is becoming too strong.”

“Too strong?”

“He feels that she’s trying to take over. And, he really doesn’t want that.”

“I see. How do you feel?”

“I . . . I love Jason with all my heart. And, I don’t want to lose him.”

“How would you feel if Jaimie was around full time?”

“I don’t know. I also love Jaimie, but only because I know that it’s really Jason. If it was only Jaimie, I don’t know how I’d feel. I think I’d still love her, but I don’t know . . . ”

“If Mark finds that Jason is truly transgendered, and his female side really wants out, how would you feel.”

“I ... I don’t know.” And, the tears started.

Sara reached over, took Ronnie’s hand, and said, “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to upset you. I just wanted to know how you felt. And, now I think I know.”

“Jason means the world to me. I’ll do anything to help him. And, I’ll fight to keep him.”

“You really do love him. Want to help me make supper.”

“I guess. But, we can’t stay.”

“Why not? Jason and Mark could be hours. Once Mark gets started, he doesn’t like to stop.”

“He’s really that good?”

“Yes. He’s helped many people. Hasn’t Linda told you about him?”

“She had nothing but good things to say about him.”

“Come on, help me with dinner. And, you two are staying.”

More than three hours after they had started, Mark and Jason came wandering into the kitchen. Sara said, “I was beginning to wonder about you two.”

“We were just having a nice talk.”, Mark said, “What’s for dinner?”

“There’s four steaks for you to put on the grill. Ronnie and I have already fixed everything else.”

Ronnie wasn’t hearing any of this conversation, but was just looking at Jason. Who, for the first time in a long while, had a little smile on his face. Ronnie smiled back at him, and said. “I like that smile.”

“Really?”, Jason said.

“Yea. It’s been gone too long.”

“Sorry.”

“No problem, as long as it’s coming back. So, did you two solve anything?”

“We made some progress.”, Mark said, “But, we have more work to do. Don’t we Jason?”

Jason said, “I think we did make some progress.”

Ronnie just looked at Jason, and continued to smile.

On the way home, Ronnie asked, “Want to talk about it?”

“Not yet. Mark said, that we still have a ways to go. But, he feels that we’ll get a handle on it soon. He feels that Jaimie isn’t as strong as I feared, and that she can be controlled. But, she’ll never completely go away, that she is part of me, and always will be. I just have to learn how to use her for my own ends. The next time we get together, he wants Jaimie, and he also wants to talk to you.”

“Honey, we’ve always known that she was a part of you, and would probably never go away. And, he wants to talk to me?”

“He wants to know your feelings.”

“I didn’t think you wanted to talk about this yet.”

“I guess maybe I did.”

“Thanks.”

The following week was an interesting one for our couple. Jason was almost his old self. Jaimie was around, but only in the background. That was until Friday night. Ronnie had gone out to do some shopping. And, when she returned, she was greeted by the aroma of food cooking. She thought, ‘Jason must be in a good mood. He hasn’t cooked dinner in a long time. And, it smells wonderful.’

She walked into the kitchen to find out what he was cooking, but there stood Jaimie dressed to the nine’s. She was wearing a very short, low-cut dress, heels, wig, earrings, and a necklace. And, Ronnie could see the garter tabs from a garter belt, holding up her nylons, just showing below the hem of the skirt. Also, it appeared that Jaimie had attached her breast forms, as she was showing some cleavage. Ronnie just stood there, and watched. Her thoughts were confused, trying to figure out what was going on. Was he all right? Was this okay?

Jaimie finally saw her standing there, smiled at her, and said, “Hi love. I thought that you deserved a nice meal tonight.”

Jaimie’s makeup was really pretty, like she was going out to a club. And, Ronnie asked, “Ah. . . . Thanks. But, why Jaimie?”

“I just felt like it.”

“Are you sure?”

“Yea. Mark said that it would be all right, as long as I felt good about it. Besides, when we go see Mark tomorrow, I have to be Jaimie.”

“But, why the really sexy look?”

“I just felt like it, and for you.”

“You know your garters are showing?”

“Yea. Sexy. Isn’t it?”

“I guess.”

Putting his hands on his hips, and with a pouty look, he said, “You guess?”

“Yea. It’s sexy all right. But, . . . ”

“But, what?”

“Are you sure you’re all right?”

“Honey. If I felt that I couldn’t handle it, I wouldn’t have done it.”

“Okay. If you’re sure. What’s for dinner?”

After they had cleaned up the dinner dishes, they sat, and cuddled in the living room. Ronnie just loved doing this, and she could feel that Jason was very comfortable as Jaimie right now. And, asked, “You’re so dressed up. You don’t want to go out. Do you?”

“No. I’m just happy sitting here with you. And, you know that’s when I’m the happiest.”

“Good!”, Ronnie said, in a somewhat fake serious tone, “Cause young lady. I’d never let you out of the house with your garters showing like that.”

“Is that so?”

“Yes. That’s so.”

“Well, what if I just go out.”

This started a little tussle between the two, with Ronnie ending up pinning Jaimie down on the floor in such a way that she could hardly move. And, she said, “Young lady. You are being bad. And, I’m going to have to punish you.”

“You think so.” And, Jaimie struggled to get loose, but couldn’t.

“Can’t get loose can you?”

Jaimie struggled some more, but to no avail.

Then, looking down at her, and how pretty she looked. Ronnie smiled, and said, “I know just the punishment for such a bad girl.”

Jaimie struggled a little more. Ronnie then bent down and kissed her. Just a little kiss. And, then sat back up. She looked at her some more, bent down again, and this time kissed her very deeply. As she sat back up again, she said, “You know, you are a very pretty girl, and you turn me on.”

“Going lesbian on me?”, Jaimie asked with a grin.

“Only with you lover.”

This turned into one of their long love making sessions. And, they ended up falling asleep in each others arms on the livingroom floor.

The following morning, Ronnie awoke, still cuddled with Jaimie, and just smiled to herself.

Later that day as Ronnie and Jaimie were pulling into Mark and Sara’s driveway, there was another car there, and Ronnie said, “Isn’t that Linda’s car?”

“Yea. It is.”, Jaimie replied.

“Wonder what they’re doing here.”

Kiddingly Jaimie said, “Maybe a group session.”

Sara met them at the door, wearing a short bath robe, and she gave both of them hugs. And, said, “Jaimie. You look very nice today.”

“Thank you.”, Jaimie replied.

“Did we see Linda’s car in the drive?”, Ronnie asked.

“Mark and I figured that we’d have a small get together. Linda and Amy are out by the pool. And, I figured that Jaimie and I would join them, while Mark talks with Ronnie.”

“Sounds like fun. But, we didn’t bring suits.”

“No problem, I have a number of extras. Mark’s in the den. I’ll take Ronnie there, and then we’ll find a suit for Jaimie. And, we’ll get Ronnie one when you’re done with Mark.”

Ronnie gave Jaimie a kiss, and said, “See you in a little while lover.”

“Later babe.”

Sara was back in a few minutes with a big grin on her face. And, Jaimie asked, “What’s so funny?”

“Oh. Just something Ronnie said.”

Sara and Jaimie then went to Sara’s bedroom, to find Jaimie a bathing suit. She had a couple one-piece suits, a couple two-piece suits, and a bikini. Sara asked Jaimie, “Ever wear a girl’s bathing suit before?”

“Only the bottoms.”

“Only the bottoms?”

“Yea.” And, Jaimie went on to tell Sara about the lost clothes on the honeymoon.

“That’s really cute.”, Sara said with a smile, when Jaimie was finished.

Jaimie picked out a pretty blue one piece suit, and took it into the bathroom to change. It turned out that this suit had high cut legs, and a low-cut back. But, it fit Jaimie well, and felt good.

When they got to the pool, Sara took off her robe, and Jaimie saw that she was wearing a skimpy bikini. Amy and Linda got out of the pool, and each gave Jaimie a very big hug. With Amy saying, “That suit looks very nice on you Jaimie.”

“Yes, it does.”, Linda added.

“Thanks. Sara has good taste.”, Jaimie replied.

“Come on in the water. It’s really nice.”

“Ah . . . My wig. It’s not glued on, and I don’t have a bathing cap.”

Linda looked at Sara, and said, “Doesn’t Mark have some waterproof wig glue?”

“I think so.”, Sara replied, “I’ll go see if I can find it.”

“Bring some bobby pins, too.”

Jaimie thought, ‘Mark has wig glue. He doesn’t look like he wears a wig.’

While Sara was gone, Amy applied sun tan lotion all over Jaimie, saying, “We don’t want you to burn.”

Sara was back in a few minutes with a bottle of wig glue, and bobby pins. Linda went to work attaching Jaimie’s wig. Then after the glue had dried, she quickly did Jaimie’s hair up in a nice twist so that it wouldn’t get in the way while swimming. Meanwhile, Sara and Amy made some drinks, and set them next to the pool.

After Linda was done with Jaimie’s hair, all four girls were in the pool, enjoying the water, their drinks, and they chatted away like four girlfriends. The only thing that would have given away that all four weren’t real girls was Jaimie’s male voice.

It was a good hour and a half later, when Ronnie and another girl came walking out on the patio. Amy saw them first, and said, “Well it’s about time you two got out here.”

Linda said, “Hi guys. Come on in, the waters fine.”

Jaimie turned to look at who the others were talking to, figuring it was Ronnie and Mark, and was going to say something, but just stared. This other girl, was it Mark?

Sara moved behind Jaimie, put her hands on her shoulders, and whispered, “Honey. That’s my Mark. But, right now he’s Vicki.”

“Mark’s a crossdresser?”

“Yes. But, he’s not as passable as you or Linda.”

“But, he does look good.”

“Yes. But, you knew it was Mark when you saw him. Didn’t you?”

“Well. Yea. I guess.”

“We just thought it would be fun to have a girls get together. I’d better find Ronnie a suit.”

Ronnie and Sara ran off to find Ronnie a swim suite, and Mark, now Vicki, took off her robe, and she was wearing a nice two-piece bathing suit. She lowered herself into the water, and moved next to Jaimie, and said, “I’m sorry. I should have told you that I was a crossdresser too.”

“No. It’s fine. It was just a little bit of a shock to see you standing there looking like a girl. And, now I know why you had the wig glue.”

“This is one reason that I work with the transgendered community. I’m part of it. And, I think being one helps me understand better.”

“Interesting. So, how long have you been dressing.”

“Like you. Since I was little.”

Jaimie handed Vicki a drink, and they continued to chat. It was fifteen minutes before Sara and Ronnie were back, and Ronnie had a robe on. As she walked up to the pool, she took it off, and she had on a very skimpy, bright red, bikini. Jaimie shook her head, and said, “These French girls. Always showing off.”

Ronnie jumped into the pool, deliberately splashing Jaimie. Everyone enjoyed the pool for another hour, until Sara said, “Vicki. Honey. Why don’t you, Jaimie, and Ronnie, cook us some burgers? And, Linda, Amy, and I will get the rest of the dinner.” After the burgers were done, the six sat, and enjoyed a nice picnic style supper, and the rest of the evening.

Linda and Amy were the first to leave. After changing back into their street clothes, they said goodnight to everyone, and left. Jaimie was with Mark in the kitchen, and said, “I thought that we were going to have another talk today?”

“In a way we did.”, Mark said.

“We did?”

“I saw what I wanted to see. How you interacted with others. And, I had a nice talk with Ronnie, and learned a lot.”

“All the dirt?”

“All the dirt, and then some.”

“Oh great.”

“No. I really don’t think you have a problem. Other than what you perceive as problems, which aren’t.”

“Really?”

“Yes. We’ll sit down later, and talk about them. The three of us. But, first, I want to talk with you one more time alone.”

“You’re the boss.”

As Jaimie and Ronnie were changing to leave. Jaimie removed her swim suit, and Ronnie said, “Honey. You’ve got a nice tan.”

“A tan?”

“You’re going to have some very interesting girl type tan lines from that suit.”

“You’re kidding?”

“No. Look in the mirror.”

Jaimie looked in the mirror, and sure enough, everywhere the suit wasn’t he had tanned a little. “It could be worse. I could have gotten a burn. Guess I should be glad Amy put lotion on me.”

“No one will see it.”

“How about the doctor on Thursday?”

“I forgot about your checkup. Want to reschedule it?”

“How long will the tan last? A few months?”

“Probably.”

“I guess I just might as well go. He probably won’t say anything.”

On the way home Jaimie was much chattier that usual, starting out with, “How about Vicki? I would never have guessed that Mark was a crossdresser.”

“Me either.”, Ronnie said, “When Sara was taking me to the den, she told me to not be surprised as to how Mark was dressed. And, when I saw him, I couldn’t help but stare for a few seconds. His breasts look like yours, almost real. Sarah told me that Mark had been a crossdresser for longer than she had known him. And, as Mark and I talked, it surprised me as to how comfortable he was, sitting there in the swim suit and robe, and how feminine his voice was.”

“So, what did you two talk about.”

“Us.”

“What about us?”

“Oh everything. How we met. How I found out about your crossdressing. How I felt about Jaimie. How I interact with Jaimie. How our relationship was. Stuff like that.”

“So, he knows all about us?”

“Yea. Most everything.”

“I hope it helps.”

“It will. I have a good feeling about this.”

“A good feeling?”

“Yea. Even after your first talk with Mark, things were better. You just seemed better. Relaxed. More at ease with yourself.”

“Really?”

“Watching you today with everyone. You just relaxed, and became Jaimie. Jason is first and foremost, Jaimie is a part of Jason, and not in control. I also know Mark told you that most of your problems, which you see with Jaimie, are just imagined. ”

“I was comfortable today. I knew everyone, and they accept me for who I am.”

“Who are you?”

“Huh?”

“Who are you?”

“I . . . I guess I’m Jason.”

“Yea. You’re Jason. But, who is Jason?”

“I guess I’m a little complicated.”

“To say the least.”

“I guess that Jason is a guy, who first of all loves Ronnie very much. Who does enjoy his life, his family, and believe it or not, school. He also has a quirk. He has a feminine side. A feminine side that he enjoys. But, he does have concerns about her.”

“You’re sweet. These concerns. Are they getting any less?”

“I think. Mark, or should I say Vicki, is beginning to help me see that they are all in my mind, and that I shouldn’t have them.”

Ronnie just smiled, and thought, ‘I think I’m getting my old Jason back.’

Ronnie then changed the subject. And, the rest of the way home they just talked about a number of things, including how much fun they had that day with Mark/Vicki, Sara, Amy, and Linda.

When they arrived home, Jaimie disappeared into the bedroom, and a little while later Jason appeared, but still wearing the wig. Ronnie looked at him, and said, “Is this a new look?”

“No. I can’t find the adhesive remover.”

“Men. They can’t find anything. Come with me.”

That week was a good one for the couple. Ronnie was seeing the old Jason back. The doctor’s appointment was uneventful, except when the nurse did an EKG, and said, with a smile, “Nice tan lines.”

The following Saturday was a little rainy, and Ronnie and Jason were at Mark and Sara’s home early in the afternoon. They were a little surprised when Vicki answered the door. Vicki said, “Hi. Come on in. Hope you don’t mind, but I had a rough week, and needed to relax. So, Vicki is here.”

“No problem. I understand the need to relax.”, Jason said.

Ronnie found Sara in the kitchen, and the two, sat, had tea, watched the rain fall on the patio, and talked. Jason and Mark/Vicki went into the den, and talked for a couple of hours. Finally Vicki said, “Jason. I think we need Ronnie in here, and if you don’t mind, I’d like Sara here too.”

“Sure.”

“I’ll be right back.”, Vicki said, as she got up to go get the girls.

The three were back in a few minutes, and they sat and talked about Jaimie. Vicki talked with the couple for a good hour, and explained that Jason was not transsexual, but could be boarder line. And, he could feel comfortable in either role, a boy, or a girl. That, as they already knew, Jaimie was a part of Jason, and wouldn’t go away. But, that the fears that Jason felt when he went out as Jaimie were not real. And, that they could easily be overcome with some more counseling. That Ronnie had a real relationship with Jaimie, as a girlfriend, and more. That the two of them were really meant for each other. And, that Jason should not fear Jaimie, and should learn to enjoy her more.

She also explained that Jason was lucky, he could easily pass as a girl, and had a wife that knew, understood, supported, and loved both sides of him. The only real thing that was bothering Jason, was when he was out as Jaimie, his voice was still Jasons’. And, that made him afraid that he might be read, and that it might humiliate Ronnie and himself. Vicki looked at Sara, and said, “And, I think I know of someone that can help.” Then looking back at Jason, said, “If you’ll let her.”

Jason looked at Sara, and said, “You think you can help?”

“I know I can. I helped Linda.”, Sara said, “And, her male voice was deeper than yours. It will take some time, and hard work on your part.”

Jason looked at Ronnie. She smiled at him, and said, “Honey. It’s your call. But, I like Jaimie. No, I love Jaimie. It’s really a lot of fun to be with her, go out with her, but also realize that she is really Jason. It was a lot of fun teaching her makeup, and how to shop. But, my first love is Jason, and I hated seeing you so depressed at times. It really hurt. When you’re dressed as Jaimie, you are a girl. I think that the only thing that is keeping you from enjoying Jaimie to the fullest is your fear of being read. And, the only way that would happen is if you had to talk. This whole thing is up to you. It’s what you want.”

Jason looked at Ronnie for a few seconds, then said, “No. It’s what we want. This is our lives, not just mine. You love it when I’m Jaimie. I love being Jaimie. Vicki got me to see that my fears about her trying to control me were unfounded, and that going out as her was up to me. And, I love going out as Jaimie, if I can get over the fear of being read.”

“Honey. I think if you listen to Vicki that you can get over this. And, I think Sara can help you. And, then Jaimie will be someone that you can really live with, and have fun with.”

Jason again just looked at Ronnie for a few seconds, then looked at Sara, and said, “When do you want to start?”

“No time like the present.”, Sara said.

“Jason.”, Vicki said, “I do want a couple more sessions with you.”

“Sure. You’ve already gotten me to see a lot of things about myself and Jaimie.”

“Good. You go with Sara, and Ronnie and I will fix supper.”

“We are going to owe you guys some meals.”, Ronnie said.

“No, you won’t.”, Sara said, “We like you two, you’re great company, and we don’t like eating alone. So, having you here is really nice.”

Sara got up, and went out of the den with Jason. After they left, Vicki said to Ronnie, “I have something to tell you.”

A little over an hour later, the rain had stopped, and the four were sitting down on the patio to another meal. Sara started the conversation with, “Jason did well for his first voice lesson. I gave him some exercises to do every day, until we get together again next week.”

“How long will this take?”, Ronnie asked.

“It all depends. It may be a few months, or as long as a year. It’s hard to tell. It just takes patience, and some hard work.”

“I’d like you to come over for dinner next week, if you will.”

“We’d love to. But, next week we’re hosting a meeting here. And, we’d really like you two to come. Linda and Amy will be here.”

“A meeting?”, Jason asked.

“Yes.”, Vicki said, “There’s a crossdresser’s support group that meets once a month in various members’ homes. And, the meeting is here next week.”

“A crossdresser’s support group? Linda never mentioned it.”

“I asked Linda and Amy not to say anything to you about it until I had a chance to meet with you, and see what was best. We get together once a month, and usually have a pot luck dinner. So, you can cook for that. There’s about twenty to thirty people that come. Some by themselves, some with a spouse, or a friend. And, we have the dinner, a short business meeting, then sometimes a speaker, or help sessions, and things like that. Linda has given a demonstration of makeup, and hair styles. Sara has talked about the female voice. We had a lawyer once. Things like that.”

Jason looked at Ronnie, and she said, “Might be interesting.”

“Sure, we’ll be there.”, Jason said.

Sara said, “Fantastic. This is our dress in your best meeting. So, you’ll need to really dress up. And, you can bring a desert.”

“Dress up.”, Ronnie said, “We’ll have to go shopping.”

Jason looked at her, shook his head, and said with a grin, “I’m in trouble. The French shopping whirlwind is on the loose.”

That got him one of Ronnie’s infamous glares.

Needless to say, Ronnie and Jaimie went shopping. New lingerie for both of them. For Jaimie it was something new, an open bottom girdle, a strapless long line bra, nylons, thong, and a slip. For Ronnie it was just a strapless body briefer. New shoes, Ronnie’s were a red, three inch, jeweled, T-straps, and Jaimie’s were a three inch, crystal clear, stiletto mules. Ronnie had picked out Jaimie’s dress, and it was a black, almost floor length, strapless, tube dress with a sequined sheer overlay, and a slit up the right side almost to the hip. Ronnie had also gotten a strapless, tube dress, with a sequined hem, but in red, and it was much shorter than Jason’s.

When Jason returned from his lesson with Sara on Friday evening, Ronnie was grinning. He asked, “What’s so funny love.”

“Linda.”

“Linda?”

“Yea. I just called to confirm that she was going to do your hair for tomorrow night, and she really tried to get out of me what we were wearing.”

“Didn’t tell her. Did you?”

“No. I just said wait and see.”

“You don’t think we’re going overboard for a first meeting? After all we don’t know most of these people.”

“No. Remember that Sara said it was their dress in your best meeting. So, I figure that everyone goes all out. And, I’ll bet most of these people were at the wedding.”

Saturday afternoon, Jaimie visited Linda to have her hair done. And, Linda said, “You know Jaimie. I’d like to try a blond wig on you for a new look. Want to see?”

“Sure. Why not.”

Linda put a long blond wig on Jaimie, fussed with it for a few minutes, and turned Jaimie toward a mirror so she could see.

“Like it?”, Linda asked.

“Yea. It’s a different look. It really brings out my blue eyes.”

“Yes it does. Want to wear it tonight?”

“Sure.”

“Good. I’ll get started styling, as soon as I get it glued on.”

Later as Jaimie walked into the apartment, Ronnie saw him, and just stared. Jaimie said, “Something wrong?”

“No. Nothing. As a strawberry blond you really look nice. But, as a blond . . . And, what Linda did with the style really frames your face nicely.”

“Really?”

“Yes. We may have to change your makeup a little. But, now I’m worried.”

“Worried?”

“Now you are going to be prettier than I am.”

“No way.”

“Want to bet?”

Late that afternoon, Ronnie and Jaimie were pulling into the driveway at Sara and Mark’s house. And, there were already a dozen or so cars there, they parked, and as they were walking toward the house, Jaimie said, “I’m glad I don’t have to walk too far in these mules. I feel like I’m going to break my neck.”

“I told you to practice in them. But, you’ll get use to them.”

They walked around to the back of the house, and to patio area. There they saw twenty or so people standing around the pool, talking. Amy, as she was talking to Vicki and two others, was the first to see them, and she stopped mid-sentence when she did. Vicki turned to see what Amy was looking at, and smiled. They all walked over to Ronnie and Jaimie. And, Amy, looking at Jaimie, said, “Linda said that you looked really good as a blond, but not this good. And, that dress, it’s really you.”

Jaimie actually blushed, gave Amy a hug, and kiss on the cheek.

“Cat got your tongue?”, Vicki asked Jaimie.

“Sorry. But, the way you were staring, I thought something was wrong.”, Jaimie replied.

“Honey. Nothings wrong. It’s that the two of you are so pretty. Come on, I’ll introduce you to everyone.”

Vicki led Ronne and Jaimie up onto the patio, turned to the group, and said, “Everyone. Can I have your attention please.” . . . “We have two guests with us this evening. I’d like to introduce, Jaimie, and her wife Ronnie. Please introduce yourself to them, and make them feel welcome.”

There was a pleasant round of applause from the group, which embarrassed Jaimie a little. But, Ronnie and Jaimie felt welcome. Many people came up and introduced themselves. There were some girls where there was no trouble telling that they were really guys. There were some girls that looked very good. There were girls there with their wives. There were girls there alone. There was even one young girl there with her mother. And, there were two female to male crossdressers. Something new for both Ronnie and Jaimie.

They received a number of comments, mostly directed to Jaimie, such as, ‘You’re not a real girl?’, and ‘I’m jealous. You’re so pretty.’ Jaimie didn’t try to disguise her voice, so when she spoke, everyone knew she was really a male.

As the evening progressed, Jaimie felt more and more comfortable. More at ease being a girl.

Everyone had brought good things to eat, and they had a very nice dinner. The business meeting was very short. And, the entertainment for the evening was a fashion show, with only the crossdressers, male and female, getting up and showing off what they had worn. Jaimie was a little reluctant, at first, in getting up in front of everyone, but once she did, it became fun. In fact she showed off her best model walk. And, got a nice, long, round of applause.

When Jaimie sat back down, Ronnie whispered to her, “Very sexy, lover. I loved the model style walk.”

Jaimie just smiled.

After everyone had their turn up front. Sara got up, and said, “All right ladies and gentlemen. Amber will pass out paper and pencil to everyone, and we’ll vote for the best dressed girl and guy.”

Jaimie whispered to Ronnie, “I didn’t know this was a contest.”

“Me either.”, Ronnie whispered back.

After the papers were collected, Linda, Sara, and Amber counted the ballots, when they were done Linda got up, and said, “Would Jaimie and Mike come up here, please.”

Jaimie looked at Ronnie, and Ronnie said, “Go on. You won fair and square.”

Mike, a female to male crossdresser, was already standing with Linda, Sara, and Amber by the time Jaimie got to them. Mike made a fairly handsome guy, but was about six inches shorter than Jaimie. Sara said to the group, “Your votes showed that you felt Mike was the best dressed man here, and that Jaimie was the best dressed woman. And, we have for each of them a fifty dollar gift certificate from The Changing Scene.” There was a big round of applause for the two winners.

Linda then said, “We also felt that it might be fun to have a dance tonight, Jackie has volunteered to be the disk jockey, and we have some good music to dance to. So, anyone that feels like dancing please do. But, first, we would like our winning couple to have the first dance. Mike and Jaimie the floor is all yours.”

Jaimie looked at Sara with a, what do I do now look. Sara just smiled at her.

Mike whispered to her, “I’ve never danced as a guy before.”

“I’ve never danced as a girl with a guy.”, Jaimie whispered back, “I guess, we just need to try, but you’ll have to lead.”

Mike and Jaimie tried to dance, luckily Jackie had chosen a slow song, so it wasn’t too bad. They stumbled a bit, as Jaimie tried to lead every once in awhile. But, eventually, they actually did fairly well. Toward the end of the song, they were joined by others. And, when the song was over, Mike, being a gentleman, thanked Jaimie for the dance.

Jaimie went back, and sat with Ronnie, who had been joined by Amy and Linda. And, Amy said, “You dance like a natural.”

“Sure. A natural guy.”, Jaimie quipped.

“At first. But, you learned to follow really quickly, and you were even somewhat graceful. You just need a taller guy.”

“No. I need lessons on how to dance like a girl, and I need to dance with Ronnie.”

“I thought you’d never ask.”, Ronnie said, as she got up, and pulled Jaimie back on the dance floor.

On the way home, Ronnie asked Jaimie, “You had fun. Didn’t you lover?”

“Yea. Sort of.”, Jaimie replied.

“Sort of! You doing your model walk in front of everyone. You had fun up there. Admit it. And, dancing with Mike. I think if he was taller, you would have danced cheek to cheek.”

“Hey! Cheek to cheek with you, yes.”

“Interesting to see female to male crossdressers, wasn’t it?”

“I didn’t really think there were any.”

“I’d read that there are some, but a lot fewer then male to female. You do know Sara’s a lesbian. Don’t you?”

“Sara a lesbian!? How do you know?”

“Vicki told me, but I had a feeling about her.”

“A feeling?”

“Sara was a little too friendly when we were picking out a bathing suit for me.”

Luckily they were at a stop light. Because Jaimie turned, looked at Ronnie, raised a questioning eyebrow, and said, “Oh?”

“Just a little too hands on. Don’t worry lover. You’re enough girl for me.”

“I’d better be the only girl for you.”

“Lover.”, Ronnie said, with a sly grin, “You’re all the girl I need.”

“Wait! . . . Sara’s a lesbian, and married to Mark.”

“Yea. So?”

“But . . . “

“Oh yea, Vicki’s a female to male crossdresser. And, lives most of the time as a guy.”

“She’s a . . . How do you know?”

“She told me when she told me about Sara.”

“When did she tell you that?”

“The other week, when we had the swim party.”

“And, you didn’t tell me?”

“Sorry, I was going to. But, you got started talking about yourself, and I forgot.”

“You forgot. The girl that remembers everything. So, what did she tell you?”

“She said it started when she was a freshman in college, she had figured out that men had the upper hand in most things. And, since she had always leaned toward being masculine, and had actually dressed as a boy any times, she decided that she would try to see what going to school as a guy would be like. So, the summer between her freshman and sophomore years she started working on a male look. She got a guy’s short hair cut, stopped wearing makeup, let her eyebrows grow, and figured out what clothes would hide her girl’s figure. She also had met Sara, who was studying voice, and they became lovers. Together they worked on turning Vicki into Mark. She finished her degree as Mark, and lives most of the time as him. But, Vicki comes back to visit.”

“Okay. Mark is really Vicki, who is a lesbian, and who is Sara’s lover. I would have never guessed. Vicki makes a very passable guy. Actually a better looking guy, then a girl.”

Ronnie was all over Jaimie after they arrived home. She finally said, “Love. You know how I said you were all the girl I needed?”

“Yea.”

“Can I have Jaimie tonight?”

“You can have Jaimie any time you want her.”

That night, the two had one of their, long, slow, sexual adventures. And, in the morning, Ronnie awoke to long blond hair in her face. She smiled to herself, and just cuddled up closer to Jaimie.

A little while later Jason, still looking like Jaimie, rolled over, and looked at Ronnie.

Ronnie said, “Good morning lover.”

“Good morning yourself, love.”

“Interesting evening.”

“Very.”

“You seemed comfortable with yourself.”

“I was. Because I didn’t have to try and hide who I was. Everyone knew I was a guy.”

“But, a very pretty guy. It was fun watching you, and seeing you relax more than you have in a long time.”

“Fun?”

“Uh huh. The more you relaxed, the more you fell into being Jaimie. And, Jaimie was having fun last night.”

“Yea. It was a fun evening. I could just be me.”

“So, you were Jaimie?”

“I felt like I was last night.”

“How about after we got home?”

“Sort of. I just felt that last night was . . . was something special. Not saying that all our times together aren’t special, but this was just extra special.”

“In what way?”

“It just felt different. Like it was something that was going to be different, in a special way, and it was. Everything was wonderful.”

“You really like the slow, soft, sensual, love making. Don’t you?”

“It just makes me happy pleasing you for a long time. Seeing you enjoy everything we try.”

She gave him a very deep kiss, and said, “Lover. You please me in everything we do together.”

Over the following months, Jason and Sara got together every week to work on his voice. He worked hard on trying to perfect a feminine voice. Mark/Vicki met with Jason and Ronnie a couple of times, and brought Jason to the point of seeing that all his fears about Jaimie were really unfounded. Jaimie, Ronnie, Amy, and Linda went out a number of times as four girl friends. They also attended a few meetings of the support group, and really enjoyed interacting with everyone. Jason was back to being his old self.

Then during one of Jason’s sessions with Sara, it happened. He was going through some exercises, and his voice changed to a feminine one. It startled him, but Sara smiled, and said, “Hello Jaimie.”

“What just happened?”

“You changed your voice?”

“Wow. That was strange. Hearing my voice, then hearing a feminine voice.”

“You’re use to hearing your own voice when you talk, then it changed, and it sounds completely different. Want to hear what it sounds like?”

“Sure.”

“Okay. But, talk some more.”

“Like what?”

“Anything. Here, read this.”, Sara said, handing him a piece of paper.

Jason read it aloud, then Sara rewound the tape recorder, which she always kept running during these sessions. Then pressed play, and Jason heard himself doing the exercises. Then he heard his voice change, the conversation that he and Sara had when his voice changed, and finally what he had read. Sara pressed stop, and said, “What do you think?”

“It’s different. I like it.”

“It’s still a little rough. But, we’ll fix that. Now we have to try, and switch it back.”

“Try?”

“Don’t worry. We’ll get your male voice back. We just have to find the key. And, then work on switching it back and forth, so that you can do when you want to.”

It took them a little while to find the key to switch his voice back, but then they were able to switch back to Jaimies’ fairly easy, and then to Jasons’ again. He and Sara decided to keep his new voice a secret from everyone until Sara had a chance to work with him on perfecting it.

It didn’t take long before Jason was able to switch from his male voice to Jaimies’ new female voice, and back without a problem. And, it didn’t take Sara very long to teach Jason how a woman talks differently than a man, he was a quick study.

One day, Ronnie walked into the apartment, and was greeted by the smell of dinner cooking. She walked toward the kitchen, and heard someone humming a tune. But, it didn’t sound like Jason, it was feminine. She stopped at the kitchen door, and saw Jaimie at the counter working on a salad, and the humming was coming from her. She just stood and listened for a few seconds, and finally said, “Hi.”

Jaimie, dressed in jeans, and a pretty top, turned, and said in her new feminine voice, “Hi lover. What do you think?”

Ronnie just looked at her for a few seconds, and finally said, “Where did that come from?”

“Sara and I got my voice to change a few weeks ago, and we’ve been working on perfecting it. Like it?”

“You can change it back, can’t you?”

“Sure. Like it?”

Jaimie noticed a different look come over Ronnie’s face, as she answered, “I guess.”

“You guess. But, Jaimie now has a voice.”

She saw tears come into Ronnie’s eyes, as Ronnie turned, and ran to the bedroom. Jaimie turned off the stove, and ran after her. She found her laying on the bed crying, and sat next to her.

“Honey. What’s wrong?”, Jaimie asked.

Between sobs, Ronnie said, “I . . . I don’t know. . . . I just felt very sad. Like I’d lost something. Something important.”

“Honey. What? You haven’t lost anything.”

“I know. But . . . but, I still feel like something’s gone.”

“What’s gone?”

Ronnie sat up, and Jaimie held her.

“I don’t know.”, Ronnie said, “But, when I heard your feminine voice, it just felt like something was gone. Like I wasn’t needed any longer.”

“Honey. Nothing’s gone. I’m still here. Jason’s still here. I still love you. And, we still need you.”

“I know, love. But, does Jaimie really still need me?”

“Of course I do. Why wouldn’t I?”

“I don’t know. She’s complete now. She can do her own makeup, has a real good fashion sense, and can now speak for herself.”

“Honey! Jaimie is nothing without you. You’re her guiding spirit. Why wouldn’t she need you?”

“I don’t know. I guess I’m being silly.”

“If it’s bothering you this much, then it’s not silly. We need to talk about this. And, it needs to be Jason, not Jaimie. Why don’t you go finish dinner, and I’ll get Jason back.”

“Okay.”

During dinner, not much food was eaten, but a lot of things were discussed. When all was said, and done, Ronnie had relaxed, and realized that she hadn’t lost anything. That Jason really needed her, as did Jaimie. And, that the feeling that she had lost something, wasn’t real. Just a realization that Jaimie had finally evolved. Jason told her that not only was Jaimie nothing without her, but that Jason was also nothing without her.

“Honey. I’m sorry that I was so silly.”, Ronnie said.

“I wasn’t silly, and don’t be sorry. You felt something. Something that bothered you. We should have just talked about it, like we finally did.”

“You’re right. So, how do you switch your voice like that?”

Jaimie was back, just the way Ronnie liked her, and Ronnie did see that Jaimie really did need her. They were like sisters, one stronger than the other, and leading the way. They went out a few time, and it was nice to see Jaimie interacting with other people.

Three weeks later their Junior year in school was over, and summer was here. Jaimie was still seeing Sara once in awhile, to work on her voice. Ronnie and Jaimie had been going to the support group meetings. And, Amy and Linda were regular visitors.

One Sunday morning, just after breakfast the phone rang. Ronnie answered the phone, “Hello.” . . . “Mere!”

It was Ronnie’s mother, the rest of the conversation was in French, and so fast that Jason could only pick out a few works. He was able to figure out that the conversation was about Ronnie’s Grand-pere Guischard, her dad’s father, and that he was very ill. As the conversation went on, he watched Ronnie become sadder and sadder, until the tears started. After she hung up, she walked over, sat next to him, he just held her, and let her cry.

After a few minutes, she sat back, and Jason wiped her tears away. He just sat there looking at her in a very concerned way, and figured that when she was ready to talk, she would. Finally, Ronnie said, “I knew Grand-pere Guischard was sick. But, mere said that he is very sick, and in intensive care. And, they don’t know if he’ll live much longer.”

“I’m so sorry.”

“Can I go to France?”

“What about both of us going?”

“What about your summer job?”

“I’ll talk to them, and explain the family emergency. If they say okay, then I’ll start when we get back. If they’re not happy with it, I guess I won’t have a summer job.”

“You’d do that?”

“Honey. You know I would. You are more important than any summer job.”

- End Chapter 7 -

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