Sung to the tune of "I'm Not Going To Let It Bother Me Tonight
With apologies to The Atlanta Rhythm Section
I fucked up my breakfast this morning
This life just gives me the blues
My gender is a tragedy
There's nothing that I can do
About all this hair and my jaw line
I'm struggling with my sorrow
And living in a danger zone
Might end it all tomorrow
I'm not gonna let it happen to me tonight
Not gonna let it happen to me tonight
Won't let my gender bother me tonight
Life in my body is a struggle
I look awful wearing lace
I just look like an old rat face dog
Like rats have chewed on my face
Trying not to let it bother me tonight
I'm not gonna let it bother me tonight
The country's in an uproar and I see no end in sight
And it really does bother me tonight
Trying not to let it bother me tonight
Tomorrow I might go as far as suicide
It certainly does bother me tonight
Lord, Lord, Lord
I am nothing but trouble
And I've made up my face tonight
So bartender pour me a double, right now
But who I'm not is gonna bother me
Not being myself is gonna bother me tonight
Not being a woman bothers me tonight
My life's not tolerable and I see no end in sight.
But I swear I won't end it all tonight
Not gonna let my body bother me tonight
No I'm not gonna let it bother me tonight
And some day I may try suicide
But I promise I won't kill myself tonight
Comments
I was feeling a nasty bit of dysphoria today,
and part of this came to me. It ended up much darker than I felt, although I must confess there is some truth in it.
Hang in there!
Your are gifted this, a blessing,
A curse you’re given, too —
To see beyond the world you see,
To know it’s less than true.
Your heart shows you an image,
The mirror cannot show,
The world just sees the mirror,
But in your heart, you know.
Give yourself a hug, Holly. Be well today.
Emma
You are well liked here
So please don't do anything unfortunate and permanent.