Chapter 33: Steve

I turned and watched them leave. The woman was holding his hand like he was a child. That was weird, because while he had been in school the one thing that he had always objected to was being treated as a child. Something else had changed besides that, he was much more outgoing, and happy. Much different from the person I had met four and half years ago.

Then I thought that he was a kid. I even tried to get a different roommate at first, but by the time we were allowed to change I realized that there was no reason to change. He was quiet and didn't bother me at all, hell half the time I didn't even realize he was there.

I shook my head to clear the memory out and looked up just to see Dave make some sort of gesture to the big guy that he had come with. I couldn't believe that, even the last time I saw him he was still afraid of any one bigger than him. I shook my head and went off to my bike, there were celebrations to attend and I needed a beer.

Over the next week or so, I kept thinking about Dave. I meant to call him, but would put it off. The memories though kept coming back. For the first few weeks of college, all he did was go to class, the library, and to eat. The rest of the time he was in the dorm room. Finally when we had an away game I dragged him down to common room to watch the game.

He sat quietly through most of the game, although I heard him mutter a few things about what was going on. After the game, I went back to the room with him and asked what he thought of the game. His reply surprised me, he analyzed the game almost as well as the ESPN crew had. I asked him why he hadn't said anything during the game. He mumbled an answer I barely heard.

I looked at him, and went back to watch the next game. I figured then that I needed to get him more involved with stuff. I got him a ticket to the next home game, I told him it was extra. By the end of the season he was talking to everyone about the games, but only if someone asked.

I even remembered the day that he had come in looking stunned. He explained that he had met with some administrators, professors and the Dean, and they wanted him to change Majors. They had even created a curriculum just for him.

I didn't tell Dave, but I went and saw his advisor. I knew that if his advisor had told him to take up Women's Studies he would have. I was surprised that I got to talk to him, and that he spent some talking to me about Dave. He hadn't realized that Dave was as submissive as he was, and he was surprised that I had taken the time out for my roommate. Dave had a second meeting with his advisor, and came back much happier from it.

I kept dragging Dave to places all four years of school. There were a few times that it didn't work. I tried to introduce him to some of the athletes I knew, but for the most part they were just too large. He was terrified of big men and the athletes were all big men. He did like going to the games and I think we saw at least one of every sport that had fan attendance.

The bar was funnier, by that time he was a bit more assertive and with me to back him up. He made the bouncer call for a cop, so he could get his license back. We didn't try any more bars after that.

By the time graduation was here, he already had a job, and would talk to people with out being prompted, but something was still wrong. He was still terrified of big men, and dogs. I had spent four years trying to help him, but he never talked about himself much. I knew that he had had a terrible time growing up, and that his parents were abusive, and someone had terrorized him with a big dog, but I didn't know where he was from or anything else like that. That made me wonder how these people had gotten him to open up.

I finally had some free time, and remembered to call Dave. He invited me right out. I got directions and rode on out. There I got the shock of my life, Dave was out in front of his home playing with a huge dog. When I stopped in front of his house the dog moved to get between Dave and I. He said something, but I couldn't hear it with my helmet on.

I started walking towards Dave and the dog moved up to me. I held out my hand and knelt down, the dog sniffed it and Dave said, "It's ok Thor, go play." The dog looked back at Dave and then ran off.

I walked up to Dave and he grabbed my hand, "I'm glad you could come out and see me."

"No problem, but when did you get over your fear of dogs, and get one?"

"Hmmmph, Thor isn't mine, and I'm not really sure that I'm over that fear," Dave said as we walked in.

"Well you weren't quaking in fear of him." I said as I looked closely at him. He was different. He wasn't nervous around me and even after four years there was always a bit of nervousness together.

"Ummm, yeah. Well that's one dog that I will not be afraid of, ever, but that's a long story. You want a beer or something?"

"How about a Coke, I'm riding. So you want to tell me what's been going on?" He tossed me a Coke and started to tell me a story. I listened as he talked. I noticed that while he was telling me a lot, he wasn't telling me the whole truth. I'm not sure what he left out, but it did seem to be important.

After his story, he gave a tour of his home. I started laughing when I saw his bedroom. I choked it back quickly and looked at him. He was blushing, but he didn't have the reaction I expected. I figured that he would have run out of the room.

"The furniture came with the place, and it's big enough for me. Hey let me introduce you to my landlady, she's the one that you got the pictures for."

We went next door to meet his landlady, she was really hot for an older lady. She showed me the pictures on her wall, and thanked me for getting them. It was a little embarrassing. I noticed that Dave was nervous, and I couldn't figure out why. His landlady was the sort of person that everyone liked, so that wouldn't have been why.

When we got around to talking about Dave, she seemed to be hiding something too. I knew now that something was up, and I wanted to find out what it was.

Dave and I went out for dinner, he even paid because I am a 'starving' Grad student. He joked about it, but I let him pay. He seemed to be happy about that. We spent dinner talking sports, mostly college basketball and the chances we had for a championship. We agreed that we had a good shot, but in the Tournament it took a bit of luck to make it all of the way.

We left and agreed to stay in touch. As I rode off, I was trying to figure out a way to find out what was going on. I didn't think his friends would tell me, and I was pretty sure that no one else knew.

Chapter 34: Dave

It had been good to spend some time with Steve, and I hoped that he would come by again. He was curious about what had changed me. I tried to skirt around the issue and so had Sarah. Now I just hoped that he would drop it.

The next few month's passed and the basketball team had done their best, but not won the championship. We had a party to watch the game, and it was a bit of a let down. Steve had invited me to a party, but I declined. I had gone to watch a game with him, but was very uncomfortable. He still hung out with athletes, and being in a room full of men that were twice as big as me was scary. Steve understood, and told me so.

Later in the month Ashley and I were playing with Thor; her parents, Sarah and Bob were sitting on the porch talking, when Ashley surprised me. "Dave," she asked, "can Sissy come see Star Wars with me and my friends?"

I was surprised, and Thor took that moment to knock me over and start licking my face. It took me a moment to get free from him, and then look at Ashley. "You want Sissy to go with you and your friends to see a movie?" When she nodded I continued, "This is something that we need to discuss with your parents and Sarah."

We got up to the porch and before I could say anything Judy said, "So Ashley asked you?"

Sarah cut me off before I could speak, "Asked him what?"

I started to say something, but Ashley piped up, "If Sissy could go see Star Wars with me and my friends."

I turned to look at her and Sarah said, "Hey that's a great idea."

I spun back to Sarah and heard Bob chuckling. I glared at him for a moment, before I realized that Sarah and Judy were now talking, not quite in whispers, but in much softer tones.

"Hey, wait a minute, don't I get a say in this."

Everyone stopped and looked at me, and Sarah asked, "Don't you want to go?"

"Well yes."

"Then what is the problem?"

"What if one of her friends realizes that I'm a boy?"

Ashley stared straight at me and said, "Dave if you jumped up on a table and said ‘I'm a boy,’ no one would believe you."

I raised some more objections, but each was shot down. It was decided, Sissy would go to the movies with Ashley and her friends.

I spent the next few weeks in an apprehensive state. I was nervous, not about going out in public, but about spending so much time with people I didn't know.

When the morning of the trip to the movie, finally arrived I got up and went on my normal walk. Mrs. Parks was out with her twins, so without even a nudge from Thor, I headed over. Thor woofed and the twins looked up. I sat down with her, while Thor played.

Mrs. Parks and I chatted while they played. Finally our conversation got around to things we had planned for the summer and I mentioned that I was going to see Star Wars later today with Ashley and her friends.

"Oh," she said, "how come you are going with?"

I prevaricated, "I guess that they wanted another adult to go with them."

She looked at me, "Dave you don't make much of an adult presence, besides Judy mentioned that this was an all girl outing."

I blushed then, and tried to say something, but she cut me off. "Or is Dorothy going?"

I looked up at her puzzled, "Who?"

"Dorothy, no wait Ashley used a name, Cindy, Cynthia, something like that."

I looked down, "Cecelia."

"That was it, Cecelia. So do you want to tell me about it or not?"

I sighed, and started telling her the story from the beginning. It was hard and I was almost in tears during part of it. I noticed Thor looking at me at times, and he seemed a bit confused. I guess he could tell I was in some distress, but with Mrs. Parks hugging and holding me he didn't know where the distress was coming from.

When I finished and gathered my composure, she hugged me and I finished my walk. I went to Sarah's instead of home, but Thor didn't care about that. When she answered her door, she pulled me in, I guess she could tell that I had been crying.

"Dave, what's wrong," she asked.

"Nothing, everything, I don't know."

"What?"

I looked up at her, "How come, no one told me that only girls were going to see the movie?"

Sarah looked back at me and blinked, "I didn't know, I figured that there were some boys and girls going."

I stared at her, now that I knew her, I could tell when she was lying. She didn't like to lie, and that made it easy to tell if you knew her.

She finally after a minute of us looking at each other asked me what happened. I told her about my meeting and what Mrs. Parks had said, and what I told her. She nodded and listened. She asked me what Mrs. Parks did, and I said, "Pretty much what you would have."

"So do you still want to go?"

I thought for a moment, before answering. "Yes, and no, but I said I would so I will."

"Good, let's go pick something out for you to wear."

I sighed and started down to the nursery, where my clothes were. Some of the clothes were way to dressy or just not right for going to a movie. Others I just didn't want to spend that much time in, around the same people. We finally decided on a denim jumper, and blouse.

She told me to get cleaned up and potty, then she would help me get dressed. I wasn't sure what I expected, but it hadn't been that. I went down and took a shower and 'pottied,' I returned with a towel wrapped around my waist and Sarah grabbed me and set me on the changing table. She quickly diapered me and helped me get dressed. I wandered down to the living room and watched some TV while she changed.

It wasn't too much later, when Judy and Ashley showed up. I was about to go off, when Sarah politely asked, why no one had said there were no boys going.

Judy blushed, and explained that when they first planned there were several boys, but for various reasons a couple hadn't been able to go and the last didn't want to be seen alone with a bunch of girls. Then she hadn't thought that it was important.

I stared at her the whole time and I guessed she was telling the truth. I just wished someone let me know. As we left I asked what time the movie started and was surprised that it wouldn't start for another two hours. I asked about that and was told that we were going to eat lunch first. I eeped at that but, it was too late as we were speeding down the road.

We got to the place we were eating, a pizza buffet restaurant, and there were around a half dozen girls and some mothers standing around. Sarah and I were introduced, everyone else knew each other at least in passing, and we went in to eat.

We ate, played video games, listened to the Jukebox and chatted like a bunch of pre-teen girls would. I contributed to conversation and answered questions, that I found humorous; like did I have a boyfriend, had I kissed a boy, and others. Ashley seemed to have forgotten that I wasn't a girl and didn't react to any of the questions.

When it was time to go see the movie there was a mass movement to the Ladies room. I hesitated a moment then joined in. Inside we outnumbered the available facilities by a few and I kept milling around. Finally when it seemed like no one could have kept track I slipped up to the sinks and washed my hands. A little while later one of the adults asked if everyone was ready and with a chorus of yeses we left.

Sarah held me back at the door and asked if I had used the restroom. I let out a little laugh and said no, but if she hadn't noticed whether I had or not, no one else would have either. She then asked if I still was dry. I said yes and watched how much I drank.

We caught up to the rest of the group and made our way into the theater. Inside I looked at the crowd and grabbed Sarah's hand, it was as bad as the mall at Christmas. I glanced around and saw that I wasn't the only one that had grabbed a hand. That made me feel better for some reason.

The tickets had been bought earlier and we made our way to straight to the ticket taker. With a couple of the mothers detouring to get popcorn and drinks. With snacks and drinks in hand, we made our way to the theater and claimed seats. About halfway through, I relaxed and wet my diaper. Before the movie ended I noticed that some of the girls looked uncomfortable and were squirming in their seats.

At the end of the movie, there was a mass movement to ladies room again and I went in and used the crowd to my advantage, although now they were all comfortable and I was stuck in a wet diaper. There was a question about stopping at the Dairy Queen for a snack, but after pizza, and popcorn the vote was no.

We said our goodbyes and headed home. Once we had arrived Sarah changed me and dressed me in a onesie, I was a little embarrassed to walk out to say bye to Judy and Ashley. I don't think Judy had seen me dressed this way before.

Ashley turned and asked her mom if she could stay, but Judy said no. Ashley pouted for a moment then came over and gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek. Judy followed her, gave a hug, a pat on my diapered bottom, and whispered for me to have fun.

I wasn't sure what she meant by that until a little while later, when Sarah told me that tonight I get to be her baby. I looked up at her questioningly, and she explained that tonight I was not allowed to talk or walk or do anything for myself. I started to object and she stuck a bottle in my mouth.

I thought I was going to be incredibly bored, but for all that evening and night until she put me to bed, I don't think there was five minutes that she wasn't holding me or hugging me or just touching me. I was almost in tears by the end of the night and I couldn't really explain why.