But for another, I think I made a friend today... but I'm not certain. Now, Jennifer Higgleston walked up and sat with me at lunch today. I looked up at her and she just smiled. She held out her hand and said, "Hi! Everyone needs a friend, and new kids have never bitten in the past... I'm Jennifer." Then she grinned at me. Doesn't sound so bad, right? I mean, she's not one of the "Popular" crowd, but she is one of the more popular freshman girls. We talked through lunch and then as I started walking home, she called out to me and waved.

Doesn't sound like a bad thing at all. I know. But(!)

I'm afraid. I mean, what if I'm like her project, and she's getting kudos from the popular kids for "taking pity" on the new girl? Paranoid, right? I mean, it's only the second day, I should make other friends, right? Well, if I'm wrong about her, I'll have thrown away a friend -- which I know from being on the receiving end that it SUCKS. If I'm right... well, it means everyone else will realize it before me and I'll be the laughingstock poor li'l girl that everyone pities. AUGH!

And... there's the fact that I feel a little weird being friendly to one of the girls that were part of the whole GoalPost Incident last year. Yeah, she was only the lookout for her older sister and she was the one complaining about doing it because it wasn't right, but it was her. We've been in the same class-level since Kindergarten, and she didn't even know my name last Spring. I was just another boy that her psycho sister (may she rot in juvie) picked to be a target. Now... can I be the girl who is her friend?

I mean, she's being sweet and I think it's genuine. She did tell the cops it was her sister and her sister's friends. I just don't know. She's pretty, smart, athletic... I wanna be all of that, too, and the best way to get my foot in the door is to have a friend who's already invited, right? But would that be me just using her?