by Edeyn Hannah Blackeney
Wednesday, 3 October, 2007
Dear Diary
I don't get it.
I mean, Lisa hates me.
She swears to destroy me.
Then she finds out the biggest secret I have in the world that would pretty much guarantee my getting the popsicle sticks kicked out of me on a daily basis if anyone ever found out.
And she doesn't use that info against me.
In fact... wait... she was sending me...
Was she sending me LOVE LETTERS?!?
I kinda stumbled through classes this morning.
At lunch, I have no idea what alien took over my body (probably one of the grays), but I just walked away from the table and went up to Lisa when I saw her. My friends were following and I could hear them whispering about a fight. I told Lisa we needed a private chat and I think she knew I had figured out it was her with my locker because she just shut up and followed me. When we were reasonably secluded, I asked her why.
She said that once she found out about me, she couldn't bring herself to do anything bad to me because I was brave.
Me.
I laughed and told her I was the girl who would scream if shown a PICTURE of a snake. She looked around all furtive (good word, that one) and said she meant the whole courage to be Courtney and not Ethan thing. She said she looked up all kinds of stuff about gender dysphoria on the internet and decided I was nifty and worth the whole admiration thing and I was smart and pretty and athletic and graceful and what exactly were we fighting about in the first place, anyway?
Then I asked her about the love letters.
She laughed and blushed, and said that now I knew her secret... she was a lesbian.
She wanted to know if I was, too, maybe... and I told her I didn't know, then went back to lunch after telling her I'd think about it and let her know when I figured it out.
I'd really like to write about how Gymnastics class went tonight, but I really don't know. I was there, I came home and ate dinner. I couldn't tell you what happened in class or what we even HAD for dinner.
Courtney
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Dear Courtney
Dear Courtney,
That there is a lot of heavy stuff to be thinking about all in one day. I don't think I would remember what I ate for dinner either.
Snoops
Yes yes yes!!
I knew it, Lisa is a lesbian.
She probably hated him because she was attracted to the strange boy but loves her now that she knows he is in her mind and soul a she.
Wow I finally got one right.
John in Wauwatosa
John in Wauwatosa