Hopscotch…A Jump in Life 22

*Before…

Mom takes Dad’s hand and she kisses him and she leads him out of my room and I look at Kaitlyn and she sort of blushes under the scrutiny and bites her lower lip a little and we sort of do that intense stare at each other thing before the tears are building up in my eyes and I start to cry and…

“Thank you, thank you for just like dropping your life and coming…” (Sniffle.)

She gives me that head tilty really light up the day kind of pretty smile and she reaches up and she thumbstrokes some of the tears that are starting away from my face.

I’m happy crying still some and just emotionally crying too and I’m shaking a little because I’ve never had anyone do that to me before and my brain’s in like good shock?

“You’re my friend Sarah of course I’d come.”

*And Now…

Oh my god… The lump in my throat from her saying that right now and coming here.

Huge, and it’s a great big hard balance right now to not burst into tears at something so close and amazing and just.

Then she ooof hugs me. That kind of hug that makes you go ooof.

I hug her back really hard and she makes this squeak sound and we both break the hug and look at each other and we start laughing. I really, really love that laugh. No not the like sexy liking the laugh but Kaitlyn’s laugh is one of those laughs that makes you want to laugh.

I look at her again. “Just wow, you look great y’know.”

“Yeaaah, I was meeting you I seriously stress primped.”

I mouth palm. “Crapola I should’ve been doing that I must look like…”

She takes my hand. “You look like a hospital patient, mind you a cute one.”

“Me?”

“Yeah You.”

I smile but blush. “Y’know you’re doing wonders for my self confidence right now.”

She smiles. “Good, like I said you’re my friend so yeah sooo my job.”

I grin. “I totally like your outfit.”

Seriously I do. Kaitlyn’s wearing skinny jeans and she’s got these black cute looking ankle boots on with a low heel but these just look good. Then she’s in this really cool looking sleek black rayon scoop necked sports shirt and a bomber jacket.

It’s a good look and those jeans so show off her legs and yeah I looked there’s nothing tell-tale there that can be seen.

She grins. “Yeah it’s really kind of coming together this year. I put on like fifteen pounds.”

“You gained weight and you’re happy?”

“Shaah…yeah, I was like a super, super twiggy person and stuff. If I like wasn’t a girl then I’d have like been super skinny until like my thirties like everyone else in my family. But not like with the hormones really kicking in and stuff I like finally got some butt and stuff.”

I nod. “I think I so get that because I really am going to be curve challenged. I so though don’t want to be slapping on all the guy bulk though.”

She looks me over. “You’re pretty good though you don’t have a whole lot started yet. Me I was already growing like nuts upwards at least before the doctors really too me seriously.”

“But you look great.”

“I look like I’m nearly six foot tall. But yeah it could’ve been a whole lot worse and you have something going on that will really help.”

“Huh?”

“Cool folks that really love you.”

(Sniffle.) “Yeah I know, they’re been really cool.”

“They nearly lost you and yeah they sort of had a few minutes of things where they didn’t get it.”

I sit back and wipe the rest of my eyes. “You talked to dad?”

Kaitlyn sits cross legged on my bed slipping off her boots. “Yeah we talked as we were driving over and he had breakfast with my folks first while I was packing my stuff. I like didn’t know they had planned it out so they could like do the whole like big long parental talk and stuff.”

“So what’d they talk about?”

“Mostly that this isn’t bullshit really and that being transgender is a real thing and it’s not a thing that comes out of brain damage.”

“He thought that?”

Kaitlyn looks at me. “No…but there’s that part of them all that really want to get an excuse something that they can grasp sometimes. He just wanted to know the real deal behind the trans stuff from like my parents perspective thing without like the stuff that the doctors had been saying more than anything else.”

I nod. (Sniffle-cough.) “Yeah okay I’d get that too I mean there’s stuff that a doctor just isn’t going to be able to share with him.”

Kaitlyn grins. “Totes, y’know half of the serious work with transition is like having to like take care of the parents.”

We both grin and laugh at that and we girlfist bump which was something that we got from our LJ stuff online because there’s always all this stuff that’s like that that guys do and that girls don’t get to do because of like bullshit reasons and it’s even like worse for like trans girls because we get like catch 33’d.

Catch 33 is like catch 22 but it’s more for like trans people because we get told that to be trans you have to look a certain way or act a certain way or you’re a liar. And way so much of the time when we do the stuff that they think that we should be doing because of their bullshit expectations we get told that we’re upholding things like the patriarchy.

Yeah that’s more of the gender war bullshit.

A war that like ninety percent of trans people never wanted any part of.

But yeah that’s where catch 33 comes from, it’s catch 22 for trans and queer folks.

Girlfist bumps are awesome.

I look at her. “So how long are you staying?”

“Dunno really the folks are coming over tomorrow to hang with your folks and the whole more checking each other out and stuff but likely until next Saturday at least.”

“Because you’re home schooled right?”

“Heck no, I’ve got like homework from Mom with an internet service we’re on.”

“Okay cool can I help?”

“Sure…bored?”

“Seriously bored. There is only so much net stuff and trying to re-read myself into existence.”

She looks at me. “Sorry?”

I wave it off. “Don’t worry about it Kaitlyn it’s just really tiring to try to feel myself out by clues about who I used to be and stuff.”

She looks like she’s thinking about that and then she nods and gets up and she goes and gets this big shoulder bag she must have brought in with her and takes out her laptop and it’s.

Okay it’s a Lenovo but it’s pretty recent looking but she as it covered with anime stuff and stickers so it’s like those gothy tattoo looking stickers and flowers and Powerpuff girls all around the edges with the center filled up with stuff like The Sailor Scouts and Samas and Rei Ayanami and of course stuff from Robotech. I do recognize some of the stuff and characters like Rei even if I never really watched/followed the mecha anime stuff.

It’s kinda just one of those things that comes with the kind of friends that I’ve been on LJ with.

“That’s pretty frakking cool.” I say because I’m actually impressed because she was careful and she did a really kick ass job with it and everything and it’s like geekette-fu level twenty plus easy.

She grins. “Yeah it was pretty cool, my dad had a fit with it at first because of resale but this is one I bought.”

“You bought?” Yikes coinage.

“Yeah it’s a rebuild I’ve a cousin that works for them and the rebuilt and recalled ones get sold like online for cheap. He got it for three hundred and fifty and sold it to me at cost as a birthday present.”

“Him not charging you profit was a present?”

She grins. “Yep, but he’s a really good guy he will do stuff sort of like that but as he says we’re only cousins. But seriously he’s never really gave anyone anything that was crap and he actually never talks down to me because I’m a girl or treat me different because I’m trans either.”

I nod. “Worth it.”

Seriously that’s really cool, no special treatment but a lot more importantly not getting treated differently.

I make room and she moves up beside me on the bed and we take a pair of ear buds and we share them as she brings up some of her stuff that she has for her home work and she’s doing for her school or rather her home schooling.

“It’s a history video about Upper Canada when it was like called that and a bunch of other things.”

We sit and we watch the video which isn’t too bad though it’s a little strange because it’s a whole bunch of different things all put together some of them I think are from like things I sort of think I might have seen a long time ago from TV. I sort of remember some of that but at the same time it’s nothing that I was really paying attention to.

But it’s like a course/class on Canadian History and it’s a bit hard for me with the dates but Kaitlyn’s taking notes every once in awhile as she stops the video and she types things down. I look at her.

“So how does this work exactly?”

“Like what, how the classes?”

“Yeah, I’m going to be out a long time with like physio and I think that it might be cool if I could catch up with things if I could and go back to school in the fall with everyone else.”

“Everyone else?”

I smile a little. “I kind of came out to Shawn’s Facebook and stuff. I met some actually okay people that I go to school with and stuff it’d kind of be cool if we actually got to go into high school together.”

Kaitlyn nods. “Okay well it’s actually a service out of Oshawa that does this and they have a course load that’s accredited and all that stuff by the province so I get like transcripts when I’m done for college so I think that all you have to do is to sign up and get the school on board with it so that they’ll accept the marks and all of that to like finish your course requirements. The high school shouldn’t have a problem taking the transcripts though if you just like take the course stuff for Ontario ninth grade all over again.”

I stare at my computer, then look out at the hall where the parents are at and I wave them in as they were just sort of out there talking in some chairs out in the hall.

Dad looks at me. “What’s up kiddo you need anything?”

I type out the address and get up the homepage of the site- service that Kaitlyn’s using. “Uhm…how about the ninth grade?”

Okay I laugh as that made him stop and blink. “Huh?”

I turn my computer around and show him. “Nova…uhm Kaitlyn does home schooling through this and it’s like Ontario rated or whatever and if I’m going to be here I’d like to try and get my course stuff for ninth grade so I can go back to school during the fall.”

“You want to go back to school?”

I nod. “Yeah I do…and Jo-Beth and Danny and Andy are going to be there too and I want to do stuff there.”

“You sure, you haven’t met these other kids yet?”

“Yeah I have but just not in person or as me but we do sort of know each other ands I want to trust that. I mean they could’ve like been massive poopcandles but they weren’t.”

“Are you sure?”

I nod and even though I don’t really have like the experience in doing it I give him my very best ‘Please Daddy’ look.

He stares at me and he closes his eye but he smiles and shakes his head not like a no but sort of like he gives and he sits on the edge of the bed. “Okay show me.”

I squee and that makes him jump and Kaitlyn looks at him and she starts to snaugh at him in that cute way of hers and she rolls onto her side and mom comes in and her and Kaitlyn start talking and Mom seems amused too with dad reacting to the squee I did and I hug him and lean on him as we start looking at the homepage for Oshawa Online Educational.

An hour later we’re signed up and Dad paid online by credit card and stuff and everything. It’s actually neat since they have log in files for their worksheets and then you have to register your search engine and things there with them and they even have a tablet app where you do math on there and use a stylus to show your work and they offer to ship you one of theirs if you don’t have one of your own for the duration of the course. The search engine time is like for them seeing how well that you can look stuff up and research it which like lends itself to their version of class time as well as the teaching videos.

They even have like those Home Ed. Like options too where they’ll lease or loan you a computer.

But since I have all of that stuff already we just have to sign up for everything and get our passwords and all of that.

It’s actually kind of exciting that I can do this and everything and they even have a transcript thing where they will e-mail the course scores to the school or schools that we want. I guess the multiple thing is if you’re going to send these out to like colleges and stuff.

I look up the e-mail for my old school and put it in and then the one for the high school in town as the one I’m looking to attend and the dad’s borrowing the computer to send an e-mail to my old school saying that I’m changing my name to Sarah Lynn Porter.

“Sarah Lynn?” I ask looking at Mom and Dad.

Mom smiles. “Well yeah, Lynn’s a family name from your dad’s side one of his favorite Aunts we thought it sounded good.”

I nod…that really means that they have been like seriously thinking about this and everything going on and stuff with me. Especially Dad since he…and the thing at Nova’s parents place where he like needed to talk this stuff out and all.

Okay he get’s it or he’s really, really trying to.

I give him a huge hug and I hear some clapping from the doorway and I look up to see Danny and Jo-Beth with some bags of stuff. And Danny’s grinning and he looks different than his pictures but not, he’s beefed up some since a lot of them by like maybe ten or fifteen pounds of like muscle by the looks of his arms and he’s got a haircut too.

And Jo-Beth who’s clapping all happy like is well…she’s short like five four but she’s got longer hair than her pictures sort of show on her Facebook page and she’s really curvy too like with the sexy hips and she has these really huge boobs.

And I’m kind of feeling a little shy and stuff and I’m biting my lower lip a little and stuff.

“Hey…you guys came.”

Danny grins holding up a big take out bag from MacDonald’s. “And I brought ice cream.”

Kaitlyn squee’s. “Yay Ice Cream!”

Wow Danny…he looks at her and he looks like he was kind of just hit by a truck.

(Giggles)