I seems like everyday is normal until your birthday comes along, and everyone gets excited about it. People celebrate it with you, your family especially. Right?
Well I'm just seeing the favoritism in my family take up once again this year. Today I turned 24, and not one person in my family seemed to notice. No birthday wishes, nothing. Instead it just feels like every other day. While my Sister on her birthday earlier this year came over and we celebrated as if she had just turned 21 again. Despite becoming 28.

I am not ok with this. I thought I was making progress in getting my family to accept me, but instead they don't even wish me a happy birthday. Now I'm not asking for presents or anything but a few happy birthdays today would have made me feel....well wanted. More and more I just see myself becoming the eternal black sheep of the family. No one would care if I just never spoke to them again, they wouldn't even acknowledge the fact I even existed.

This isn't even the first time the favoritism has appeared. My sister was always the star child. What ever she wanted she got. Even when she started doing drugs and drinking heavily they ALWAYS took care of her. Me? I'm going to be on my own and will recieve no help, ever when I need it. I can't even ask for advice. I just get told figure it out myself.

anyways I'm sorry for ranting. it just.....hurts to know again that I'm not really wanted. That I might have just been a fluke in their lives.