by Mark McDonald
Dancing On Daddy's Shoes - Chapter 6 - Off To See The Wizard
Kirk had arrived at school this morning still brooding about yesterday’s news from Bob Glass about his sister’s decision to go to the prom with the weasel. Now, something else had happened to upset his happy universe, something he couldn’t quite get his mind wrapped around.
Bob had come and damn near attacked him. Worse he had done this in front of everyone! Well, everyone important anyway. The others looking on could be dealt with in time. What they thought could be… corrected. But Kirk’s peers would see something all together different now. They would see that Bob Glass had, for some reason, withdrawn his support for Kirk. Kirk’s mind drifted back thirty-five minutes, to the parking lot where he had been socializing as he did every morning, being worshiped by his idolizers as he should have been.
Then Bob had shown up and all that had changed.
Kirk had smiled as the car came to a short sliding stop. He had no reason to believe that anything else was wrong. In fact, he had hoped for good news from Bob. Kirk had almost imagined that Bob was eager to tell him all things were back in fluid harmony with the gears and cogs of the Universe of Kirk. But time had not righted itself. Bob got out of the car, a mask of revulsion and hatred clouded his face and for the first time in quite awhile, Kirk experienced a pang of fear in his heart.
“What’s up Bob?” Kirk had asked. What was up soon became apparent.
“What’s up? Here’s what’s up! Kim tells me you think you’re going to use her as cum sack.” Bob said as he approached Kirk swiftly. Bob laid his forearm harshly over Kirks chest and forced him back ward onto the trunk of his car.
“What the FUCK!” Kirk had cried out angrily.
“Shut your fucking mouth.” Bob had ordered, growling. “You don’t talk about my sister that way, you piece of shit. You don’t think about my sister like that! Those thoughts do not exist for you about her.”
“Get off me!” Kirk ordered and tried to break free, but Robert had only leaned in, bearing down on him with the full force of his weight. Kirk’s back dug painfully into the rise of the airfoil on the back of the Camaro trunk lid.
“Shut up!” Robert ordered. “Last warning.”
Kirk fell silent this time as three girls from the cheerleading squad looked on in horror and to be truthful, a pinch of excitement. “I don’t know how you managed to keep it from me, maybe I just wasn’t listening hard enough. I think that’s probably more true than I wanted to believe, but I’m listening now. Kim’s different. You’re not going to treat her like she’s a piece of meat to wrap around your stinking dick. She’s my kid sister. Do you understand this?”
“You don’t live here any more Bob!” Kirk said defiantly, speaking of the campus as a kingdom and the school as his castle.
“I SAID SHUT UP!” Robert cried out. He grabbed Kirk by his T-shirt, lifted him six inches off the car and slammed him back down hard enough to leave a small indentation in the trunk of Kirk’s car. “You don’t scare me Kirk. I’m bigger, I’m stronger and I know a hell of a lot more about hurting people that try to hurt Kim than you do.”
“Whatcha gonna do, kick my ass?”
Robert smiled. “I probably won’t have to do that.”
Confusion crossed Kirk’s face, “Huh?”
“My mother will have you killed if you hurt her. But if for some reason she doesn’t, I’ll do it myself. That’s the only warning you’re going to get, remember it.”
Robert let Kirk go. For good measure, he swept Kirks feet out from under him with a wide arching swipe of his right leg. He then turned and went back to his vehicle leaving Kirk hanging on the back of his car by his arms, crucified on the trunk of his Camaro. Kirk, red faced and full of shame at the idea that other’s had seen this display got up angrily. He straightened out his shirt and hoisted his pants back into place and cried out, “You can’t stop her if she wants to be with me.”
Robert, back in his car pointed an index finger angrily at Kirk. “You’re a young man Kirk, you want to think about your future before you do anything that will land you in a wheelchair for the rest of your miserable life,” Robert shouted from inside his car. He then screeched out of the parking lot furious, worried that if he stayed he would be unable to stop the rage in his heart before something else happened.
Once he had recovered as much as he could, Kirk had spotted Ben entering the school. Just as Ben had predicted, Kirk had charged after him. If Kim hadn’t come along, well, Kirk may have had the chance to hurt Ben enough to keep him out of school for a few days.
Now, what was he going to do? Talk to her, tell her how much she’s going to be missing out on. Show her how important it is for her to be with me. All the other girls see it, why can’t Kim?
And this was the issue at the very core of the problem. In Kirk’s mind, Kim and her ilk were waiting around to be chosen. They were supposed to wait until he, Kirk, came around and selected them. For Kirk, the girls of this school were his harem. Other guys could select from the general population, but there were some that were marked especially for him. They wore special uniforms to let the others know that those girls were off limits. Somewhere however, the message hadn’t gotten to one of the girls. The memo had been lost. Kim was unaware that her status on the squad was a reservation, a commitment to a hierarchy that started with him. For some reason, Kim was unaware how important it was to her that she not be allowed to mingle with the cattle of the school’s common people. She was elite, she was off limits, and most importantly she was HIS.
How had the weasel gotten in to the hen house? How had Kim been allowed to think she could choose? These were the questions that nagged Kirk as he blundered blindly down the hall. People in his way moved to let him pass, as they usually did. Some however, were not fast enough and ended up glancing off him, bugs on the windshield of a semi-trailer speeding down the highway. Every so often, there would be an indignant cry of “Hey!” or a mumbled grumble of “Asshole.” But Kirk did not respond, either because he did not hear or did not care.
The weasel was the problem. For a brief moment, the idea of killing the weasel actually settled on the branch of cogent thought in Kirk’s head. Fortunately for Kirk, he was not yet enough of a sociopath to believe that he could get away with that. It was not a moral decision for Kirk, merely a logical one. He would not be able to have Kim if he were in jail. While Kirk knew no one really cared one way or the other about Ben Ackerman, he did know that even the deaths of homeless men didn’t go uninvestigated.
For the moment Kirk shoved the idea aside.
“Kirk,” a voice from behind him said.
Kirk spun and found Eric Devlon standing behind him. Devlon could tell right away that something had deeply disturbed his friend. “What?” Kirk said moodily and now, for the first time, Eric found himself simply wanting to walk away.
Instead Eric pushed the issue, “What in the hell happened back there?”
“Back there? You mean that dead little fucking puke Ben Ackerman? SSDD.”
The news about Kim and Ben
was now all over the school. The teenage-girl-grapevine had once more proved
that if Daniel Morse used the power of girl rumor instead of wire and telegraph
poles, communications might be far more advanced today than they are. Even kids
who had no stake in the outcome had watched the ensuing build up in aggressions
that morning with raw fascination, much the same way most people can not look
away from an accident on the highway. Everyone wants to see something they’ll
be sorry they saw later. “Look man this thing with Ackerman is going"
“Going where Eric? He stole
my girlfriend.” Kirk’s massive frame approached the more diminutive running
back. “Don’t tell me you’re a traitor too.” “What are you talking about?”
Eric asked, genuinely perplexed. “Kim said she’s going to the
fucking dance with that pencil neck. Someone’s gotten to Bob, turn him against
me.” “You mean Glass? He probably
just found out what you’ve been sayin about his sister.” Kirk’s face knotted up into a
snarl, “That’s EXCACTLY what he said. How would you know that unless
you had sumpin’ to do with it?” Kirk growled. Eric put the flat of his
hands on Kirk’s chest, “First of all, step back. You’re breath stinks and so
does what you’re accusing me of. I haven’t said a word to anyone about
anything. It’s not my business. If Glass found out you’ve been talkin’ trash
about lil Kimmy, then I say, he should’a kicked your ass. Other than that, as
far as I’m concerned it’s just talk, you can have it. This shit with Ackerman
though; you’ve stepped over a line in the sand with that. You’re hurting the
dwarf.” “So,” “Man, if you can’t see that
little geek is human, then you need professional help. He’s just a little
guy. Did you see the black eye you put on that sad little man.” “As much as I’d like to take
credit for that, he came to the party with that on already.” Kirk said
snickering at his own joke. “Then that’s a bigger
problem, because others are beginning to follow your lead. He ain’t tough.
One well placed punch and someone’s gonna be facein’ murder charges my
overgrown oafish friend.” Kirk grumbled, “He’d be
better off dead.” “Oh I did NOT just hear
you say that.” Eric, aware that soon the halls would be clear rested his hand
on Kirk’s back and walked him down the hall. “Let her go,” “NO,” Kirk
screamed, enraged. “Shut up man, this is a
school. People around here are trying to sleep.” He patted Kirk on the back,
“She don’t want you man. That’s the simple fact.” “Again, I have to ask you, so
what? She’s mine. I want her.” “You can’t have her until she
gives herself to you. Listen to me. Man you know how this works! You weren’t
born yesterday. Get your act together. There are at least ten other girls…
well five, yeah five other… I know there’s at least three other girls
that want you, may be more!” Kirk stared wordlessly at
Eric. Let her go? Why? He couldn’t figure that one out. There was
nothing in that deal for him. Kim got everything. Possession was six tenths
of the law wasn’t it? He should get something for his six tenths. She
was his. He saw her first, years ago. This wasn’t right. How could she profit
for not wanting to be with him? “Good, it looks like it’s
registering,” Eric said, unsure if he’d gotten through or not. “I’ve gotta
run. Oh and, leave that Ackerman kid alone Kirk. If she likes him, she likes
him. You can’t split that apart. If it’s really love, then she’ll do anything
for him. You lost.” Eric turned and shambled off.
“Anything,” Kirk whispered to
himself. Kirk smiled. If she’d do anything for him, what would she do to make
sure, say, his legs didn’t accidentally break off? While the idea of pounding
that pathetic little worm brightened his mood a little, the idea that Kim might
not try to tear herself away from the weasel only served to darkened Kirk’s day
further. -*- “I’d like to get out of here
before your boy friend comes back and breaks me in half.” Ben was scrabbling
about trying to gather his papers and books. The last bell rang as Kim
crawled her way to Ben, picking up the last of his papers and books as she
went, “I’m sorry Ben, I didn’t know he was nuts and he’s not my boy friend!” “Well, that’s not what he
says.” Ben grumbled. “Besides, it doesn’t matter; I know this whole thing was
all just a joke at my expense.” Ben continued to hobble about on his hands and
knees, noticeably hurt. “I mean, what else would a girl like you be talking to
me for anyway?” Uh oh, Kim thought, recognizing the syndrome of fading in and
out of two realities, I’m losing him again. “Ben I didn’t set anyone
up.” “Well, Okay little Miss
Innocent. I hope you got a hat full of laughs out of it…” “Oh Ben, come back to me.
Try to remember…” Her voice was filled with the absolute terror that she had
been the one set up. She was alone here, female and doomed to remain as she
was. “Look Ben, there’s not going to be a prom, not for us, not like this.” Ben looked at her as if he
had expected what she’d just said the whole time, “See,” Ben exclaimed,
dropping papers back down to the floor in his frustration, “I knew it.” He
sounded completely heart broken. His pain tore at Kim’s heart like a rusty knife
blade. “Ben,” She clasp his hand
tightly in hers and whispered, “Please Ben, remember. You put that mask on me
the other night. It did this to us. I need you to take it off Ben. We need
to go home.” Like Kim, the last two
mornings, Ben was hit with a tsunami of memories. His body went rigid and Kim
leapt to his side to support him. From the outside, watching infusion what she
felt certain were memories into Ben’s mind was an awful sight to see. She
could only be thankful that her mother had not yet witnessed this in her.
Quickly, Ben relaxed. The image reminded her of what she’d seen when she and
Robert had gone to see the Matrix when Morpheus had put that metal rod in the
back of ‘Neo’s’ head and turned the machine on. “Ben?” Ben blinked a few
times, then looked down and regarded Kim. His eyes were as empty of
recognition as when she had come to help him. Kim almost fled crying,
convinced that Ben didn’t remember the mask or any such thing. Then he
surprised her by smiling. “Hi Kim,” he said cheerfully.
Kim burst out in emotional laughter and did weep a few tears of gratitude. “Hi Ben, how ya been?” she
asked in a light and happy voice. “Pretty good I thin―”
Ben trailed off with recollection, “Oh Kim, we are in deep shit.” “The mask Ben, if you take
the mask off of me, then it all goes back to the way it’s supposed to be.” Kim waited for a response but
none came. Then a horrible thought crossed her mind. What if he doesn’t
remember it all? How much time have I got to give him a crash course in history?
How much do I have the ability to even talk about? “Ben, you do remember
what happened the day before yesterday, don’t you?” “You mean at that magic shop,
the old man?” Ben asked and Kim blew a sigh of relief. “Yes,” Kim answered, “the
magic shop, the mask!” “We can’t do that here!” Ben
looked around, here and there were stragglers still making their way to class. “No, I think that’s part of
our problem. We weren’t truly alone the other night when you tried to get it off
of me the second time. We have to leave school, now.” “Leave? We can’t leave.
That would be ditching.” Ben protested. “Ben, it’ll only be ditching
in this place where I’m a girl, not back where we’re supposed to be.” Kim
explained with excited urgency. “We need to go, get this thing off me and get
back to our lives.” “I’ve never ditched before,
Kim. If someone catches us…” Ben argued. “It’s not going to happen,
Ben. I’ve done this before.” “You’ve never ditched …” “No, I haven’t but Kim has,
and in about ten or fifteen minutes, it won’t matter. You and I won’t have to
worry about who answers for it.” Ben rose to his feet and
Kimberly took the stack of books and papers he carried and deposited them in a
near by trash can. “Hey,” Ben cried as Kim dumped all the school work they had
just rescued together. “Shush,” Kim warned, “You’ll
get them all back once we’ve reversed what you did to me. Now come on.”
Kim took Ben’s hand and moved in the direction of the cafeteria, dragging Ben
behind her like a lost puppy on a short leash. Kim hit the exterior doors
that gave egress to the parking lot and the P.E. field that sat on a large
piece of property behind the school. The large floor to ceiling
windows of the classrooms reviled their trek across the sidewalks, framed
within them were the heads of classmates some peered out at them as they
hurriedly passed by. Ben watched several with, their faces frozen in shocked
masks of surprise at the sight of Kim, arguably the most popular girl in
school, dragging Ben by his jacket sleeve to destinations unknown. “We’re being watched,” Ben
warned as Kim dragged him along behind her. Kim said nothing. She simply
followed the course she’d plotted, hell-bent on escape from her soft, feminine
jail cell back to the world of harsh but familiar realities. “Where are you going?” Ben
complained, obviously nervous about still being so far from class after the
first bell had already sounded. Ben pulled away in the direction of the doors
they had just passed through. For Ben, they seemed a million miles away. Kim pulled him back to her,
“Get back here, I want to get this off Ben. I want to… I want to be a … Grrrrrrrrr,”
she growled frustrated again at her inability to voice her gender preference. “Kim, we’re going to be late
for class!” “We’re already late Ben,” Kim
turned desperately, a wild look on her face, “I’m not going back in there like
this Ben, and you’re not going to class while I’m stuck like this! I can’t do
it any longer.” Something’s had changed, but
for Ben, he was still lockstep in tune with whatever syndrome or whatever, his
dear old daddy had passed on to him. This was turning into a maze of surreal
experiences for both of them. It didn’t matter to anyone that Ben was being
victimized on a nearly daily basis, not just at home. So why was Ben so
worried about what happened here, in this world? Why wasn’t he more eager to
get home? Still, Ben was a mess. He was
clearly in pain. How could people just turn their heads to this? With all
that, he was still afraid to leave school, even if it made all the sense in the
world to go back to where they had come from and leave Weirdo World
behind. “Ben, your father. You said your father did that to you,” she said
pointing to his eye. He once again touched the eye
and winced. “Oh yeah, my Dad,” Ben said. Kim watched as Ben’s shoulders
hunched and what little life that still remained in him drained out of his
shoes. Ben’s resolve was fortified a bit with whatever memory he had been
graced with and he said, “Let’s do this.” Still clutching his jacket
sleeve, she pulled in to a place where the corners of two buildings stood some
six feet apart. To the east was the corner of the academics building, to the
west, the wood and metal shop along with the graphic arts shop. Large, over
grown red tips stood to the north and south between the two buildings providing
cover from sight for an area about six feet by eight feet square in the center
between the bushes and buildings. Except for a path that ran between two of the
Red Tips that was used as a short cut to get back and forth from the P.E. field,
the small space was about as secluded as any on school grounds. Kim ducked her head and
slipped between the hedges. Not having much of a choice, Ben followed her.
When Ben slipped into the small clearing Kim was waiting. “Okay Ben, do it!”
She mashed her eyes closed and waited, looking as if she were expecting a blow
to the back of the head. Ben looked around for a minute, saw no one, but still
hesitated. She peeked at him with one
open eye, when she saw him standing there just looking around, she got worried.
“Don’t do this Ben,” she warned. “Do what? Oh!” Ben
exclaimed. “No, I was just thinking, the last time, things got pretty out of
hand. I was thinking that you might want to sit down for this, you know, in
case you fall or something.” Surprised, but grateful, Kim
said, “Oh, sure,” and knelt down on the dirt path before Ben. Kim was sitting
back on the heels of her feet, knees planted on the leaf strewn soil that
served as a floor to the clearing. “Okay, let’s get this thing off me,” Kim
declared. She closed her eyes and pushed her face forward. To Ben it looked as
if she were waiting for a kiss. Kneeling before her, he
raised his hands to her face, much as he had the two nights before on the
stairs of her house the night he had placed the damnable thing on her face. He
gently touched the line of her jaw just below her ear and waited with
anticipation for the feeling of the mask rising from the surface of her face. Nothing happened. “Come on Ben, pull it off,”
whined Kim. “There’s nothing there to
pull off Kim,” Ben informed Kim rudely. “What are you talking about?
Just pull the thing off Ben, now.” Not wanting to hurt her, Ben
gave a gentle tug. All Kim felt were fingers hooked behind her jaw, pulling
softly, but firmly forward. “Ben, I swear, if you’re trying to keep me in this
body so you can get a little, you’re barking up the wrong tree. The only thing
that’s going to happen is more of whatever you’ve already been through. Now,
pull the mask off me and let’s get back home.” Ben sat back, insulted. “Why
would I do that Kim? I’ve spent the last two days in a waking nightmare. I
live in a fucking hovel, the roaches are so thick at home they’ll tie you up
and hijack your dinner plate. As for eating, that’s an entirely different
subject anyway, we have nothing! My Dad takes all the money my Mom earns and
smokes it or drinks it up. We have nothing. Everyone hates me. I’m probably
going to get my ass kicked again today by your fucking boyfriend…” “I told you, he’s not my
boyfriend,” Kim corrected angrily. “You want to tell him that!
He doesn’t seem to believe me,” Ben cracked. “He tries to break my head open
every time I try to tell him.” Kim gestured back to the
school with a wide sweep of her arm, “Already did, remember?” Kim asked him to
try again, only calmer this time, gentler. Ben repositioned himself and once
more tried to make the mask work its magic. He pulled and tugged, his finger
hooked behind Kim’s jaw. “It’s no use Kim, it’s
stuck.” “That can’t be possible!”
Kim’s eyes were wild with fear, “That old man said you could take it off!
Jesus…” Once more she grabbed the edges of her face with her fingers and began
to try to pull the mask off. She grunted short, high pitched, feminine grunts
of effort with each tug. “Come off!” she soon began to chant, “Come off, come
off, comeoff, comeoffcomeoffcomeoffcomeoff,” she chanted until her chant became
one long comeoff, she finally screamed! “GOD DAMN IT!” brought her hands to her
face and wept. “I’m trapped.” Ben didn’t know what to do.
He sat and watched as Kim cried. Tears began to well up in his eyes as well,
he wanted to weep for so much, he wanted to weep because he was stuck here too,
his mother was miserable and on the edge of suicide. He strongly suspected
that, were it not of him, she might have already have taken the drop. “Oh Ben,” she said pulling
her hands away from her face, “what are we going to do? I can’t just be a
girl! Not all of a sudden like this.” He wanted to offer something,
anything that might absolve him of the responsibility of this thing, all he could
say however was, “I don’t know Kim; I don’t know what’s happened. If I could
take it off of you I would.” Kim appeared to anguish over the idea. For her,
if the mask couldn’t be taken off, then she would remain a girl for the rest of
her life. Ben peered out between the narrow opening of the bushes while Kim’s
mind whirled around in a mental vortex of confusion and irrationality. “No
one’s around Kim, they’ve all gone to class”, Ben pulled his head back. “We’re
late.” “I don’t care,” she declared,
“I’m not going to school like this, not ever.” “Kim…” “No Ben, not ever. I mean,
lookit me. God damn it! I told you Ben! I told you this was a bad idea!”
Her hands moved around her body, finger splayed, hovering just bare centimeters
above her clothes. To Ben it looked like she was avoiding touching something
indescribably horrible. “I’m sorry Kim. I’m sorry I
got you into this.” “I don’t want sorry, I want
out! I don’t want to do this anymore Ben!” Ben looked on and to Kim’s
surprise he looked as if he might not comprehend the severity of Kim’s
predicament. “Do you understand what I’m saying Ben? If the mask doesn’t come
off, then I don’t change back. Not ever Ben. I have to stay like this as long
as I’m stuck with the mask.” “What about the old man?”
Ben asked. Kim calmed for a moment, and
then she began to nod slightly. It was not a new idea but one she had lost in
the panic of the moment. “Sure, yeah…” she said softly, “The old man, he has
to have a way for me to get this off. A smile broke out on her face. For a
moment, Ben could see the woman Kim had yet to develop into should she truly end
up stuck in that body. It made him ache for her. Watching her smile, Ben
almost wished that something would happen to prevent her from ever being anyone
else. But Ben hated his father and wanted to put the old man back behind bars
as quickly as he could. He also believed he would never be this close to
anyone as beautiful as Kim ever again. The suffering he endured now seemed
worth the sacrifice his wish would bring. Kim, still crying some, gave
a burst of grateful laughter, “It’s funny you know. I was thinking about that
yesterday when I was stuck at home. How did I forget that?” Kim scrabbled to her feet,
“Come on!” she shouted, reaching around behind her to grab his jacket. Startled, Ben cried, “Now? Wait,
I didn’t mean now! I can’t go,” Ben insisted. Kim turned on him with another
accusation on her lips but Ben stymied it, “I want it to stop Kim, I really do,
but I’m not the same person here, I can’t afford to be. I think we’re all
different here.” Ben said a little subdued. “I don’t understand,” Kim
said, “you said…” “I know what I said. But
Kim, I’m scared, my father…” Kim swallowed as the half
remembered moments of whispered brutalities of Abs Ackerman tried to penetrate
her conscious mind. “Yes Ben, of course. You can’t help us, there’s no reason
for you to… you know, in case we’re really―” “I wish I could go.” “It’s Okay Ben. I’m not
angry at you.” Ben searched Kim’s pale blue eyes. He thought for a moment he
caught the flicker of a lie hiding in the corner of one of them, but decided
not to look too closely. “I’m not, really. I’m just scared.” Ben shuffled his feet in the
dirt, “I’d better go get my books and stuff out of the trash.” Kim closed her eyes, one more
indignity, “I’ll help Ben.” “No, go see that fucker, get
him at least to tell you how to do this and I’ll take it off Kim, I swear.” Kim nodded. There was no
conviction in either of them now. Whatever they were going go do, it seemed it
was going to be done as they both existed now. “I’m sorry.” Ben offered once
more and then pushed his way through the hedges back out into the open. Kim’s
hands flew to her face and she gave the mask one more desperate pull. “SHIT!”
she cried as the mask stubbornly refused to materialize. It was clear to her now that
Ben hadn’t been lying the other night. From all appearances, she was going to
be Kimberly Glass for the foreseeable future. A fog of fury shadowed her face.
She balled up her fists and kicked her leg up behind her at the knee and
stomped it back down on the dirt, “NO!” She did this several more times,
emphasizing each stop with a fierce and angry “NO! NO! NO!” Frantic and
frightened, she paced around in a circle for a bit and stopped dead in her
tracks. Kim felt her face and body, a
thing that now seemed less and less unfamiliar to her. She muttered, “I never
wanted this. Oh God, please, PLEASE!” Nothing changed; she was still a girl,
only now there seemed no future for her but that of a female. She wiped new
born tears from her face and stood clinched against the onslaught of tears that
threatened. I won’t cry, I’m not going to cry. Kim gathered herself for a
moment and ducked through the branches where Ben, only seconds ago had exited.
She stood in the light of a world she didn’t want to live in. Trapped as a
person she could not escape from being. She wondered weakly how everything
could have gone so wrong. Three days ago, there had been no such thing as
magic. She had been a brilliant male child well on his way to a full
scholarship, a geek perhaps to most of the population of the school, but a
happy one. There was nothing wrong with her life. Now she was locked in someone
else’s body, a different sexed body, captain of the Cheerleading Team for
God’s sake! The name ‘The Tigresses’ popped into her head and she
groaned out loud. In the time before, as Tim, she had been unaware that the
cheerleading squad even had a name. How perfectly horrible was that name? She
was a Tigress. “That’s perfect. My day’s
complete now,” she said sarcastically to herself. There was fear and
uncertainty at every turn and now, alone, the only thing she could do was walk
into a school where the people of this place knew her as someone she had never
been meant to be. The world was spinning on its ear for her. In every way,
she was the exact opposite of the person she had been meant to be, in a life
she couldn’t seem to get back to. She had just built enough
courage to turn and run off the ground of the school and make a bee line for
the mall and the Wizard’s shop when someone called, “Miss Glass?” Kim’s head
whipped around in surprise in the direction the voice had come from. It was
Coach Monte, “Last bell rang over ten minutes ago, something wrong?” Flustered, Kim flushed, “Ah…
no Sir, Coach… I…” “Want to come on in and join
us then?” Monte said with a sarcastic smile. He waved her in with a large
overhead sweeping motion of his arm, “Come on, have some fun with us today.” Kim looked about in distress,
she was once again, trapped. The Wizard and any remaining hope she might have
for freedom from femdom would have to wait. She trudged labouringly toward the
steps. It seemed to Coach Monte that Kim’s feet must weigh eighty pounds each
for her to labor so over getting them to move. There must be something wrong.
He knew this child, knew her brother even better. She was always a lively,
happy, energetic student, enthusiastic on the field. What could be so wrong
that she would behave as if she were going to meet the executioner? Coach Monte made a mental
note to talk to Coach Karnes, Kim’s cheer coach, about this and see if she had
noted any changes in Kim’s behavior, he decided however, to refrain from
getting involved here and now except to say, “Kim, are you sure there’s
nothing you want to talk about?” “No Coach, thank you. I’m
fine.” “Yes, I can see that. You’re
going to have to put your feet on a diet if they’re getting so heavy they’ve
become useless for walking.” Kim smiled a sweet but obviously strained smile
and moved away from Monte and toward her home-room class. As Kim vanished around the
corner, Coach Monte shook his head and mumbled, “Good kid, I sure hope she
hasn’t gotten involved with something that’s going to wreck her life.” At that
precise moment Kurt Oswalter stepped around the corner from the Dean’s office.
Coach noted that his face was clouded and angrily dark. “Kirk, how’s it
hangin?” Kirk, who had obviously seen
Monte as he had made the corner, kept his head down, his eyes on his shoes and
growled low in his throat as he passed to wherever it was he was going,
stopping Monte dead in his tracks. “Glad to see everyone is in such fine
spirits today,” he muttered after Oswalter had passed. Coach Monte collected
himself and made his way down the hall toward the math pod. While Coach Monte
was unaware of the changes in everyone’s lives, time, life, normalcy had once
more seemed to regain much of its steam and was now pressing forward, carrying
all those it could with it. -*- Kim Glass, Ben Ackerman and
the rest of the world moved deeper into their appointed futures. Kim saw Ben
once more that day, during forth period. The two barely spoke. Ben chose to
keep his words to himself out of fear and guilt. Kim, now four and a half
hours past the devastating news that she would still be Kim over the weekend
had begun to nurture a single seed of resentment for Ben. Seeds such as those
often germinate and grow rapidly, like Kudzu on a Tennessee roadside, it had
already begun to hide her heart. Kim began her own period
between the schools forth and fifth. She became aware that her flow had begun
with the slick, slippery sensation her mind told her was blood. Diverting to
one of the girl’s restrooms along the way, she locked herself into one of the
stalls there to see. There were two small blood spots on the cotton crotch of
her panties. “Great!” she groused. She quickly extracted on of the tampons
she had brought with her from its wrapper. She removed one leg completely from
her jeans and lifted one leg and rested it on the toilet seat, giving her better
access to her genitals. She stared at the pink plastic tube with its bulbous
end she realized she was about to deliver a cotton plug inside her and leave it
there. “I hate you Ben,” she said absently. No one was around to hear her.
It wouldn’t have mattered if there had been, she would have said it anyway. She applied the tampon;
gently guiding it in had the effect of the final insult. The walls of her
vagina were sensitive as the plastic applicator parted them and settled inside
of her. She pressed the plunger and withdrew the plastic tube. The string
that was left behind tickled the inside of her thigh. She would never be able
to expunge the memory of that experience from her mind. The entire experience
seemed some how dehumanizing. School ended at the close of
sixth period. As promised, Robert was right there to pick her up. So too was
Kirk. He glared at them as he passed right in front of Robert’s car on the way
to his. Kim watched him pass nervously until Kirk finally broke his gaze. “What a creep,” she said. “Yeah well, I don’t think
he’ll bother again.” Robert fell silent for a moment, then he shifted in his
seat to better face his sister and said, “I’m sorry Kim. I don’t have an
excuse except to say that I really didn’t hurt anyone.” Kim smiled tenderly, all the
love she had ever had for her brother in both lives welled up inside her, “I’m
know Bobby. And I didn’t mean to be so blunt. Sometimes we have to hear
things the way they really are to understand.” She kept quite about Kirk’s
comments earlier that day in the hall. She didn’t want things snowballing out
of control any further than they already had. Perhaps if she kept them to
herself, it might all just go away. “Don’t ever be afraid to talk
to me Kim. If I do something stupid, then I need to know what it was so I
don’t do it again.” Robert regarded his sister for a moment. She seemed
melancholy and out of sorts. “Everything Okay Kim?” “I don’t know how to answer
that,” she said abruptly and was sorry she had chosen those words. “I guess
so. I started by period.” “Nice, thanks for sharing,”
Robert said with a look as if he’d just bitten into something bitter. Kim
giggled a little, grateful for being able to still find humor in something. On the way home, Kim asked
her brother if he wouldn’t drive her to the mall on Saturday on his way to
work. The old man was her last hope. If he couldn’t help her she had no idea
how she was ever going to restore her life to where it had been. Robert agreed and asked who
she was meeting there. Cindy’s over protective nature loomed large over her
head and the shadow of it seemed to further cool any chances of getting out. She
was as honest as she could be with Robert. He trusted her; she would have to
do the same if she expected to enlist his support. “No one, I just want some
time to myself. I can’t get that at home, not with Mom there.” “Then tell her you’re meeting
up with Sarah or something,” he warned her. Kim looked at him surprised,
“What?” he asked. “I’m not in on it,” Robert confessed. “Mom’s anal ways don’t
extend to me. I just don’t want to get caught in the fan when the shit hits
it, that’s all.” “Fair enough, Thanks Bobby.” That night, Kim was more
herself. With no choice and now 48 hours into her new life, making waves
didn’t seem wise. After dinner she cleaned up the kitchen, had a glass of diet
soda and watched a little television. She informed her mother that she and her
best friend Sarah Becklock wanted to go to the mall Saturday and asked if it
would be Okay if Robert drive her. Kim braced for the worst, but the news of
her grades and her change in behavior seemed to have done wonders for her
mother’s trust level. Without batting an eyelash, Cindy gave her approval. It wouldn’t matter if her
mother found out later that this was a lie; that Sarah would not be at the
mall. If the information came back to Cindy, it would only come back to her
because Kim had been unable to escape this reality. Nothing else at that point
would matter. She’d be trapped and there would be little else to it. If the
old man could change her back, then the lie would disappear along with
Kimberly. -*- At Heritage Mall, her fears were
renewed at the prospect of returning time to what she saw as its normal course.
She walked the Mall’s open plaza for almost thirty minutes in the place where
she and Ben had first spotted the Spells R Us boutique without finding it. It
wasn’t until she sat, distraught and worried that the store might not even
exist in this timeline that she saw the sign directly across from where she
sat. She raced in, hopeful that soon, all this would be over. As soon as she
was inside however, hope turned rapidly to anger. The Wizard’s attention was
drawn to the chiming of the door bell as the door opened and closed. As he
turned he could scarcely imagine the reaction, even with is ability to
occasionally foretell the future. Kim, relinquishing control to
her fear, immediately gave the Wizard a healthy, steaming portion of her mind
for lunch. “You old LIAR!” she shouted. “LOOK AT ME!” The Wizard smiled
good-naturedly. He peered over his spectacles that were seated low over his
nose and said, “Good afternoon to you too Kim,” “Don’t you even play nice
with me. This wasn’t supposed to happen!” Her anger had now manifested itself
in tears. Kim had wanted to put on a powerful persona but her fear of the recent
developments and disgust of her body overpowered her. Again, calmly the Wizard
asked, “What wasn’t supposed to happen Kim?” “THIS!” She shouted,
waving her hands in front of her body to indicate the extreme changes. “I’M
A GIRL!” Forgotten, though not permanently, was the self-gratification of
her abilities as an athlete. All the positives she had so subtly enjoyed had
been replaced with the fury of having been deceived. “Yes, and a lovely girl at
that. Funny how life from a...” “I don’t want anymore
philosophy,” Kim announced pacing back and forth. “I want out of this...
this... Grrrrrrrr” she growled, “I can’t even say it! I can’t deny what I look
like; I can’t even say my old name.” “That’s because the mask
changes you into your counterpart in life.” “It won’t come OFF!”
She cried. “Ben tried, once Thursday and once more on Friday. It’s stuck
somehow.” She placed her hands on the side of her face and pulled in an
exaggerated fashion pulling her head around from side to side to illustrate her
point. “See?” “That tells me nothing. You
will never be able to remove it yourself. I told you that. The person wearing
the mask can not take it off under any circumstances. Where’s Ben?” asked the
Wizard. “You don’t know?” Kim asked
skeptically. “I think you do. I think you know what’s happened to him as
well.” “He’s a different person
too,” the Wizard inquired? “You might say that. He’s
become a fucking punching bag for the entire state of Tennessee.” “Have you noticed other
changes, other than yours and Ben’s?” “Sure, I know what you’re
going to say. My mom is different, at least she acts different. Maybe she’s
really the same person, but I know why. It’s the changes in me since the mask
put Ben and I here…” Kim looked around a bit distractedly and added, “Wherever
here is?” “Kim, here is the planet
Earth. It’s Friday May 16th 2002. Everything was the same as it was before, up
to the time you were born April 9th 1986.” “That’s not right…” Kim said
confused, “I was born on…” Kim paused, she knew the Wizard was right, her
birthday was April ninth. “What’s happening to me?” Kim jolted and became rigid
as the Kimmory fell upon her. The day had been hot and
muggy. Cindy’s schoolgirl friend, Susan Ackerman had come by with her son, Ben.
Ben and Kim had been playing in a wading pool in the large front lawn. It was
one of those small blue plastic shells, the kind with the small slide that kids
play in when they’re too young to use a real pool. Kim could vaguely remember an
outline of the events. Most of what she remembered had been handed down to her
however. She had been too young to remember the events of the day herself
without assistance. Susan and Cindy had been in lawn chairs, sipping tea and
chatting pleasantly when they had decided to get up and leave for just a moment.
That was when Abs had
arrived. He had come looking for his wife. The chopped out Harley had
pulled up along the curb and what Kim could remember was the terrified look on
Ben’s face when the noise from the bike’s exhaust had caught his attention.
Ben had begun to cry as he toppled out of the pool and waddled away. Kim had
been left there alone. When she turned around, the human tattoo was nearly on
her. His size, his fearsome appearance was more than she could cope with and
she immediately peed where she sat in the pool. Abs stood at the edge of the
pool saying nothing. He surveyed the yard for signs of life as little Ben
disappeared around the corner of the house at the back yard. He then had
looked down at poor little Kimberly in the pool all alone. “Well now, what
have we got here?” Kim had been frozen with
fear. This too she remembered on her own quite well. In later years, she
equated it to what it must feel like to fall out of the watchful gaze of God
and into the sight of Satan himself, if you believed in that sort of thing. Abs had bent to pick her up.
To that day no one knew if Abs had pulled down her bathing suit bottoms or if
they had slid down by virtue of some other force. What was certain is that to
Tom, it didn’t much matter. “What the fuck are you doing
Ackerman?” Bellowed Tom from across the lawn. “Be cool man. I’m just
looking for my wife,” Abs as informed Tom dismissively as he set Kim on the
ground. Kim had immediately turned and run for the house where Cindy and Susan
now stood watching from the porch. “What’s wrong?” Cindy had
called, the uncertainty was strong and clear in her voice. “Son-of-a-bitch had
Kimberly’s pants down.” Tom cried back. “Whoa, wait just a fuckin
minute.” Abs began to protest, but Tom, who had been advancing reached back and
unleashed a cannon ball at the end of his right hand. It made contact with
Abs left eye, blinding him directly. Abs had fallen to the ground, screaming.
Kim remembered that sound a little. She wished at times she didn’t. She had
had a rabbit once. The neighbor’s dog had ambushed it in the yard on day when
they had it out of its pen. The way that rabbit screamed before it was
mercifully killed had reminded Kim of the way Abs had screamed as he writhed on
the ground. “GET THE HELL OUT OF MY YARD
ACKERMAN. GET OUT OR I’M CALLING THE FUCKING COPS.” When Kim came back she was
sweating slightly. “Dear God.” “That’s been happening a lot
I presume?” deduced the old man. Kim clutched her head as if
it might explode, “I hate this. I hate being locked in her life.” “It’s your life Kim. You’ve
always been a girl. You have to let go of this idea that there’s ever been
anything else.” “But I can remember being―” “A paradox, that’s all,”
explained the Wizard. “But you said―” Kim
started “For you, you have always
been Kim. To go back, you have to have access to the mask to change the
realities. Something you don’t have.” His words were cryptic,
meaningless gobble. Even worse for Kim, they vaguely pointed to something far
more final than she wanted to listen to. Forcing herself to remain clam, she
asked, “Why then. Can you tell me that? We did just what you said.” “I said only Ben would have
the ability to get it off once he put it on you. But your place in this life
is fragile. All things in the life you came from had filled in a balance.” “What’s that supposed to
mean?” Kim asked confused. “Everything has a balance
Kimberly. The entire world, the universe is poised that way to ensure that the
scales of balance, of equity don’t over tip and send the entire house of cards
spilling to the celestial floor.” “Sounds like another load of
philosophical bullshit to me.” The Wizard eyed her disapprovingly. Kim
understood why immediately, the word bullshit seemed to hang uncomfortably in
the air between them and Kim realized that she didn’t curse, at least, not out
loud. “Sorry.” She said humbly and lowered her eyes in shame. “That’s alright Kimberly, just
try harder to follow your own lead.” “But that’s just it. I don’t
want to; I want to go back to where I came from.” Kim whined, desperation was
rising in her voice again. “Ben can’t get it off now. How come?” “I told you, balance.” “I don’t understand,” Kim
said beginning to cry. “I just want to go home, why can’t I just go home to
what I was, who I was.” The Wizard came from around
the corner and crouched beside the girl. She threw her arms around his neck
and cried the tears of a girl that needed only comfort from a world that
offered little of that precious commodity. “Kim, you made a promise to Ben
that can’t be withdrawn.” “Promise,” she asked, “what
promise?” Kim said in a muffled tone with her head in the crook of the old
man’s neck and shoulder. “You promised to go with Ben
to the prom.” Kim groaned with regret and fear. “Now, because of your birth
as a girl, fate is trying to stabilize everything that has changed. You see,
not all things are right with the world yet.” “Well, if I could get this…”
The Wizard could sense the tension in the young girl’s body as she tried to say
what the mask would never let her say, “if you could take it off then
the world would go back to the way it was supposed to be, right? Wouldn’t that
solve all the problems?” “Not really, it’s sort of
complicated Kim,” He said compassionately. “I’m not sure you’d understand.” Kim took great offence at
that and withdrew from the Wizard’s comforting embrace. “What, I’m stupid
now?” The Wizard sighed. “Even with
Ben’s withdrawn behavior, he still wants to go to the prom with a beautiful
girl. More over; without really understanding what’s happening, he’s beginning
to fall in love with you. Kim shook her head in stunned denial. “This is the
element he sees as that life changing event in his life that will elevate him
beyond his status as human trash.” “Now that that seems within
his reach, even his deepest fear of his father’s wrath or what might befall him
at the hands of the thugs in school won’t let his heart admit that it’s in his
best interest to leg go of that idea. I told you both that love is the most
powerful magic of all. It could not be broken, forsaken yes, broken never. If
Ben is not truly in love with you, then he’s in love with the idea of being
in love with you. AND he’s even more excited about any chance he may
have, no matter how remote a possibility it might be, that you could someday
fall in love with him. You see Kim, Ben has to want to change you back. He has
to want to let go of the idea that he is falling in love with you and he
doesn’t want to do that.” “You never told us about
anything like this! Don’t you think you should have told me this thing would
change me into someone Ben would fall in love with? Or maybe you should have
told me about making promises and what that might do to me while I had this
thing on?” Kim paced around, upset, trying to think through the problem. “I did tell you, its part of
the reason you can’t just change your mind about the prom and have Ben remove the
mask. See, it’s not your choice alone. Ben is reverting to the person he
would be if he had come from your dimension Kim. A more confident Ben might
have had the courage to change his mind. He’s in a disparate situation now.
While he wants it to be over and done with, he either won’t or can’t let go of
the idea that this may be his only chance at a love of his own. The problem
here is that he’s so frightened now he hasn’t put any of this together yet.” “His father is partly to
blame for that. Abs is now still in his life. That means he won’t have the
second chance and the nurturing environment his mother provided for him,
however overindulgent it may have been. Then there’s the problem of you. You
haven’t been there as a friend all this time. The two of you were virtually
separated from each other after a fight between your Father and Abs at a back
yard…” “I remember that, but that…”
Kim trailed off uncertain of her memory on this issue. “Fate is trying to put the
pieces in an order that won’t let you disrupt the fabric normalcy again. It
knows you want to return to a time and a life that you and Ben erased. As fate
sees it, it’s not your choice to jump back and forth between the two
existences. The rules are the only reason the magic is allowed to work. Fate
wants its payment for the disruption you caused. But more than that, it
doesn’t want this to happen again.” “No,” Kim protested. The old
man stopped and raised his eyebrows in curiosity. Kim finally dropped her
gaze, “Oh God, there’s no way out this,” Everything I told you and
much, much more is all interconnected. It’s impossible to avoid the tendrils
of influence.” The wizard paused, “Have you ever seen the movie, It’s a
Wonderful Life? “Yeah,” Kim said dejectedly. “Well, it’s kind of like that
raised to the power of a million, in reverse. Everything out there that you
touch or that touches you has the potential to require the girl you were born
as in this timeline to stay and complete. If you make a promise then all that
potential you give birth to needs to be satisfied before the magic will work
again.” As Kim tried to allow her
mind to open to the infinite possibilities, the more stymied she seemed to
feel. “My head hurts,” Kim whined, stroking her forehead. “Nothing you’re
saying makes any sense to me. How could Ben be falling in love with me? I’m
his best friend. We practically grew up together…” Even as Kim said the
words, she understood that it wasn’t true. What she had known to be true as Tim
more and more felt like a dream she was waking up from. “As I said, you were not
there to be Ben’s friend. You know each other, but that’s it. Ben has no more
connection to you now than anyone else at school. It comes down to this Kim.
As long as the mask is locked on you, you’re going to remain Kimberly. That
may be five weeks; it could be another 60 or so years. There are no answers for
you today.” Kimberly audibly groaned. “Ben can’t change his mind
about any of this. No matter what else happens, no matter how badly he’ll come
to believe that he wants out, there will always be part of him that wanted your
promise to him to come true. He’s not capable of setting aside that desire for
himself. If Ben doesn’t truly want to give up his dream, then you’ll remain stuck
until you fulfill it Kim. That has become your job in all of this.” Kim tried to envision the Ben
she had seen doing anything outside of school and home and couldn’t draw a
mental image of it. Yesterday, he was so withdrawn and scared of his own shadow
that she was unsure of what he was to become in this place and time. “ME? How in the hell did it
suddenly become my responsibility to fulfill anything to anyone? I didn’t want
to do this in the first place and what’s my reward?” “I feel your pain sister,” a
young woman behind the counter said. She had come from the back of the store
with an armful of what looked like medieval costumes and hats. Kim eyed her
curiously for a moment but ignored the remark as she made her way deep into
store and began to hang the costumes on racks for display. “You made the promise Kim.” “But I didn’t know, you
didn’t tell me anything about that…” Kim protested as if it would make a
difference “Perhaps, not in the strictest
of senses, but I did warn you not to make promises you could not keep. You
chose to ignore what I said. I even told Ben to warn you.” “Well he didn’t. And I
barely remember you saying anything like that, forget understanding it at the
time. That should be enough for you to get me out of this.” The old man simply
shook his head. Kim stared at the old man in disbelief. The Wizard stood and
began to stroll to his place behind the counter. “You tricked us! You tricked
me! I never wanted to be this…” “If you sign a contract Kim,
without reading it, do you think a judge would let you just walk away because
you complained that you didn’t really understand what was expected of you?” the
old man asked. “This isn’t a contract.
Contracts can’t change a person into someone else! I didn’t ask to be changed
into a girl. I am NOT STAYING LIKE THIS!” Kim finished by screaming. “You never asked to be a boy
either, that’s what you would have gotten if had put the mask on as Kim.” The
Wizard reminded her. “You would have been changed into Tim if the shoe had
been on the other foot to begin with. And you be standing here demanding that
I change you back into a girl.” “I. wasn’t… I did… That’s not
fair,” She strained against the ideas and thoughts that were floating around in
her head. “I just want to go home.” “You keep saying that Kim,
but you are home.” Kim had had her fill of the
niceties of trying to understand what the old man was explaining to her, she
was finished with the explanations of how she was going to have to remain as
she was, “TAKE IT OFF OF ME!” Kim shrieked. “I can’t do that. No one can.
No amount of shouting at me is going to change that now, no one but Ben can
remove that mask and he can only remove it once his dreams have been granted by
you. The magic is very strong, the rules very strict. If it won’t come off by
Ben’s hand, then you’re going to have to start getting used to being Kim from
here on out.” “NO! I won’t.” Kim stomped
her foot down on the floor. “I won’t do it. I can’t take one more minute of
this. I will not be a―” but Kim couldn’t finish. “If you hadn’t already
noticed, you already are Kim. The mask does have the potential for becoming
stuck; trapping the wearer in the form he or she took. I’m sorry, but you knew
there were risks involved.” The Wizard said compassionately. “Oh my God... this is not
happening to me.” She mumbled to herself. “You’re telling me I’m going to be
like this for the rest of my life?” “That likely hood is entirely
possible Kim.” Kim, hearing the unthinkable out loud for the first time stared
slack-jawed at the old wizard. “There is always a chance Kim that for all of
Ben’s problems, he will let you go once you have completed your obligation to
your promise.” “None of this is up to you or
me any longer. Let me tell you however, if you don’t go and that means WITH
Ben, then the mask will not unlock itself and Ben will not be able to take it
off until you attend a prom with him.” Kim sat, dejected, on a small
pile of boxes near a rack of what looked like costumes. “I can’t believe this.
This was only supposed to last until the end of school Thursday. I didn’t even
want to do this.” Kim moped. “You know, being a girl isn’t
that bad. I’ve been a woman on several occasions. I expect gender reversal of
my help, those young kids that come in here for jobs in the summer.” The Wizard
admitted. “You change the guys that
come to work for you into girls?” Kim sounded appalled. “Not only the boys... I
insist that the girls become boys. It’s an important life lesson. It teaches
you how to think for both groups of people. They are very different you know,
boys and girls.” At that point the same young lady from before walked out of
the back carrying a basket with several small boxes and items that looked to
Kim like they were to be put out on display. “That’s sick.” Kim said
disgustedly. Then her mind hit on an idea, “I don’t suppose I could get a
summer job here.” “Nice try Kim, but I can’t
change you back, even if I gave you a job. Besides, I already have an
assistant. Darrel here. I’ve named her Darla, more appropriate don’t you
think?” “That’s a boy?” Kim asked
astonished. Darrel turned with an angry
look on her face, “Was... I was a boy.” Darrel barked in a sweet but angry
girl’s voice. “Sooorrrrrrrry!” Kim
remarked snidely. “She’s still upset about the
arrangement,” admitted the Wizard. “It wasn’t an arrangement. I
was tricked!” insisted Darrel. Now Kim felt she could understand the girl’s
comment from earlier. “You wanted to become a
Wizard, you signed the contract, and you graduate when you figure out the spell
and can change yourself back.” “Nope, that’s not how it
went. Even at that, I graduate as a woman! You said I’d never be capable of
holding my former form for more than a month at a time after that,” argued the
young girl. “It’s unfortunate, but you
have to graduate and hold your degree as you were when you were an apprentice.
Your diploma will say Sorceress not Wizard. But they’re really the same thing.”
The Wizard paused and waited. “You could always just leave.” “Oh no. If I’m stuck this
way, then I’m going to get something out of it,” Darrel answered quickly. “That’s the spirit!” Cried
the Wizard and slapped the girl on the back as if she were still one of the
guys. “Ooooowwwwww. That hurts!” cried
Darla doing her best not to drop the basket of goodies while writhing in pain. “Sorry.” The Wizard said
sheepishly. “Ahem!” coughed Kim. The
Wizard turned with eyebrows raised questioningly. “My problem?” “I heard you to talking about
that from back there,” said Darla. “Stop saying you’re going to be places as
you are if you want to change back. Consider yourself lucky. You want to talk
about stuck, how’s this? You have six weeks. I have at least two hundred years
before I can change myself back for five minutes.” “It’s really that simple,”
said the Wizard. “Don’t make appointments that Kim has to keep. No dates, no
commitments. If you do, the mask will make sure that Kim exists to fulfill the
commitment. If you decide not to be where you said you’ll be, the mask will stay
on until you follow through with what you said you’d do. Whatever you do, don’t
give a date and time, at the very least not a date and certainly not a year. If
you do, and you don’t show, then the only thing to do is resign yourself that
you’re going to be Kim for the rest of your life. Remember Kim, time travel
for you isn’t possible. You will not be able to go back and fulfill an
appointment for a date that has already passed. At that point the mask will
never let you go.” “Anything else you haven’t
told me?” Kim asked sarcastically. “No sex. If you have sex as
Kim, Kim stays. That includes voluntary intercourse, masturbation, genital
fondling and rape...” The Wizard eyed her, “You have ah... you know...” “NO!” Kim said with girlish
indignation. “I most certainly haven’t.” Then she remembered David Pratt,
“Does that include anything that Kim did before I put the mask on?” The Wizard coughed, blushed,
“No, I’m pretty sure that things that happened in the line of time before the
date and time you slipped into her life won’t count.” Beneath the counter,
Darla giggled under her breath as she put a tray of magic rings in the display
case. “That will be enough of that
Darla,” commanded the Wizard. “I hate that name.” Darla
muttered as she collected the trash and arrogantly marched back to the rear of
the store.” Kim watched her go, her heart
was heavy for the young girl who, it seemed, was doomed to remain a young girl
for sometime to come. “What will happen to her?” “Darla? I suspected that
she’ll quit eventually. She doesn’t have the stomach for this.” “Will you change her back
then?” Kim asked, digging for a flaw somewhere, something that would point to a
way out for herself. “I can’t. That’s the thing
about magic. Spells are almost exclusively designed to prevent or repel
tampering. Whether you believe it or not, magic won’t work unless you make a
conscious decision to let it work. It’s sort of like giving consent. Once
you’ve given consent, the magic is free to run its course without interference.
Only she can change what she’s done. The rules are fairly simple in your case
too. I admit, I should have given greater detail about what might happen, but
then, this is what I do.” “This is all just one big
game to you, changing people around into people they aren’t supposed to be?”
Kim asked bitterly. “As I said, the magic won’t
really work unless you consent to it. Contracts are for the contracted to
investigate, not the drafter to reveal. Since you’re here as you are now, you
consented. I would be careful of making vague accusations young lady. That
can only lead to trouble.” The Wizard met her gaze with stony intensity and
did not waver. “I don’t like this.” she
pouted, “I want to go home, my real home, my real time. I want to be the self
that I perceive myself to be.” Kim paused, lost in thought and then asked.
“What if something keeps me from going to the Prom or Ben decides not to take
me.” “I wish I could help Kim, I
do. I can’t change what’s been done, but if you follow the rules, barring a
catastrophe, you do stand a chance at getting home soon enough.” Kim stood shaking her head
unbelievingly. “You were my last hope,” she mumbled, then shrieked, “I can not
believe this!” She plopped back down on the boxes she’s been sitting on only a
moment before and laced her fingers through her platinum hair. “What now?” “You go home Kim. You go
home and you do what you can to try to play by the rules. And if the rules say
that you stay as you are, then you go on. Does it really matter what body you
do that in anyway.” “I used to think so,” Kim
admitted dejectedly. “Thanks for nothing.” She stood without so much as a
single glance back and exited the store. Behind her, the bell chimed her exit.
Maurice turned as Darla just
coming back from the storage area deep within the shop, “She doomed you know.” “Doomed Darla, please explain
yourself.” The old man said. “Explain myself,” She asked.
She turned angrily on The Wizard, “Okay. Look at me. All I was looking for was
what amounted to a job. “You were asking for a bit
more than just a job Darla,” the Wizard reminded her. “Whatever…” Darla dismissed
him. “I got the job alright, but I didn’t realize that the stipulation to
acceptance was that I had to become a girl to work here. Once that happened, I
became caught in a never ending series of circumstances that prevented me from
becoming me again. Finally, in the forlorn hope that I might be able to change
myself back, I decided to become a wizard.” “Now look at me. I’m stuck
like this. And the council has made sure that I’m going to remain like this. THEN
they added insult to injury by dangling a carrot out in front of me the
whole time by giving me the slimmest hope that I could make myself male again.
If I quit, I’m a girl for the rest of my life, BUUUUT, if I hang in
there I have some hope of occasionally being male again for short periods of
time. Oh yeah... that’s fair.” Darla paused for a moment,
“I’ve seen how this magic works... Spells that change people rarely offer any
real solution to a way back. Even if someone has the option of going back,
it’s not really an option. That’s the real illusion. Once you’re changed, you’d
better get used to it.” Darla paused again shaking her head and returning to
her work, “She’s going to be that poor little girl all her life and you know
it.” Darla quipped sarcastically. “Believe it or not Darla,
that will be her choice entirely.” Darla snorted a very
unladylike nasal growl and went back to her work. “I’ve heard that before,”
she groused under her breath.
“Your birth on the ninth as Kimberly is a sign that you developed in your
mother from a different fertilization. It could have been different sperm,
different egg, a different cycle, something that caused you to develop into a
female rather than a male. This event influenced all the other choices,
decisions and ideas of everyone that would come in contact with them and with
you and changed the world as you once knew it to be. That’s why Ben’s father
is not in jail but rather a detrimental force in Ben’s life.” The wizard waited
but the light in Kim’s eyes didn’t come on. “Ben’s father wasn’t there the day
he shot that police officer. He wasn’t there because of something that
happened three years earlier. He was at a doctor’s office in Nashville trying
to have an issue with his eye corrected. An injury your father gave him.”
Comments
I liked this story...
And yes that is the past tense, I really liked this story. I liked the idea, I liked the characters and I liked the setting. I also am a fan of SrU stories and have written a number myself.
But I really don't like stories that take the mind from the character, if Ben and Tim had retained who they were, so that they could make themselves even in the new situation better people then I'd still be waiting for the next part.
The Legendary Lost Ninja
I liked this story
I made this mistake when I published this story on Fictionmania. So there's no reason I can't make it again right here. I'm referring to commenting on a story that is not completely published yet.
JC, I would humbly encourage you to continue to read. I think everything to this point bears out that they remember who they were and at times are torn between remaining, finding out what happened, how they came to be what and who they are now, and how to get back. I still believe that since the environment is so radically different than the one they came from that some of those changes must be included with any physical change they are subjected to. Kim has always existed in her current reality. Is it fair to believe that everything she was before Tim slipped in was obliterated, it is after all her brain Tim is using. Or is that even accurate? They are variation of the same person, the same egg, fertilized on a different schedule, under different conditions. How much change would one sperm cell make in us? If we had the ability to see who we would have been if we had been conceived one minute before or after we actually had been, how different would we be?
Here, they have the mind of both, because in the reality of the story, they are both, borne of both experiences, lives and environments. They can not stand alone because each of them, Ben and Ben, Tim and Kim are to themselves, one person with the experience of two very separate lives.
I pose these question only as a theory. I'm very sorry you don't like the story. That is indeed, my loss.
Cheers
Mark McDonald.
P.S. I'd also like the personally thank Alexis for believing in this story enough to take the time to publish here for me. My most humble thanks.
M
Mark McDonald