A Change in my Life.
Chapter 4 Waking up
By
Julie D Cole
Sally Crewe

The next thing I remember was seeing some strange faces around be and I could hear Jessica screaming. I just wanted to close my eyes and go to sleep. My head hurt.

I couldn’t focus properly to try to recognize the faces. There was a light and I seemed to be on a stretcher.

I heard some more voices and I tried to wake up but I couldn’t. I tried to see where I was and saw some medical people. It looked like a nurse lifting my arm and a doctor at the other side of me.

My arm hurt but my head was worse. All I could remember was getting into Mary Jo’s car and then nothing. Where was she and where was Jessica? Where is Chrissy. Oh my God where is Chrissy I’ve lost her.

More voices and this time I saw Jessica with someone. It was Kate, Chrissys boss. Oh Kate please please hear me. Can’t you hear me please look at me.

It was black again and I really felt weak. I couldn’t lift my arm and I felt like I was in a trance. I couldn’t keep my eyes open. My eyelids were heavy and then I remembered I was in the back of Mary Jo’s car and had my mobile phone in my hand. My God where’s my mobile phone I have to call Chrissy.

It was black again. I felt weaker and I was drifting in and out of consciousness but nobody could see me and I couldn’t shout out. I tried to move but my head hurt so I just went back to sleep again.

Each time I opened my eyes I saw a different person. Jessica and Kate had gone and another doctor was holding my hand and saying he thought I was coming around again.

‘Yes stupid I’m awake but you can’t hear me. Please I want to ask you to find my mobile phone. I want to call Chrissy. Oh Jessica please come back and help me. Where are you when I need you.’

I saw a clock on the wall and it was 10 o clock. But I didn’t know if it was morning or night because no window. I seemed to be in a room with no windows just a lot of lights. Oh they hurt my eyes.’

I heard more voices and looked towards the door. A nurse was standing there talking to someone. Who is it I can’t see clearly. Is it Kate? Oh my head. Whatever I do I can’t wake up. ‘Please God let me wake up.’

Now more people. Oh I saw Julie and then I heard Chrissy I heard Chrissy. I had to open my eyes I wanted to hear what she was saying.

‘Sally did you hear that dad’s coming home.’

I hear I hear. She held my hand and I could feel her. I could feel her warm hand. Oh Chrissy please I can hear you.

Then I heard Kate and I heard Chrissy say something else. She seemed to be crying as she said it. ‘'But Kate I'm sorry I don't think I can accept.'

What did she mean, were they in love? Has she proposed?

Kate said something but I couldn’t hear clearly. Then Chrissy spoke again
'Kate, I have just given a promise to God that I’d give up the notion of living as a woman and deceiving people in exchange for his help.’

What was she saying?

‘ I want him to bring Sally back so I can take care of her. ‘

Why what’s wrong with me I’m here.

‘My real mum died because of me and I can't let Sally die because of me. I have to change back.'

No Chrissy no don't be stupid listen to me please.

I summed up all my strength and squeezed her hand. I don’t want Chris I want you. But I couldn’t get the words out.

I squeezed again and Chrissy felt it and turned to me and the tears fell onto me.
I tried harder ‘No Chrissy no. Please for me. You have to carry on.’

Oh she heard me.

‘Oh Sally Oh Sally I love you. You woke up. Nurse, Nurse.’

I could see her and she heard me. Oh my God she heard me.

I managed to speak again ‘Chrissy I love you as you are. You are Chrissy or you are Chris.’

I just wanted to hold her or for me to hold me. I love him/her as she is.
‘ You are one person and I love you as you are now. Please don’t change we have a life together.’

To be continued ………………………