By Amethyst
Author's note: This is a poem I wrote shortly before I got my GRS about ten years ago. I'm not sure why I never posted it before but Dot and I were talking poetry last night and she convinced me that I should post it here.
I grew up in a cage of flesh
A body not my own
And while other children laughed and played
I often felt alone
For since the moment I was born
I wore the label "boy"
That label and the cage of flesh
Served only to annoy
That ugly thing between my legs
Brought me only tears and pain
For in body I may have been a male
But I was female in my brain
My parents never noticed it
Perhaps they weren't aware
That I preferred to play with girls toys
And for sports I didn't care
Puberty brought changes
And a loathing of my entire world
And each night I wished upon a star
That I could be a normal girl
I've gone through years of pain and hardship
And now I don't care what others see
I'll renovate this cage of flesh
And be the woman I should be
© 2010 Amethyst Gibbs
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Comments
as I said in chat
tis is very powerful, and the "cage of flesh" is an excellent metaphor for our situation
Thanks Dot
The metaphor is an apt one and it's a life sentence that all too often there's only one escape from. If you cant's escape it renovate it and make it feel more like home, that's what all trans people are doing essentially when they come out of the closet and work toward transition.
*big hugs*
Amethyst
Don't take me too seriously. I'm just kitten around. :3
I don't think I've ever been
I don't think I've ever been upset that I'm a guy, but I do often wish I could be a girl. I have, however, had times in my life where I remember looking in the mirror and not recognizing what I saw reflected back at me as who I should/want to be. I can imagine that having that feeling every time you look in the mirror, so my heart goes out to you and everyone else that has issues with disphoria. Thank you for sharing a piece of your soul with us.
Dysphoria sucks
I'm glad that I've gotten past that point in my life where it's constantly there and I can look in the mirror and see me there instead of some stranger. It still comes up once in a while when something reminds me that I wasn't born the way I should have been and it tears me apart each time, but for the most part I'm happy with who I am now.
*big hugs*
Amethyst
Don't take me too seriously. I'm just kitten around. :3
Good
That’s pretty good.
hugs :)
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