Even with the vastness of our language
There is no word to explain the feeling
No place to feel safe from the inner turmoil

It preys on you until it feels content
At what price will it subdue
It rips and crushes the future

When the disaster is finished
The only thing left is a hole
A hole so vast that the world could not fill

You try to fill it, you try to find a reason
But there is no reason
For you have been cursed

The pain that others feel, you do not understand
The sorrow of humanity is foreign to you
Love is spoken but never felt

You are left cold, to wallow in the dark
Blind of the features desiring to be felt
No understanding of happiness

Life goes by day by day
You lose your family, no feeling
Your best friend, no feeling

The lack of feeling consumes you
Leaving only one human emotion,
Rage

The world has disowned you
You are left looking in, wanting
Never getting what you are longing for

You begin to dissociate from those different
No one to feel for, no hope of changing
Until finally you become consumed by the emptiness
All hope for you seems lost, but
Even in the vast emptiness, something has made sense
What you have wanted was always there

It sat patiently in the vastness
Waiting to be discovered
But you now understand

When you find that one thing to raise your hope, you grasp it
Mangled only by time, but still a beauty
It shows the light, your hope of success

It sets you free of the prison that has bound you
It is your guide along the difficult road
Helping you with every decision and turn

You begin to love, begin to understand the pain
The emotions lost for so long all suddenly emerge as one
The overwhelming sense is liberating

You feel human, you longed for the hope,
You understand the wait
The hardest part of changing, is waiting.

By: Emily Rudgers