Saving Alicia

By Christine

Chapter -4-

-Idiot- Jessica thought to herself. Leaving her gun unattended and carelessly slung over her coat rack with an unstable child in the house. How stupid could she be!?

She had been a police officer for many years but she had gotten used to the easy life of living alone. So, she never had to worry about her gun when she was in the house. But she should have thought about the problems involved when she took in this girl.

She was really startled at the sound of Alicia’s voice. The look in Alicia’s eyes was the worst. She was clearly very angry. She froze. “Alicia, think about this please and do not do anything you cant take back later.

“Shut up bitch or I will fire. There are only a few things I have done that I regret.”

“Please Alicia think about this. I care about you.”

She screamed with rage, “Stop calling me Alicia, damnit. I told you in the car that my name was -Allen-! Get that though your head you dumb twit.”

She was staying back and the gun was pointed directly at Jessica’s chest. She was scared, for Alicia. She knew she had to stop Alicia. She was a police officer and as part of the job, she accepted she might be shot in the line of duty. That was always a possibility she had accepted. She was comforted if it ever really happened that her fellow officers would hunt down who did it and make sure they were charged.

This was different. This was an abused girl that she wanted to save. She didn’t want this girl to suffer any more than she already has, even if alicia did shoot her. Given her history, she fully understood and forgave her. But the district attorney wouldn’t let the matter drop so easily and Alicia’s life would be over. Alicia would then be arrested, tried and likely convicted. Jessica knew she had to stop Alicia before she did something she couldn’t take back.

One thing Jessica knew she had to do was stop calling the girl Alicia even though name was registered at Alicia and she was documented as a transsexual. “I am sorry alic…Allen if I have upset you. You are right about your name and I am sorry. Calling you Alicia was very thoughtless of me. Please think about what you are doing now. Do you really want to hurt me?”

“Yes, Jessica!” Alicia said coldly. You have to pay Then I will visit my sister. “

She shook her head, “It wont work that way Allen so please think long and hard. I am a police officer. If you shoot me then it will all be over. You wont be able to ever go back from that. I don’t want you to suffer. “

Alicia thought for a few minutes while still holding the gun. Then she fell to her knees, covered her face and started crying. The gun dropped to the floor. Jessica made it to her in a split second and had the gun. Alicia looked up at Jessica fearfully.

“What will you do now, Jessica.”

“We will forget this. No one has to know about tonight. Just go to your room and lets get some sleep. Oh before I forget, if you want me to, I will call you Allen. If I make a mistake and call you Alicia, remind me and I will call you Allen. “

She said nothing and just ran to her bedroom. It was then that Jessica made a phone call to her friend, officer Choi Hung. It looked like she needed some help there. Jessica was afraid for Alicia and didn’t think she could handle her alone now. It was good to have someone else to help her

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Voices outside of her bedroom woke Alicia early in the morning. Looking at her clock beside her bed, it said 7:30 Am. Stepping out of her bed, she was relieved that Jessica didn’t seem mad at her.

-Stupid, stupid, stupid- was all she could think. Getting a police officers gun and threatening her with it was about the stupidest thing she had ever done. She considered herself damn lucky that Jessica didn’t handcuff her and have her arrested. That could easily had happened.

She thought how simply wonderful it was to be able to get free from her own bed. That feeling was still surprising after several weeks of it.

Her sister and her brother had chained her to her bed every night so she couldn’t get away, for four years. It had just hit her that she was considered free. She wasn’t sure if she could trust Jessica or not. She did seem to actually care for her but after 4 years of being mistreated by women, she simply couldn’t bring herself to trust this woman or any woman. He had been shown a side of women he didn’t ever want to be part of again. That had ripped apart his life and he doubted it could be put together again. She was a survivor.

As she was dressing she tried to listen to the voices but they were too far away. She put on blue jeans and a purple tee shirt that Jessica bought for her and normal pink tennis shoes. She enjoyed dressing casually.

As she walked down the hallway she only recognized one of the voices. It was Jessica and there was another voice, one deeper male voice she didn’t recognize. She turned into the family room and saw them two sitting beside eachother. Jessica was sitting beside a much bigger man. He seemed friendly enough. They were talking with eachother and then they stopped.

“Well good morning Allen. “ Jessica said. “This is lieutenant Choi Hong. He is an officer in a different division. He will help us here.

He stood up gracefully, extended his hand, “Hello Allen.”

Alicia backed away a little, “Hello Lieutenant. I guess she told you about the stupid thing I did last night. “

She looked at Jessica, “I want to apologize for that. I wasn’t thinking. I was really afraid of being hurt again.”

“Allen, are you afraid now?” Choi asked.

“I… I don’t know. I think so yeah. Jessica still scares me. “

“We understand, “ Choi said. They both smile. “We will move slowly. “ she trusted Choi a lot more but didn’t understand why. As far as Jessica was concerned, she couldn’t trust her at all.

“Sit down Allen and we will get to know eachother. She took a seat across from them,

“Jessica said that you told her you are Allen. All of your records now state you are a transgendered and even tho they say you are male, your name in the records state you now as Alicia. If you don’t like being called Alicia then we wont. Id like to hear your own thoughts on this matter.”

Her lips pressed together tightly as she thought for a few minutes. Time almost stood still. “It is hard to describe but I will try. I was Allen, I am still Allen inside. My parents called me Al till they passed away when their aircraft crashed. Then My wicked sister started beating on me daily and there wasn’t anyone to protect me. She was a few years older, a lot taller and there was no way. I was a preteen age child against a older more developed teenag girl. There was no way any 12 year old could protect themselves but my brother and my sister saw that as a sign I was somehow weaker, more feminine than normal boys. It was stupid but my point to all of this is, Allen was taken away. As things are now, I have lived as a girl for 4 years. I cant go back to Allen. My training, my movements and the shape of my body make it unlikely I could ever be a manly man. I now see myself as a girl and I want to go though with this transition. Just don’t make me a damn slave girl.”

“We are police officers Allen.” Choi said very strongly with a hint of steel underneath his voice. “We uphold the law here. That means we don’t, I repeat, -don’t- mistreats children. We protect them and prosecute those that do. I’d love to arrest your sister, brother, his wife and that mistress Donna bitch and lock them up. We wont ever hurt you. We will make sure no one ever hurts you again.”

She winced but then smiled. “I thank you Choi. I think I like you.”

He smiled sweetly back. “So can you tell me about what happened to you, who did it and specify details.

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A few hours later Alicia was dressed and ready for her appointment with a shrink and Jessica and her were headed out the door. Choi's face was purple with rage. He told Jessica, “I will be back in a few hours. That story Allen told really pissed me off. I'M going to pay Ron a visit and possibly, That Craig guy. I really can’t stand perverts that would do something like that to a child. “