Those of us abused, often get into a rhythm, of being broken & subservient. Apologizing even & especially when its not our fault. This is 100% one of the most common traits of abuse. Crying, itself with the feeling of either gaslighting it with the 'i have something in my eye, allergies etc" that many males, tend to do & often taught since early childhood. Apologizing, for crying, or in otherwords showing an upsettable emotion, often stems from the protective angle, as many of us often got beaten into even emotional submission & or eradication.

Its well known as women, in domestically abusive relationships, often find ourselves as I mentioned being beaten or emotionally broken from the outbursts of their partner. Its not uncommon for men, particularily to get upset when a female is crying, either trying to stop it through some submission themselves or aggressive dominance... if not even neglect or temporary & even perminant abandonment. Put both of us being in I hate to admit the truth of the stereotype, but we as canadians are honestly known for being chronic apologizers. So please Dorothy, don't feel poorly about this, dream or not it matters not.

What matters is how your dealing, are you alright now?

Have you schedualed any apointments with your therapist?

Also dear, try to remember, you are a girl, a woman & female where it most matters, with the hormones on top of that, you will be free'er with your emotions, theres nothing to be ashamed of.

Even guys can cry... some may be unattrative at it, but others have been known to be hearthrobes for it, like michael landon, whom especially in drama's like little house on the prairie & think its called stairway/highway to heaven, where he often brought out the tears, they became a staple & was rare, for an episode to pass without tears.