I'm having breakdowns so often now I've had two just today I don't think I have long before I have a full breakdown, I'm not sure I'll survive the next one last time I had a sharp blade, towels and other things. I'm not sure I want to every time my mom says or does something to remind me of how she let me down so hard, it hurts so deeply and I'm not sure I can take much more of that kind of pain, it's crushing me.
I'm not in going to hurt myself right now but I can now see where I'm gonna end up if I can't make the pain a little less it hurts more every time it happens. See previous post, she was a good mom excepting that but every time I think of how she let me down it's hurts more and more.
I can't handle being among non family for more then a half hour and that's pushing it, I'm not together enough to work right now it's why I'm still with my parents
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all I got is hugs
but you're welcome to as many as you need. Remember, you are loved, and find the local crisis numbers and use them.
Love and Hugs
All the hugs you need, the Love is free.
Big Hugs tmf
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NEVER give up, my love. Suicide is a PERMANENT solution to a TEMPORARY problem. remember that.
Troubles are like constipation. Eventually, everything passes, but sometimes you have to help things along. you now have the ability. I urge you to please consider your choices. You are valued. You have worth. You are needed. And I, for one, would miss the hell out of you.
*Kisses Always*
Haylee V
OK, take a breath...
Are you an American Veteran? If so you have Mental Health care.
Do you have medication that you stopped taking?
Call the Suicide Crisis line.
You can take charge of your own care without all the drama. Do it.
Hang in there
I had one of my nasty down-spells last week, if was the worst I have had in a long time.
Everyone here came out in support to help me, and the same is happening here for you.
All I can do is say find a Psychiatrist that you think you can trust and go to them, Help might be needed from the medication side, or just counseling, maybe both.
I know when the pain is at its worst ending things seems so quick and easy, just hang in there the pain will pass it can take a little while but I know you can do it. No body ever said life is easy, I am hoping the scales will balance soon and good things will happen otherwise the pain I endure is for not, but if Karma is out there she tends to like and balance the scales and if she is giving you all that pain and sorrow she tends to try and through good back in to keep things balanced.
I my self am trying to find a psychiatrist that is very experienced with people that have autism.
"Cortana is watching you!"
Me too
I know the pain of the dark emotions you feel. I'm there right now. I have chronic treatment resistant depression. It's not something that is easily conquered. If you want to chat, I'm almost always around. Just send me a message.