X-Why-Me…Chapter 18

*Before…

She looked at her dad and he waited until the cops had left and offered his hand to the bus driver who shook it and the sheriff who just looked at him and his hand and then headed towards his car. “I have to get this to evidence and do up a report, good evening all.”

He left with a nod and got in his truck and drove off and the bus driver left after that saying he had to do the same after getting the bus back to the garage.

Emily looked at her sister and her Dad and her throat hurt and her mouth was dry.

“I’m so sorry you guys, I’m sorry.”

Both of them hugged her and she started crying and they hug walked her up the drive way to the house.

*And Now…

It took a little while for Emily to calm down after everything that had happened and her mom was being really cool and really supportive to her through the entire thing and sat with her on the couch with a flannel blanket fresh out of the dryer with a dryer sheet tossed into it.

She knew her mom was mad and she knew that this might not be the end of things either. She absolutely just hated the way that they were all acting out there!

She wasn’t the one hurting anyone they were!

She had fallen asleep at some point and she opened her eyes when she heard a car door close outside and she got up and draped her blanket around her and she saw Kira and her dad and her mother coming in and there was some handshakes and stuff with the parents and Kira was just coming inside the living room when she realized that she’d been here and crying pretty much ever since she got home.

She covered her head with the blanket like it was a hood. “Don’t look I just woke up and I’m a serious mess.”

Kira chuckled. “Em, I’m kind of planning on us being together long enough that me seeing you with bed head and having morning breath is normal.”

Whoa…really?

“Really?”

Kira laughed. “Yes really jeeze you know I like you girl.”

“But we barely know each other…”

“Says the girl that had her hands driving me crazy in the girl’s locker room after her game the other day.”

Emily seriously blushed. “I was…that was…”

Kira walked over and even as dressed down as she was in a Spurs? sweatshirt and these really great looking embroidered and faded jeans she still seemed to glide and sway when she moved.

Kira was so awesome to watch.

Emily just sort of stared at her though as Kira came right over to her and used both her hands to pull back the flannel blanket from her head like she was pulling back the hoof of a cloak or something like that and she tucked an errant strand of hair away from Emily’s face before she leaned down and kissed her.

It really, really felt so good after a long shitty day. Emily inhaled and smiled if a bit shyly and then rested her head on Kira’s amazing chest and hugged her. “Thanks, you have no idea how much I needed this right now.”

She could feel Kira kiss the top of her head. “Yeah, I kind do. I’ve sort of been through this before Em…”

(Sniffle.) “Yeah…sorry.”

“It sucked but it’s actually kind of good since I get to be here and I get to be with you.”

Emily smiled a little more and she lifted her head and looked at Kira. “You’re amazing you know that?”

“No…I’m really not.” Kira looked kind of serious and a little sad?

“What is it? What’s wrong?”

“I…I’ve been kind of keeping some stuff to myself because of stuff like this and now it’s sort of happening again and you really need to know Em before…well in case you decided to change your mind about us.”

Kira actually looked around the living room to see who was there or might be listening and Emily did too and seeing no one she took Kira’s hand and walked her to the stairs and down into her bedroom.

“You can tell me anything Kira…life’s…life’s pretty strange y’know and trust me I get strange.”

Kira nodded and she sat down on the steps and she put her knuckles to her mouth and sat there a few minutes and said while looking at the floor.

“I’m a boy.”

“You’re a boy…you don’t look it.”

“I know…I had work done remember.”

“Okay…so you have a…?”

Kira nodded.

“So why do you look like this?”

Kira still just kept her eyes on the floor. “When I was twelve I started getting this thing, its called gynocomastia and I started growing these.” She gestured at her breasts.

Emily sat on the floor and nodded as she pulled her knees up.

“They just wouldn’t go away either because in some cases they do…some people get it and it goes away and then there was the whole surgery thing and I…I just couldn’t it freaked me out and that’s when I was noticed by the modeling company.”

“Did they know?”

“No…and with stuff dropping off in the economy and I knew we were going broke because I’d heard mom and dad talking about how much money we lost when the market dropped out from under us and stuff so I told the modeling guys sure and then told mom and dad.”

“And they never knew you were a boy?”

“No…I take after mom and I wasn’t exactly looking like a guy and my face and stuff hadn’t changed and we decided to try it out.”

“So how’d Kira come about?”

“The first six months it was okay, scary but okay and instead of getting teased and even before my breasts started I was teased because I still sort of looked…girl. I was getting complimented I changed schools and other kids liked me and stuff.”

Emily nodded. “Okay and…?”

“I was enjoying being a girl so I got really kind of foolish.”

“Foolish?”

“I was going to therapy and they wouldn’t budge on me going and doing hormones and stuff so I went to Chinatown on advice from a kinda sorta friend and I bought breast cookies.”

“Breast cookies!? What the fuck are breast cookies?” Emily said shocked and actually giggling.

Kira covered her face with her hands as she turned red. “They’re these estrogen kind of cookies they have like this Asian yam stuff in them that’s supposed to make boobs get bigger.”

Emily looked at her own chest. “Got any left?”

“No!” Kira sort of faux kicked at Emily a little.

Emily snorted. “Ate a lot of them huh?”

Kira did this really cute really embarrassed whine. “Yes…and Mom’s genes caught up with me and that’s what happened here.”

“Okay but you said you had work done?”

Kira sighed and lowered her hands. “When my parents figured it out I was so grounded and my therapist took it just as bad and stopped my sessions for a while or the gender sessions and decided that I had other problems and I was seriously grounded and then…then someone found out about me from before at the school I was going to and it was out…I was a tranny and I never even knew that I was out until a bunch of people jumped me and beat me up really badly.”

Emily moved and sat up on her knees and rested her hands on Kira’s. “I’m sorry..”

Kira shrugged. “I was in the hospital and I needed reconstructive surgery because they broke stuff in my face and while SRS was totally out of the question dad paid for Facial feminization surgery and stuff.”

“But how?”

“Mostly the money I had for modeling that we saved up and stuff and some legal stuff from the assault…the police did find out who did it and stuff and there was a settlement…”

“Settlement they hospitalized you!?”

“They were charged it’s just two of them had money and dad was out for blood and mom’s brother is a pretty mean lawyer so…”

“So…?”

“So that’s sort of it…I had some things done and the modeling company didn’t renew my contract over the whole thing.”

“Assholes”

“No, no not really they didn’t fire me and stuff or try and like sue me for damaging their brand it could have gone a lot worse really Emily.”

“Still…”

“People aren’t that open in California, That Prop eight stuff was alive and well.”

Emily shook her head. “So you guys can here to get away?”

“Yeah…even after everything that happened school was a nightmare in all these shitty little ways and the money thing really was happening and we were losing things so we did have here to come to as an option and we sold stuff and we moved.”

“Here?”

Kira looked at her and she smiled. “Well I wasn’t supposed to be dating and stuff but you just happened Emily and…”

Emily sat up a little higher and kissed Kira.

It didn’t matter, it really didn’t matter…she was really debating too on letting Kira know her own little secret but…not right now…not after everything today and this.

Kira was really scared because Emily could feel her shaking as she kissed with her.

She broke the kiss and looked Kira in the eyes.

“It doesn’t matter.”

(Sniffle.) “It doesn’t?”

“Nope, not a bit you’re still the most beautiful girl in the state.”

Kira gave her this; a little teary but really amazing smile.

“You’re so amazing Em.”

Emily shyly smiled back.

“Ditto beautiful, Ditto.”