In the new story, "Survival", one of the comments reflected on Forced Fem as if it was a negative in a story. I just don't understand the reason people would see it as a negative?

Lots of us have endured Forced Masculinization at the hands of our guardians and parents. I did for sure, and the bloody bastard nearly killed me. So when "she" finally fought her way to the surface later in life, it felt like Forced Fem for a long time and that is what I wrote at first.

Sometimes FF is used for guilt relief because the writer feels guilty for persuing things that only a "pervert", as they had been taught, would persue.

In those dark days, post 9/11, my world began to crash in earnest. My own job environment had suddenly become extremely surreal, as I watched the government attack and restrict loyal Americans. I was working for a small city here in Oregon, and in my job I had lots of contact with city, county, state and federal employees. After 9/11 suddenly from the top down, everything went crazy, as if loyal Americans could suddenly become a security risk.

It was during that time, when I just hit the wall, losing my ability to handle any stress, and crying lots of the time. For the first time, I realized that my own government could be a bigger threat to me than some irrational terrorist. I felt like it was going to be the Vietnam days all over again and even worse.

To get me functional again, the Doc put me on two different types of psych meds, an anti depressant and an anti anxiety med. Now, I realize that I was just fine, it was the government that was nuts. I was not Muslim then, and in retrospect, I wish we had gone to Canada, or Australia, or New Zealand.

For me, the effect of those meds was to break down all my inhibitions and then I began to remember things from the past. Then I began to feel that a real man could take all this and I was not handling it well. In a twist of faulty logic, I began to think that if I was not a real man, then I must be a woman. Then came revelations from my brother that helped me to remember my very twisted childhood.

Would all this have happened if I had not gotten on the psych meds? Perhaps, I would have just killed myself but for the meds? I'll never know. Over the months and the next years, my female side increasingly became conscious. I began to remember that it was that very female side that caused my stepfather to nearly kill me, and later, talking to my brother, he confirmed that my step father saw me as a very effeminate boy. In those days, he probably thought I was gay. Recently, a counselor theorized that perhaps he was a latent homosexual and I caused those feelings to intensify.

So, in writing those FF stories, I was writing about what I knew. I was forced to be male by him, and later, out of guilt, when my feminine side began to come out, it felt very forced. Without interference, as a child, I would have lived as a female, and later tests would realize that I had a androgen issue.

So, that is why a lot of what I write is FF, and I am not going to apologise for it. My first exposures to being a female again felt very forced, and that is what I know.

Maybe FF and spanking will be my trademark?