I didn’t know it could be like this. A story by Symphony Simms

I didn’t know it could be like this. Chapter 6.

Stepping out.

As we stepped out onto the driveway it was like walking onto a stage and being spotlighted in front of thousands of people. The light was so bright. I had no sunglasses and for a moment I felt like there was someone in every window of every house on the street looking at me at the same time.

I felt the sudden chill of the autumn fresh air on my bare arms, chest and back. I also felt the rush of air around my legs and up my skirt to feel my exposed stocking tops, which was quite a pleasant surprise indeed.

I stuttered in my step and reached for Lauren’s forearm with my two hands. My purse fell off my shoulder and swung into Lauren’s leg, but she did not complain.

“What’s wrong?” she said as she turned and looked at me.

“So many different sensations,” I said. “It’s a little overwhelming. I don’t know if I can do this.”

“Don’t tell me that you little sissy. We haven’t got off the driveway and you’re already chickening out?” She said this like a question that she wanted me to answer.

“No,” I said not really wanting to go forwards or backwards. “Just give me a minute! And why did you call me a sissy?”

“I only said it because you seem more frightened than you should be, but,” she thought for a moment, “it is appropriate you know. That’s what they call boys who like to wear dresses.”

“So, am I a sissy?”

“Yes darling, but you are my beautiful sissy boy and I love you and promise to take care of you always.” Lauren was coaxing me to start walking across the driveway.

“Anyway we can’t just stand here we could get charged for loitering, and the way you look you could get charged for attempted prostitution.”

My jaw dropped a little as I started to walk with her. Sometimes I am amazed by what comes out of this little girl’s mouth. As I walked I began to feel my stocking tops and suspenders gently tickle the tops of my legs. Another unexpected surprise!

“That’s it. Just keep walking, try to relax a little, hold my hand and enjoy being outside in the fresh air.”

We reached the end of the driveway and turned towards the main road. As I kept walking I began to check every window or door thinking someone would shout out ‘hey there is a boy in a dress,’ but no one did.

We walked past a couple of houses before a car came down the road in front of us. Lauren recognized the man driving and waved to him, but I just glanced at him then kept on walking. There was a woman in the garden of the next house who looked up from her gardening. Lauren saw her first.

“Hi Mary,” said Lauren.

“Hi girls! Beautiful day isn’t it.” said the woman.

“See!” Lauren whispered to me. “She recognized you as a girl and so will everyone else. Now let’s cross the road but don’t step on the grass because you are wearing high heels and you will get your shoes dirty.”

We crossed the road and nothing happened. I was OK. We got to the end of the road and turned to walk down the hill. This road was a lot busier. Cars drove by people and looked from a distance but I was still unscathed. I was beginning to take things in and enjoy myself, but every now and then I thought I could feel some ones glance on my legs or chest. I looked around but could see no one.

I thought about my chest and my tits. I looked down at the little mounds poking out in front of me. They looked so heavenly and they were mine, at least they looked and felt like they were mine. I was very happy.

“You must have confidence Sophia,” said Lauren as we continued walking, my hand in hers. “If you have confidence then you can carry almost anything off. When you look at people you need to be thinking ‘I am a pretty girl. What do you think about that?’”

For a moment I thought about Forest Gump so I said out loud, “Hi Forrest. I am a purrrdy guurrl. What do you think about thayyat,” I said in my best southern drawl.

Lauren giggled and joined in. “You can have fried shrimp. Broiled shrimp. Barbie cood shrimp.”

“Run Forest Run” I shouted. We were both giggling now and trying to think of the many ways to cook shrimp. The hundred or so yards to the main street disappeared in an instant.

“Life is like a box of choc lets,” said Lauren.

“What happened to your legs Sergeant Dan,” I replied.

“I guess you two girls have watched Forrest Gump a few times.” said a woman’s voice behind us.

We turned round to see a nice dark haired lady in shorts, a tee shirt and running shoes with a water bottle in her hand. We had stopped at the traffic lights and continued giggling allowing this woman to enjoy our foolishness.

“Oh Hi,’ said Lauren still partially giggling. ‘We didn’t know anyone could hear us.”

“Oh that’s OK, you made me laugh for the first time today so I am glad I bumped into you,” said the lady looking both of us up and down.

“My, you really are pretty young things aren’t you?” The three of us smiled at each other for a moment, still recovering from the giggling. Then the lights changed the lady jogged off across the busy street.

“See I told you how pretty you are, now just follow me and enjoy your walk,” said Lauren.

We were staying on this side of the street so we walked towards the post office. I followed Lauren past the bank and into the post office where she wanted to buy a stamp and post a letter. All the people at the counter were looking the other way, or so I thought, and that made me feel safe.

I could see displays of special stamps, shelves of envelopes, advertisements for parcel deliveries and at the end of the room, post office boxes and two teenage boys looking at me. It was Carter and Warren.

“Damn it” I said and I gave Lauren’s purse a firm tug. As she turned around she saw them walking over. She leaned over and whispered to me.

“I am pretty and smile!”

“High Lauren, who is your friend,” said Warren smiling and looking straight down at me. I felt so tiny as he hovered over me. I was hoping the ground would open up and swallow me. I tried to smile.

“Hi guys, this is my cousin Sophie from up state. Say hi Sophie.”

I whispered hi to them but I don’t think any sound came out. Warren held out his hand. “Hi Sophie, I’m Warren.”

I placed my hand in his. I don’t remember him having such big hands. They were dry and warm and my hand felt comfortable in his.

“Hi Sophie my name is Carter,” said Carter holding out his hand, but Warren would not let my hand go.

Warren was starring at me with a big grin on his face, like a daytime TV star at a parade thinking to himself ‘hey look at me I am really something special.’

“And where are you ladies going today,” said Warren looking straight at me, trying to make his voice sound as deep and soft as he could.

Lauren answered knowing I was a little tongue tied. “We are just out for a walk and to post a letter.”

As I was staring into Warren’s eyes. They were dreamy. I realized mouth was wide open so I closed it.

“So whereabouts up state do you live Sophie” said Carter trying to attract my attention.

“Near San Francisco,” I said. I looked over at Carter and he was looking me straight in the eyes too, but I wanted to look back at Warren.

“Yeh, whereabouts? My brother lives near San Francisco,” said Carter.

“The north side I think,” I realized that what I said made no sense but I was trying to be a vague as possible. Warren’s touch and the way he was looking at me made me feel tingly all over.

Lauren put one of her hands on my wrist, one on Warrens and pulled our hands apart. “We have got to go now! Our parents could be looking for us.”

Then she turned away and started dragging me out of the post office, bouncing me off the big glass doors in the process. We got outside and she stopped and turned to look at me.

“What do you think you are doing,” said Lauren sounding a little annoyed with me.

“I was only holding his hand,” I said.

“You were flirting,” she said “flashing those big blue eyes at him. He’s going to follow us now you watch.”

The boys followed us out. I had no idea what I had done. I was just looking at him, wasn’t I?

“Gee, can we buy you two a Coke?” said Warren from behind us. “There is a seating area outside the convenience store.”

“We have to go home, don’t we Sophia?” Lauren said sternly.

I raised my brow, pulled my bottom lip over my top lip and looked at her while twisting my purse strap around my finger. “One coke?” I said.

“Jesus, one Coke!” she said giving her reluctant approval.

I was amazed that both our attitudes had changed in just a few second. I wanted to talk to Warren because I thought Warren was interested in me because he thought I was a girl, but Lauren had almost dragged me here and now she wanted to go home.

Warren put an arm around each of us and turned us toward the store. His big hand went around my shoulder and made me shiver in the nicest way. His uncovered forearm rubbing against the skin of my bare back as we walked.

“You must have met my friend Mitch this morning Sophie?” he stated. Oops I almost forgot about him, me, whatever.

“He was with us earlier,” said Lauren. “We did our homework together then he went home.”

“I went round to his house earlier, but he wasn’t there” he said.

“You must have just missed him,” said Lauren. Warren led us to the benches outside the convenience store and Carter went inside to get some Cokes. I sat in the middle of one of the benches, my knees together with my hands together in my lap.

I could feel my control panties and my suspenders beneath my dress and I could feel the bare part of my legs above my stockings touching the wood of the seat. It was weird and sexy at the same time.

Warren walked around me and sat next to me touching the leg of his baggy shorts against my stocking covered leg as he sat down as close to me as me could. His arm was touching mine as he put his hands on his knees.

As Lauren sat down beside me, she reached out for my hand and held it with the two of hers seemingly to distract me away from Warren.

“What grade are you in Sophie?” he asked. I turned to look at him. His head was tilted in front of mine. He had to stoop down and twist around so that he could get his head down to my level.

“Same as Lauren,” I said. “I am just a couple of months younger than her.” I lied. I was a few months older than Lauren, but I thought it best to throw him off the scent so to speak.

“Mitch and I are the same age within a couple of days,” said Warren.

Our parents used to hold joint birthday parties when we were little. He is one of my very best buddies. Him and Carter that is.

This felt strange. He was telling me about me and I couldn’t dare let him know.

Carter came out of the store with a tray carrying 4 cokes with the straws already in them.

“Mitch and Lauren are best friends too, but I think that Lauren is Mitch’s girlfriend. Is that right Lauren?”

Lauren squeezed my arm. “I think the secret is out by now,” said Lauren. “Yes he is my boyfriend and I love him very much.”

She had never admitted that fact to anyone else before, but the things that had happened in the last couple of hours may have changed her attitude. We all took our cokes in our hands and took a drink.

“Mitch is a lucky little guy to have a pretty girlfriend like you,” said Warren. “What about you Sophie? Do you have a boyfriend?”

I nearly spat me coke out all over Carter’s sandals. This was getting weird. I tried to concoct some story to make myself seem less attractive to him.

“No I don’t Warren because my folks think I am too young to have a boyfriend. They would flip if they saw me out like this. I am not allowed to wear short skirts or make up when I am at my own house.” Lauren gave me the elbow in the side and started giggling.

“What’s so funny?” said Warren.

I realized how ridiculous that must have sounded to Lauren, so I kept it going. “It’s just that I have never had attention from boys like you before Warren. Honestly when I am at home I am just a little girl. The boys at home never look at me.”

“I can’t believe that,” said Warren.

Lauren had her head buried in her hands doubled over giggling at this point. Carter was laughing with us just because Lauren was laughing. Warren had no idea what was going on and I am very glad about that.

“It’s true,” I said. “My parents won’t let me get my ears pierced and hate it when I wear nail varnish.” Lauren was now spitting out her coke.

I felt a couple of laughter tears form in my eyes but I couldn’t stop yet. ‘When my Dad gets me home he will probable put me over his knee and spank me!”

Lauren was now punching me with the back of her hand on my shin to get me to stop. That was it. I couldn’t say any more because I was laughing too much.

Warren had a serious look on his face. “Your father, doesn’t hurt you does he?” using a protective tone.”

“Sophie is joking Warren,” said Lauren almost laughing as she talked while trying not spill any more Coke.

“Sophie is just a joker and she didn’t mean any of that. I was laughing because I knew she was being silly.”

“And your Dad is not going to spank you?” Warren said to me.

“No Warren he isn’t.” I said. “None of that stuff was true and I was just making a joke for Lauren. It’s just that my Dad hates to see me kissing boys.”

Lauren blew more coke out of her mouth and this time it did go onto Carter’s sandals and she dropped some on her pretty dress. She stood up and tried to brush the Coke off her dress. Carter stood up and tried to help her brush the coke off her dress too, but she stopped him.

“I can handle it Carter thank you,” she said. ”But we will have to go home now so I can change my dress.”

“Can we walk you home?” said Warren.”

“No thank you boys,” said Lauren firmly. “We will be quite alright by ourselves and we need to spend some time on our own before we get back to the house.” Obviously she had left no room for compromise with that answer.

I looked at Warren. He had a disappointed but resigned look on his face like we had not spent enough time together. I felt the same way. As he was so close I just reached across and put my left hand on the back of his then I kissed him on the cheek.

“Bye Warren it was nice to meet you,” I said.

Then without stopping I stood up and thought about kissing Carter, but he was way too tall, so I put my arms around his waist and gave him a hug. I could hardly get my arms around him because he was so big, not fat, just big. I laid my head against his chest for a moment and I felt his hand gently touch my back, then I let go of him.

“It was nice to meet you too Carter,” I said.

“Nice to meet you too,” the boys said almost together.

“How often do you come down this way Sophie?” said Warren. “Maybe we could meet up, you know, with you, Mitch and Lauren.”

That was an intriguing notion. “It’s rare that I make it down this way Warren. But if I do I will be sure to let you know.”

The boys looked a little sad as we said our goodbyes and walked quickly away. Lauren waited till we got away from the main road and started up the hill before she said anything.

“I can’t believe you.” said Lauren. “You have been a girl for two hours and you have your best friends Warren and Carter drooling all over you. I can’t believe the way you flirted with them.”

“I wasn’t trying to do anything.”

“Guess you are just a natural flirt,” she said. “And then you kissed Warren.”

“Only on the cheek!”

“But you still kissed him.” I couldn’t believe she was so upset. “My boyfriend kissing another boy right in front of me,” she said talking through clenched teeth.

“Would you rather I do it behind you back?”

“I would rather you not do it at all.” Now she was almost screaming. “This was supposed to be a fun thing between two girls. Just between you and me!”

“But I am a boy, remember.”

“Yes I know,” she said firmly, “But I don’t want anyone else to know. You are my boyfriend and I want you all to myself. I get the feeling that if you had the chance you would have kissed him on the mouth.”

I realized that I had to fight that one. I could never admit to my girlfriend that I wanted to kiss a boy on the mouth. That would be like saying I was gay.

“I was only pretending to be a girl because I was wearing a dress,” I said, wondering if I sounded convincing. “I would never kiss a boy on the mouth. I love you. You are my girlfriend forever.”

We were almost at the house. She got her keys out and we went inside. It was then that I noticed that she was crying. We fell into each others arms and she sobbed loudly for a short while. We were opposite the mirrors of the hall closet and I still couldn’t help myself from thinking how pretty and sexy we both looked. Two pretty girls with short skirts and long legs.

Lauren saw what I was doing and turned my face back to meet hers with a hand holding my chin.

“Please Mitch remember,” that was the first time I remember her using that name all afternoon.

“I want you to be ‘my’ sissy boy in a dress, ” she put a big emphasis on ‘my,’ “and don’t you ever let me see you flirting with boys.”

“And don’t you even think about kissing one on the lips. Your lips are for me only and don’t ever forget it.”

“I won’t Lauren, I promise,” knowing that was what I had to say, but still wondering what it would be like, and thinking that some day it would happen.

“You better remember. You wouldn’t want the whole school knowing that you are a sissy would you?” I didn’t believe that she was really meaning to threaten me but the implication was there.

Things calmed down a little after that. “I really do love you,” I said smiling at her. “I would never do anything to hurt you. You know that don’t you.

“I don’t think you will ever mean to hurt me for sure, but you have never had all or the warnings that my Mom has given me.”

I was holding her by the waist now and she had her hands in front of her grasping the tissue she had used to wipe her eyes. She was twisting from side to side and looked ridiculously cute. I guess she was a natural flirt too.

“I was totally shocked by the way you just became a little girl when Warren stood over you,” she said. “I became a little frightened that I might loose you, and I don’t ever want to feel that way again.”

“I am going to clean myself up a little and do something with this dress, so you go and make us some soft drinks then make yourself comfortable,” she instructed me. “We are going to have a little girl to girl talk.”