Edeyn Hannah Blackeney, My Friend

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My friend, Edeyn Hannah Blackeney, passed away early Monday morning, Feb 4, 2013, apparently from a blood clot in her lung. She was 37.

A talented and prolific writer, Edeyn had many fans on BigCloset for her stories of the Sk8r Grrls and others, though she had not posted much recently due to work and personal life.

She and I had many things in common despite almost three decades of age difference. We enjoyed many of the same things, laughed at many of the same jokes and even complained about a lot of the same problems. Talking to Edeyn always made me smile. We last spoke about two weeks ago and she promised to call again soon but she did not get the opportunity.

Sometimes she was like a little sister or a daughter I never had. She had a daring spirit, a kind heart and a keen and talented mind. She loved to find out things, to go places and do stuff. She had a lot of sadness in her life but always seemed optimistic with plans for the future that excited and pleased her.

Goodbye, Edeyn. I will miss you.

For Edeyn's privacy, I will provide links to news stories through PM's to people who want to know about memorial services and such. Please use the PM system to ask for that information and be patient waiting for me to send it.

Here is a link to Edeyn's page on BC: http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/book/26084/edeyn-hannah-blackeney

Hugs to all,
Erin

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Holding back tears

Zoe Taylor's picture

Holding back tears is about all I can do right now. Edeyn helped me in so many ways. We laughed and cried, and talked, and over the course of just a week, she showed me so many new insights about life, not just as pertains to the gender issue (but that was a big one that she helped me to overcome).

She was an amazing writer and editor, and a wonderful friend.

I'm going to miss her so much. I love you Edeyn.

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I have no words.

Edeyn had her problems, but then so do all of us. She was always a kick to talk with. She will be missed.

My heart goes out to her friends, family, and to you, Erin.

R.I.P. Edeyn.

Catherine Linda Michel

As a T-woman, I do have a Y chromosome... it's just in cursive, pink script. Y_0.jpg

I am so Sorry

Erin she was yours and obviously a deep friend who will be missed. When I saw the topic of your blog I gasped O No not another one. There is nothing like the death of an other soul to remind you of your own humanity. She was a gifted writer and from the tone of the postings a grand person to know.

I am so very sorry for the loss.

Michele Whitewolf

With those with open eyes the world reads like a book

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No better tribute from me...

Andrea Lena's picture

...but her own words; soulful and alive and warm and gentle and fun all together and then some.

Trumpet. Soulful and Jazzy. Like a Japanese Louis Armstrong -- or even Dizzy Gillespie, but without the bent horn and puffy cheeks. I lose myself in the music every time, just paying enough attention to Pike, Ramona, Beth, and Roger to get the changeovers.

I needed it that night. I hoped they realize it. Gawd. I don't think I'd ever needed it like that. I hoped they pick up on that. After the day I had had, I needed that more than anything. Pike nodded to Ramona, who tapped the other two on the shoulders and they stepped back, Roger putting down his sticks. I glanced over and Ramona nodded to me.

I tore loose. Ohhh yeah. Better than any drug I've ever heard tell of. I ran the gamut. From standard basic jazz riffs to some of the most bluesy horn you'll hear outside of the French Quarter. Song, after song, after song, after... song. Eventually, some of the partygoers noticed that there was only one playing and I ignored them. My eyes closed, lost in the music. They stopped to listen, but I didn't care. They could've started booing me right then, and I'd've gone on.

Finally spent, I opened my eyes and looked up as I played one last long, bent and bluesy note, echoing away in the silent glass house. Everyone standing and staring at me.

I played it cool. I nodded and stepped back as the other four picked up on another standard. I flopped into my chair on the little stage and pulled out my cloth. I started rubbing down the horn as my bandmates picked up where I left off. There was a murmur and a smattering of applause as I stopped, but they just kind of melted back into their dancing.

After a bit, I stood back up and I played along with the band. I felt a bit better, but still not great. Music soothes the soul... it can't mend it.

From 'Even Transgirls Get the Blues' http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/book/26091/even-transgirls-get...

I'm in tears...

  

To be alive is to be vulnerable. Madeleine L'Engle
Love, Andrea Lena

I am truly saddened to hear

I am truly saddened to hear this. I was just thinking about her the other day, and to hear that she is gone...I only got to talk to her a little bit, but every time I did it was wonderful. She and I had some similar issues and I found her way of looking at things refreshing. I'll miss you Edeyn.

Samirah M. Johnstone

We only talked a handful of times sadly:)

I found her to be a brilliant lady and one that kept getting up after so many knock downs. She left a lot for us to look up to, hopefully we can.
*Lighting a candle*

Bailey Summers

Good bye Sk8r Grrl

I remember when she first began posting her wonderful Sk8r Grrls story and of how it reached out to so many. Later I talked and chatted with her and learned just how tough of a life she'd led. Despite all of that somehow she always looked forward. Others have spoken of this and it's true.

I'm going to miss her. More I know I'll never be able to look at skate board without thinking of her.

Fare thee well hon.
Big hugs
Grover

Oh No! Not Again

littlerocksilver's picture

I met Edeyn a little more than a year ago just before she left Arkansas for the eastern US. We had an enjoyable afternoon talking about all the wonderful people residing at BCTS. I am so sorry that that was the last time I would see her. I thought things were going well; then this. What a tragedy.

Portia

So Sad

jengrl's picture

I was so sad to hear this. She will be missed by all of us here. We have been having to say goodbye to a lot of cherished members. Life is short and I know that she felt fortunate to live her life on her own terms. We just never know when our time is up in this life. R.I.P Edeyn, You were a great author and a wonderful friend, Thank you for all the advice you gave me.

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RIP

Rest in Peace. Sad news for us. Will miss her stories. Way too young!

Rami

RAMI

That Hurts

All deaths are sad in a way but to lose someone so young just plain hurts . I lost a Sister at age 42 I know the pain her family is going thru may her soul be at peace. The story "Waking in Heaven' needs to be reposted yet another one BOB aka Jennifer to meet and welcome.
SO SAD

Pain, sorrow of love and

Pain, sorrow of love and lives lost,
to you who pass we offer our strength.
To us who stay we offer our compassion.
Lives burn bright with a light to hard to see
gone to their maker whom ever it may be.
Do not weep, do not tear,
be glad to know that they were here.
Hold on to times of fun joy and glee.
Hold on to your precious memories.
Be brave and step forward though your grief,
here is my hand,hold it, gather strength from it.
may your life be filled with love and joy.
Be bold and pass through your sorrow.
we are all there waiting,watching, loving,
with tear filled eyes knowing life moves on.
still its hard not to pause as lives lost is not fair
to know that they are no longer there.

Tho I cant write, in the memory of Edeyn Hanna Blackeney tho I never had the chance to meet her
this world is poorer that's shes passed on with my deepest condolences Erin

rues

Edeyn

laika's picture

Edeyn was one of the first friends I made here. She was intense, in a mostly good way.
Smart and funny and honest. Supportive even when she had her own shit going on.
I hadn't heard from her in a while but she PM'd me not even a week ago
saying she was writing another Chau story and wanted me to look at it.
How weird. How sad. I won't speak of there being reasons for the
things that happen because I don't really know.
But I know I'll miss her.

Here's a poem Edeyn posted here in 2007 that I always loved.
It's called CAGED YAY and all copyrights etc. are hers:
.

In life you gotta learn to do what you can
Grow up, move on, figure out yourself a plan
Things you gotta keep strongly in your own mind
Pick your path and make way through the daily grind
Remember the heroes you had as a kid
Make time to do all the things you never did
Regrets of pasts will seal your mental prison
Bitterness slows down, fills you with derision

Never let the happy thoughts simply fade away
Never build a self-made cage around your "Yay!"

Life means you gotta fight to win your passage
Don't whine, don't stop, and throw off all your baggage
Follow whatever makes your heart find focus
See life beyond the glare and hocus pocus
Become the stuff of Legendary stories
Don't spend all your time with things that make worries
Unmade memories simply stand there waiting
When you finish up it's your flight they're taking

Never let the happy thoughts simply fade away
Never build a self-made cage around your "Yay!"

.
"Government will only recognize 2 genders, male + female,
as assigned at birth-" (In his own words:)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C1lugbpMKDU

This was Edeyn

erin's picture

Thank you, Laika.

Hugs,
Erin

= Give everyone the benefit of the doubt because certainty is a fragile thing that can be shattered by one overlooked fact.

Very sad news

It's always a shame when someone so young passes. I met Edeyn several years ago when she visisted San Francisco and shared coffee with her and her close friend from down under. She was fun and very smart and a kick to meet and talk to. She will be missed, Arecee

R.I.P.

So young... :(

I really never knew her all that well and I'm not aware of having read many of her stories... But I know she will be missed by many.

Abigail Drew.

Ugh...

Yet another of the great people here lost to human frailties. I saw this post, and feared clicking on it, to see exactly what I feared.

Be well Edeyn. May you find the peace you seek wherever you may be.

Floored

The first word that comes to my mind when I think of Edeyn is kind. She once called me on the telephone and I still remember the sound of her voice and her laugh. She was funny, kind, and caring -- and brave. She stepped up when other people needed help, sometimes in quite awful situations.

She is one of the people who made BCTS a real home and community.

There is a little strange artifact that she organized: Pen Pals. She contacted seven of us and proposed that we collaborate on a story told through emails. I forget why it stopped, but we didn't get to the point of the exercise, which was (if I remember correctly... it was five years ago) that some of our characters were transgendered. There was more to it than that... I'll have to dig up the old emails, but it was a clever Edeyn-y thing that only she would think of and have the energy to shepherd through. There were only 16 pieces posted, but probably three times the volume of that in emails, where we worked out the characters, their back stories, plot strategies and so on.

In any case, the point is that she was creative, she was involved, and I hate the word, but she was a people person, and if you were one of the people she knew, you were very lucky indeed.

(written with a few tears),

Kaleigh

Oh, no...

I'm so sorry to hear about her passing. I enjoyed her writing. My thoughts and prayers are with her family and friends.

I enjoyed the sk8er girl

I enjoyed the sk8er girl stories and wished there were more. They were brilliant and though I never really got to know her, she seemed to be a class act and her passing makes me really realize the chance I got surviving my recent heart attack, and slight return to the hospital, last month, I am doing better and went back to work and Edeyn, you will be missed but thankfully your stories will go on, encouraging others to go on. May you rest in peace gentle sister.

Hard to hear.

The two of us were relatively close for quite some time. I knew she had her health problems, but I'd thought she was doing better.

Then again, last time she contacted me in real life was over a year ago, so I guess I was quite out of the loop.

Melanie E.

Hi Melanie

It's Lisa, PM me please. I'll give you my details so we can email, phone, chat etc. Edeyn and I thought of you often, always intending to contact you. You were so very kind and generous to her for so long, and I also. I thank you. I am just so lost without her. My world has come to an end. We just celebrated our 4 year anniversary in Dec. It was so sudden. I find I am still anticipating her call any minute. Hugs, Edeyn's Lisacub

I believe in my childhood dreams...

I'm sad.

I did not know her that well. We communicated a bit on Facebook, but that's about it. But in reading her posts I felt she was a gentle soul. I am sorry for her passing and wish I had gotten to know her better. Jenn.


I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair

Ugh

Things arise, then they are, then they're gone.

It's true for everything, even people.

And it sucks.

At least it does when you focus on the last part. But then, what a miraculous universe it is that we arise and are, and how incredibly lucky we are that we get to share this life with each other, regardless of how difficult it can seem. It's easy to lose sight of this when we grieve.

It's awful that Edeyn is gone, but how wonderful it was to share life, in whatever measure we did, while she was here. And how lucky we are that she left so much for us to read so we can always remember that.

Sad news

She will be missed. My heart goes out to all those who loved her.

This is so sad.

Angharad's picture

Age 37 is far too young to die, goodness that's only three years older than my daughter. I shall miss her direct approach, which I know rattled a few cages, yet she was constructive in her comments on my postings for which I was grateful.

I know we shared a non-belief in things supernatural, so I hope any memorial will be non-religious. We talked a few times on skype, and had several good laughs usually about the stupidity of politicians and governments.

I shall miss her and I am glad to have known her, a true free spirit. I offer my condolences to her family and friends.

Angharad

Aw shit,

Damn, heck. OK, I'm crying and I don't do that much. I never got to know her, I suck at getting to know people. I had her as a facebook friend and I told her she was pretty. It appeared in her FB pics that she had a partner. Someone nice just up and dies and I'm still here getting more and more useless. My GD body will probably outlive my mind.

Hugs and Bright Blessings,
Renee

very raw

A very raw taste is left in my mouth.
I am Edeyns' beloved, just as she is mine. AND I thank you for your kind words.

I've thrown away the measuring stick, none is needed, for no one person will ever come within an inch of what Edeyn had to offer me or the world. AND no pain can compare with the loss I feel nor the love that resides within me.
Sure she is, sorry, was... as messed up as any one of us can be... But grrl! Did she love me. AND GRRL! Did I - L O V E - HER, as any that knew us will testify.

No light, not even the faintest ray of hope, can ever bring her back to me physically. I know.
BUT... I know what we had was real & what I have now is just as real. Real, real L O V E forever & ever will be.

For those that care to... Here is a link (if this works/is allowed on here, I can not remember right now - sorry Joyce if I have breached any protocol) The link is to my facebook page. https://www.facebook.com/aimee.saab (aimee.saab is not my real name just so you know. Those of you from BCTS that already know Edeyn & I -but only a few of you- will already know this. Although, you shall also note I have altered my fb profile to reflect my real name now).

If/when you request a friendship, please ensure you tell me why I should! ie What it is/was about the lovely Edeyn that you most adored???

I wish to hear all the stories you may have about my dearly missed one. MY DREAMGIRL. And I shall be most happy to tell you all about us & the love we found, shared & prepared to give to/for one another eternally. Just how this love... spilled & filtered through/out into the universe.

*hugs* Edeyns' LisaCub

I believe in my childhood dreams...

Thank you, Lisa

erin's picture

Hugs,
Joyce

= Give everyone the benefit of the doubt because certainty is a fragile thing that can be shattered by one overlooked fact.

Oh, dear, that is such sad

Oh, dear, that is such sad news. She was such a fine and talented person.

Kris

{I leave a trail of Kudos as I browse the site. Be careful where you step!}

This is very sad.

I just learnt the news while reading a comment on another blog. I went to the main page, scrolled down, and saw Edeyn's name on the memorial. It was a shock. It just goes to show how precarious life is, 37 seems far too young.

I really loved her stories. She was an excellent writer. I remember she unpublished Sk8r Grrls to fix up and re-publish. She never got around to it and now I suppose she never will. It was one of my favourite series on this site. So well written.

I'm sure she'll be missed here. I never knew her personally (minus one brief, friendly, interaction a few years ago), but I can see how great an impact she has made on others. She seemed like a really good woman. Her writing certainly made an impact on me. I wish everyone all the best in dealing with her untimely demise. I know how hard it is.

Edeyn dead?

And I´ve managed to miss whole thing for fourteen days. T_T She really was one of best authors I´ve ever read. Sk8tr Girls and Dear Diary, and he work around BigCloset. It´s very bad news. And I´ve always hope she will sometimes finish her wonderful stories.
I am sad I didn´t know her better, I wish I had the opportunity. I will you miss you Edeyn Hannah Blackeney, even if you didn´t know me, and I did know you only from your stories. And still, tears are streaming from my eyes, I´ll really miss you.
Farewell and see you in that other place, sometime.
Robin

No

Can't we just say no and make it go back? Too much seems taken away from her. Taken away in her being gone.

Her stories make her one of the T authors I very most wanted to meet. Such a clever, sweet, and loving mind. And spirit. Now forever young.

Only seeing your notice now, a month later, it is too late to attend any memorial services. Turn back the calendar, and I will be there to gently and lovingly memorialize the good person I have too briefly glimpsed. If we could only turn back the calendar... Grief is here now.

Albert Einstein brings solace. He understands spacetime probably better than anyone and he pointed out when a good friend of his died, who was also a theoretical physicist, that they both understand "that time is but a stubborn illusion" that only makes it seem as if they are separated. He explained it in a letter to the friend's widow.

We only seem to be separated by time from Edeyn: it is a stubborn (and cruel) illusion. She, just like all of us, have always been and will always be. This can be a great solace.

Annie

Bye, bye Edeyn

No, this is not a sick joke, I really didn't know until about five minutes ago.

I am shocked, deeply upset and wished I had paid more attention.

However, as late as I am in finding out about this tragedy, I would still like to offer my sincerest condolences to all her family and friends.

I'm truly sorry we have lost her.

Hugs

N