By Andrea Ribeiro Many thanks to Stanman63 for editing.! Previously:Something strange? Whats she talking about? What’s wrong with me? I start to hyperventilate and pass out. |
“Joan, wake up honey,” I hear a voice say.
I just lay there.
“Joanie, wake up,” There it is again.
I open my eyes and look confusedly at Mom who's holding me very gently.
“W..what happened?”
“You passed out, Sweety.”
“Oh...” I look down and blush.
“Don’t worry, Sweety, you had a very exciting day and you should be resting,” Mother says.
“C..can I have some water? I’m thristy.”
“Sure, Sweety,” says my mom as she gives me a glass of water.
I sip the water and look around. “Where is the doctor?” I ask
“She will be right back, Pumpkin.” My father says.
“I.. I need to use the bathroom.”
“Let me help you up, Sweety.” says my mom, giving me her arm to me.
“Thank you, Mom.”
Mother leads me to the bathroom, stops at the door and says, “If you need any help I’ll be right outside the door, OK?”
“Mother!!! I’m not a baby.” I exclaim. “But thank you for offering.”
I close the bathroom door and walk to the toilet, I sit down and relieve myself like I always did. Peeing standing up always felt wrong. I wipe myself and then I notice something strange.
What is happening? Is it smaller? It looks smaller. How is it possible? Maybe its just my imagination. That’s it. It has to be my imagination.
I then go to the sink and wash up my hands and face. After drying, I look at the mirror and jump a little. Is that me? I look a bit different. Do I? It’s probably my imagination again. It has to be or someone would have said something, right?
I hear a knock on the door, “Sweety, is everything OK in there?” my mother asks.
“Yes, Mom. I was just finishing.”
I go out of the bathroom and lay down, look around I notice something.
“Mom?”
“Yes, Sweety?”
“Where is Jenny?”
“She went home for a bit honey. I ordered her to. She was a mess. When she heard what happened she and her friend Mindy came right away. She stayed by your side for a long time, crying and running her fingers through your hair, just like you liked when you were little.”
“Does she know I’m awake?”
“I called her when you were in the bathroom. She is on her way here.”
“OK.”
“Hello again Joan,” I hear the doctor’s voice say.
“Hi again Doctor.”
“Feeling better now?”
“Much better, thank you.”
“You passed out before I could tell you the test results.”
“Oh... I forgot all about it,” I start to get worried again, specially after going to the bathroom.
“Don’t worry, I suspect you might find what I have to say to be good news, actually.”
“Really?”
“I promise you.”
“OK. I’m ready, Doc.”
“As I was saying before, we noticed something strange yesterday and did a few blood tests and a physical exam. Physically, what we noticed is that at a first glance your testicles haven’t dropped yet, and your penis seems to be very underdeveloped. During the physical exam things looked a bit stranger as we couldn’t find the gonads.”
“Gonads?” I ask her
“I think they are better known as the balls.” she tells me and I blush.
“Also there is the blood work, the hormone levels are not compatible with a 15 years old boy. The testosterone levels are way too low and the estrogen levels a bit high, just like a girl just entering puberty.
“WHAT?” me, my mom and dad ask at the same time.
“It’s pretty rare, but we suspect you might be intersexed to a certain degree. How much is what we plan on answering with the ultrasound we scheduled for this afternoon and the result of the DNA test tomorrow.”
“You mean that I might be really a girl?” I ask her with a big smile on my face
“I wouldn’t say that just yet, but so far the tests seems to indicate that.”
“Mommy... is it real? Tell me this isn’t a dream. Pinch my arm.”
“I don’t think its a dream, Sweety. And no, I won’t do it” she tells me.
“OK, you meanie,” I pout and decide to pinch my arm myself.
“OUCH!! That hurts.” And my parents started to laugh.
“Mommy, Daddy, I think I’ll take a nap now. I’m a little tired. As soon Jenny gets here I want you both to go home and have a looooong bath. You guys are stinking.”
Mom look at me with a goldfish impression and Dad just raise his left arm and snif his armpit. That gives me the giggle fits again.
“OK, you little brat, I can see you point.” my dad says. “But we will be back right after we have a shower and change our clothes.”
“OK. Daddy, Mommy, I love you.”
“We love you too, Pumpkin.” they say at the same time.
After they leave the room I close my eyes and then suddenly I remember the strange dream I had. Was it really a dream? What did she mean about a gift? Who is she?
To Be Continued...
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ALISON
' is the " feel good " story of the month .Excellent !!
ALISON
I was once very suicidal.
I knew if my stepfather did not stop he would kill me. I had to try to survive. Many years later it all came spilling out and I was a real mess for a couple years. I'm much better now, finally quit standing on bridge rails and walking around in the middle of freeways.
For a few minutes this story put me in a really bad spot, but it passed.
Believe me, I and many others here understand all this. It is not the first time we heard it, and some here had a much worse experience than I had.
Gwen
Joan - Chapter 4
Good news indeed for Joan.
May Your Light Forever Shine
May Your Light Forever Shine