I slowly open my eyes and look around me, I’m in the middle of a flower field, on a small grassy mound with a big apple tree in the middle, the skies are blue with a few white clouds, the sun gently warms my face and body.

Confused, I get up and the first thing I notice is a strange weight on my chest, looking down I notice that I have breasts and before I explore further I notice that I’m wearing a blue floral sun dress, the same one my father....

OH MY GOD!!!! I’m I dead? Is this heaven? I ask myself as I start to remember what happened and start to cry.

“No dear, you are not dead” a melodious voice startles me, making me jump a bit.

“Sorry, I didn’t mean to scare you, child.”

I look around and look at her, and what I see is the most beautiful woman I ever met. Her wavy golden colored hair reflects the sun light, giving it a gentle glow, as if the hair itself is made of sun light. Her eyes are as blue as the skies above, her flawless white skin has a gentle touch of a tan. She has a small slightly upturned nose and full lips. She is tall, at least taller than me, I think about 5’9” or 5’10” and she is wearing a gold color sundress that glows the same way as her hair. Her body is perfectly proportioned.

“Wh... who are you?”

“Who am I it’s not important right now Joan. I am here because you needed me.”

“How.. how do you know my name?”

“Does it really matter? Just accept that I know for now, answers will come in time, my child.”

“I guess I don’t really have a choice, do I?”

“We all have a choice, but sometimes is easier to accept things as they are.”

“Why are we here? Is this heaven?”

“No child, this is not heaven, as I said before you are not dead, and we are here because you came here.”

“Why are you here?”

“I'm here because you needed me, and to answer some of your questions.”

“So if this is not heaven and I'm not dead... Is this a dream?”

“In a way you could call it that, but it's not exactly a dream although it is somewhat related to the dreamworld.”

“So what is this place?”

“This is your haven, your refuge, your world. This is your spiritual landscape, you created this place, and quite beautifully I might add.”

“Th..thank you I guess.”

“You are welcome.” she answers with a smile that is capable of melting the coldest of hearts.

“So... if I'm not dead does it means I'll have to leave this place?”

“Yes child, you need to go back. Your family is worried about you, they are suffering.”

“But what if I don't want to go back? What if I want to stay here? All that awaits for me there is pain and I can't deal with it anymore.” I say and start to cry.

She then comes to me and embraces me in a tight hug and says. “You have to go back child. If you stay you will die and this place will die too. I promise you things will get better for you.”

“Y..you promise?” I ask her between sobs.

“Yes my child, I promise.”

“Will I ever see you or this place again?”

“Yes child you will see me again and this place is part of you. In time you’ll be able to come whenever you need.”

“How will I know how to come back?”

“When the time is right you will know how.”

“O..ok. So what do I do to go back?”

“I will send you back as you don’t know how to yet, but first I have a small gift for you that will help you.”

She then gives me another hug and kiss me gently on my forehead, sending a warm tingling all over my body right before the world goes white....