I've never felt like I belong in this world, but I've never found one I do belong to .. I walk around in this world, lost...wandering in a world I didn't come from...living a life I didn't want...who am I? Where is my home? Where are my people hiding?....did the people of this world kill them? Am I the last or the first of my kind? Or....are there more out there like me....wandering, lost and confused wondering where I am?
I long to gently caress your face,
to look into your eyes and lose myself,
I long for our arms wrapped around each other in our embrace,
for you to be snug and warm with ourselves,
My heart is like a flower,
Each heart break causes a petal to fade.
Every girl I love that can’t return the love,
That’s a heart break another petal fades.
I look into your eyes and I see you’re the one.
My heart and my soul are in your tender care.
I entrust and dedicate my life to your loving soul.
You are my everything… my world, my passion, my reason.
If you believe in yourself then you will have confidence,
If you have confidence then you can do anything.
If you believe in yourself then you will be strong,
If you are strong then you can beat anything.
If you believe in yourself then you are beautiful,
If you are beautiful then you can achieve.
If you believe you are all of this then people will believe in you,
If people believe in you then you can become anything.
Believe in yourself as god and I believe in you!
Care for you all the time,
Comfort you when you are down,
There for you when you need,
Talk to you when you upset,
And they hug you when your around.
But most important of all,
They are the ones nearest and dearest to your heart.
I was taught family doesn't matter,
I always thought family was a burden.
I was taught that parents will favor one child over another,
I always thought I wasn’t relevant.
I was taught that life wasn’t important,
I always thought my life wasn’t important.
I was taught … wrong,
I have learned that I am important, relevant and family is not a burden.
I long to live, I want to die.
I long to die, I am still alive.
I long to live, why can’t I die?
I long to die, I always survive.
I long to live, whats wrong with suicide?
I long to die, I cannot end my life.
I long to live! I must survive!
A good mommy is one that is there for you,
through thick and thin.
A good mommy has a kind soul and a good heart,
but she will protect you from all evil.
A good mommy is firm and subtle,
yet loving and caring.
A good mommy will understand you no matter what,
You are all that and more.
I have a curse.
How do I heal my brokenheart?
I can love yet I can not be loved.
I search for it the world over,
Yet it can not find me I am unloved!
My heart breaks with every step!
When I think I found it my heart breaks again.
I scream out in pain while noone can hear my agony.
When I am on the threshold of giving up,
You appear before me out of the blue,
I made you cry and you made me feel loved.
The curse is broken! I thank you as I weep tears of joy.
What is it like to go around loving everyone you meet?
You know what its like to feel love for others,
But you never feel like someone loves you back.
Its soul wrenching to watch yourself,
Greet person after person who can not understand.
You can not stop tho because you have to find the one.
Everyday I cry, about this and about that
Everyday I cry, sometimes I wish I had a bat
Everyday I cry, I can't stop any more
Everyday I cry, why is my throat so sore
I long for your soft touch on my face, your caress across my abdomen
I long to curl up next to you, to feel you hold me
I long for your arms wrapped around me in an embrace, to feel your lips on mine
my soul longs for you, for us to be together
When I was being used and abused, you were there to help
When I was lonely, you were there to keep me company
When I needed a laugh, you were there to tell me a joke
When I needed to cry, you were there with a shoulder to lend
When I was feeling depressed, you were there to cheer me up
When I needed a hug, you were there with your arms open wide
When I was suicidal, you were there to keep me alive
And while I’m all of this, you are always there
don't lie and say you will love me forever, forever lost
dont lie and say we will be together forever, forever gone
forever doesnt last, forever and ever
what happened to the promises? forever...
Life sucks every day I wake up and get out of bed
Life sucks every time I pick up my meds
Life sucks all the time because of the pain
Life sucks I wish I could stop the Rain
Life sucks I want to get hit by a big truck
Life sucks I wish I had some bucks
Life sucks just because it can
Life sucks when you got to be a man
Life suck that’s all
So go on living your life and have a ball
I am 39 yrs old, single and proud parent of 2 boys (12 and 16yrs old) One lives with his grandmothers, and the other as adopted into a new family after being taken from his mother.
Checks can be made out & sent to:
Joyce Melton
1001 Third St.
Space 80
Calimesa, CA 92320
USA
Note: $6000 is the operating, maintenance and upgrade budget. Amounts received in excess of the $6000 will be applied to long term debt accrued over the last 19 years.
