I've never felt like I belong in this world, but I've never found one I do belong to .. I walk around in this world, lost...wandering in a world I didn't come from...living a life I didn't want...who am I? Where is my home? Where are my people hiding?....did the people of this world kill them? Am I the last or the first of my kind? Or....are there more out there like me....wandering, lost and confused wondering where I am?

I never thought that my life could have improved,
You came into my life all the sadness has been removed.

My deepest desire is to take it all back,
make it so none of this ever happened.

If you believe in yourself then you will have confidence,
If you have confidence then you can do anything.
If you believe in yourself then you will be strong,
If you are strong then you can beat anything.
If you believe in yourself then you are beautiful,
If you are beautiful then you can achieve.
If you believe you are all of this then people will believe in you,
If people believe in you then you can become anything.
Believe in yourself as god and I believe in you!

I was taught family doesn't matter,
I always thought family was a burden.
I was taught that parents will favor one child over another,
I always thought I wasn’t relevant.
I was taught that life wasn’t important,
I always thought my life wasn’t important.
I was taught … wrong,
I have learned that I am important, relevant and family is not a burden.

A good mommy is one that is there for you,
through thick and thin.
A good mommy has a kind soul and a good heart,
but she will protect you from all evil.
A good mommy is firm and subtle,
yet loving and caring.
A good mommy will understand you no matter what,
You are all that and more.

What is it like to go around loving everyone you meet?
You know what its like to feel love for others,
But you never feel like someone loves you back.
Its soul wrenching to watch yourself,
Greet person after person who can not understand.
You can not stop tho because you have to find the one.

I long for your soft touch on my face, your caress across my abdomen
I long to curl up next to you, to feel you hold me
I long for your arms wrapped around me in an embrace, to feel your lips on mine
my soul longs for you, for us to be together

don't lie and say you will love me forever, forever lost
dont lie and say we will be together forever, forever gone
forever doesnt last, forever and ever
what happened to the promises? forever...

I am 39 yrs old, single and proud parent of 2 boys (12 and 16yrs old) One lives with his grandmothers, and the other as adopted into a new family after being taken from his mother.