My grandfather taught me a valuable lesson when I was a kid this is back when black and white TVs sere common and cable didn't exist. I was running in the house and papo said don't run in the house me being a kid did not listen as all kids don't. He caught me again and said don't run in the house, I kept going. A third time he said don't run in the house. The fourth time I ran by him he stuck out his cane and tripped me I fell down and he said you see what happens when you run in the house.

Work thing this week. Alright last week was super crappy. This week is ok. My idiot store manager is going out of his way to talk about neutral topics with me like his football team (Cowboys suck) isn't doing well, and insists on shaking my hand when he comes in. The harassment issue might be resolving itself, the grapevine says my manager is shopping me to a new store that I had put in for a transfer too some months ago. That would kinda solve all the problems I would move districts and have no interaction with anyone involved in the issue.

Ok, folks I need your help and opinions on something that happened at work. I need to know if I am being overly sensitive because of my gender issues or do I have a valid complaint. I'm going to number these so you can follow the course of events.

1. On Monday our store tech room was getting audited so repair supervisor was at the store but not in tech room when this happened. My fellow tech was out of the room but my store manager was sitting in the room. While repairing a phone the volume button flew out of the phone bounced off my chest and ricocheted under my desk.

Ok I blogged about my job situation and the challenges I have faced there last week. Things just keep going downhill and my employer does seem to want to get rid of all the old hands. They are unaware of my looking for something else and I plan to keep it that way. I am turning to the BCTS family for help. Here is my problem I need a resume but am not sure how to write it seeing as the only job I have had in the last ten years is this one. References are no problem I have those in spades in my company and out of it. Does anyone have a template or know of one.

Ok folks the new Fruit Phone comes out tomorrow which means bell to bell days for us retail monkeys. So on behalf of all retail electronic employees everywhere, please be patient. I cant imagine any of you wonderful people here at BCTS being that person in line. If you know someone who is tell them we want you to have your new device as soon as possible. Initial releases never meet demand. You will get your new fangled uPhone in due time. Thank you we now return you to regularly scheduled Big Closet.

I know employment is a precious thing and I am lucky to even have a job in these trying times (not going in to politics here). In the last six months my employer seems to be doing their best to get rid of me.

So I went in to see my GP for some allergy relief (yes your teenaged son is allergic to grass not just a type of grass, all grass.) and he said he needed to get an update on all my particulars. Break here for background info.

Most Hispanic males are short. I on the other hand tipped the chart at 5’10” upper scale of height for my ethnic group. Hello all you shorties down there. That was the height on my license at sixteen that was the height I had always been right, right. Back to the doctors office.

This post is about the closest friend I have in the world FO. I have known him for about seventeen years; we have been through a lot together and always stuck with each other. No one in my life knows about me but last night that changed. I don’t have to tell you folks that depression is a mighty powerful thing, the only outlet I have in my life to be me is this wonderful site and the friends I have made here. I had been getting less and less sleep because of nightmares and depression along with the day(ugh)job being a bitch. I have been debating telling FO for awhile.

Ok. After last nights nightmare I'm taking pills to try to sleep through the night. I hope to see you folks in the morning after a full nights rest. Twelve hour day tomorrow at the day(ugh)job.

No one in my life knows about my inside/outside issues, so I guess I'm in hiding. This causes me a lot of anxiety and I tend to overcompensate my male persona. So it really gets me in a big blue funk and I feel even worse when my very narcissistic family members call me to bitch about each other. I am not the one that can fix it all I'm barely holding myself together. I do feel I am treated differently than my sisters I am the only one who still actually has a job, I am adopted, I don't have any children, and I am the oldest.

Test test. Is this mic on? Test test. I am going to try to put some thoughts down here eventually, try to clear my head. For now adieu.