... think of committing suicide?

And I am not just saying 'thinking about it on a whim' but really constructively planing it, date, time method, suicide note...

Or am I alone at the moment in planning to do this. I am sure some of you have read a bit about me, that I have shared in messages and comments, but very few, no let us make that no one knows that I truly am at the end of my rope, or should I say path.
And to be honest it does not really matter.