I’ve been on BCTS for just over 8 years now. I’ve been here through the struggles, I’ve seen a lot. I’ve met a lot of people in this community and tried my hand at writing and never really got the feel for it.

This post is one I really didn’t want to ever have to make. But as I sit here typing this up at past 1 am this morning, reminiscing about all the things I tried to do and failed. I’ve made friends and I have my enemies. Newer people probably don’t even know who I am and that’s ok with me. Im from a different era of the site.

I tend to ramble on when I’m not sure what to say or do in a given situation. But here my message is clear. I’m not in good health. I’ll never be the same person I used to be. I’m younger and trying to turn over a new leaf so to speak.

I was diagnosed with Cancer just before my birthday last December and it is quite painful. The doctors all said that no matter if the cancer went into remission or not I would not be the same. I’m not asking for sympathy or any support or anything.

I’ve felt a sort of disconnect from reality since the events of 2020. There are things I have documented and things I haven’t. Truth be told some things are better left unsaid.

My point with this post is not to spotlight myself or anything. I’m just pointing out what has been happening with me lately.

In my spare time I’ve been doing a lot of reading. If anyone needs a beta reader or anything, PM me on here and I’ll give you my email.
I’m shifting my focus from doing the writing myself to helping people out.