Tony had a wild night at Lads’ Night and by the end he didn’t want it to finish. So much so that Tony, when invited, slept at Jess’s place as Toni. Now it’s a new day, and the only clothes Tony has is a fancy date night dress and killer heels. How the hell is Tony going to get home? Maybe, just for now, it has to be Toni going home...
That’s up to Tony, though. But does this newfound fun really have to end? Can Toni continue, at least in the privacy of Tony’s home; at least once he gets there? Whatever happens Tony seems to have found two new friends in Jess and Sally, the problem is they don’t know Tony. Sure, Jess and Sally know he technically exists, but Toni is their friend. And what happens when they want to see her again? These are questions for another day, though, right?
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The Toni With An I story is improved in many ways. All the parts I have ready for an imminent release will be released on that site in the coming weeks, then as an ePub. All of the story remains free on that site, my personal site, and the plans are for the ePub to be available for free, too. Later parts not yet edited for a soon-to-come release will remain on BCTS. You can get two goes at Toni, the early version and the later version.
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Comments
And now for something completely different!
That chapter went in some fascinating directions I absolutely didn’t expect. The dialogue sparkled and the characters popped! Nicely done, Ms. W!
Emma
"Nearly instant transition"?
Didn't know that was possible, but not going to say no. This chapter was very interesting and entertaining. Great characters and dialogue. Sally's going to be a wreck in the morning/afternoon when she comes to.
That was your first giggle.
I cant remember ever not giggling.
Good development
The first chapter was fairly explicit but I didn't mind it as all was consensual. Definitely a fantasy because nothing happens that quickly and as comprehensively in real life although the moment that it all falls into place and you realise that you are trans can be quite sudden. The second chapter develops the characters exceptionally well although If I drank a third of what Toni drinks at Light Avenue I would need my stomach pumped and would be incapable of speech.
But its a story and fiction and all things are possible. It is nice to spend time in a fantasy world filled with allies and instant friends and gorgeous outfits. Let's not let the constraints of reality spoil the feel good effect. On to chapter three soon please.
The fantasy
Thanks for the comment! (And everyone else, I've been reading and re-reading them.) And you are absolutely correct, this is very much fantasy, at least at the moment. I don't think it's some super out there wild and crazy fantasy though (leaving aside how Toni had basically shut off a part of herself without realising.) My basic approach as I'm writing now is simply thinking, "What if people were good and kind, but still real people?" and putting it into a story. I think that's the hope anyone who's been through struggles or is a little bit older has for a younger generation.
It's very easy to think the world is collapsing, and mean and cruel, often for good reason, while at the same time hoping those younger than us will succeed at making the changes we couldn't. This isn't a story with teenagers and teenage problems, these are adults, out of university, a few years into work. In many ways they're who the world is for. Or at least the world of exuberance, excitement and joyous new friendships (I'm not that old, but old enough I mostly just want some peace and quiet with a drink.) So what if these young adults, in some small corner of the world, in one part of a city, did find each other and did make things that way, at least for themselves? Even unintentionally. And what if they found a few more people committed to doing the same?
No-one in this story is perfect. Everyone has or has been through problems. I don't give any guarantees that major stumbling blocks won't appear at some point (as I genuinely don't know.) The biggest fantasy in all of this has nothing to do with being trans, or LGBTQ, it's just letting people be good, while they hopefully help the people around them be good.
I prefer to think it isn't a fantasy
The future is what we make it... Just as Toni (with an i) is making her decisions daily, so are we. The fantasy part as you suggest is that everyone accepts her and supports her, but that can become our reality. I was scared to death of people finding out about my 'secret' for the the first 60+ years of my life. But since I've transitioned, I just expect everyone to accept and support me. We are not the pioneers that our sisters were many, many years ago, but there is an opportunity to take a big step forward right now.
I like what you have done with Toni. Many characters in erotica are swept along, seemingly without any rational thoughts. Toni is honest with herself, while being scared s__less. But she continues moving forward.
What's the worst that can happen? I often ask myself that. I used to challenge my clients in the corporate consulting arena with that question when they got cold feet. It's a real concern for many.
Lately, one quote that comes to my mind is by Lord Tennyson:
I hold it true, whate'er befall;
I feel it, when I sorrow most;
'Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all.
Toni has embraced her being and I am looking forward to her journey. Thank you for joining our BC community, Ms. Wooly. :DD
DeeDee
"i" liked that chapter too !
Its funny how excesses of alcohol can lower the inhibitions and allow honesty and truth to flow freely. When you know you are in the company of friends or like minded people and your barriers are down, you can become brutally honest and there is nothing more freeing than being honest with yourself and your friends and family! The barrier of being out in public, the barrier of being honest with friends - I guess Toni will have a Sunday of reflection before she has the barrier of facing her employers and coworkers on Monday ! Can't wait to read all about it !
Hugs&Kudos!!
Suzi