huggles needed

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Dorothy Colleen

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my mom's nightly struggle with paranoid delusions is killing my spoons. It's been weeks now since I got to sleep through the night without her waking me up saying her daughter in law has started fires in the electrical wiring or is watching mom through a camera hidden in the vent in her room.

which means I'm letting my self-care slip, and am scared what happens if I have a major PTSD attack or depressive episode.

hugs appreciated.

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A whole box of hugs

Here with sending forth one (1) whole box of hugs to one Dorothy Colleen. Must be used all at once or the power of said hugs Will possible Come out to do hugging at un-planned yours of the Day surprising the huggede or People in close proximity.
Love n hugs n xmas wishes from Denmark

Bouncy of Denmark

thanks, Bouncy

huggles back

Your relationship with your mom has changed drastically

...and so much of it is completely out of your hands;
There's almost no right thing to say when someone
is this delusional and any real communication
with them becomes more + more impossible.

My mom didn't have Alzheimers but did deteriorate mentally
in her last few months I guess due to lack of oxygen to her brain.
One day she was talking to me in a way that wasn't crazy
but felt really wierd somehow, and later I realized she
didn't know who I was and was bluffing her way thru our conversation.
(This went into Teddi's experience with her Dad in PLAY NICE)
Another time she insisted that the nurses took her to Chicago at midnite
and made her eat pizza, and got mad when we explained that
Chicago is over 1000 miles away; such a random + surreal thing to say
it would have been funny if I didn't burst into tears when
I was alone later over how helpless it all made me feel.
8 years later my dad was even worse when his
cancer spread to his brain and simple tasks
he'd done all his life totally baffled him...

As far as I know there's no way to be philosophical & cool
about it when shit like this happens and freaking out
about it seems totally reasonable to me.
About all we can do is support
each other through it.

So I've been there Hon, and bought the pizza, and...

HUGGLES!!!
~Ronni

.
"Government will only recognize 2 genders, male + female,
as assigned at birth-" (In his own words:)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C1lugbpMKDU

Many hugs

Please know that you are loved and appreciated here. I'm sympathetic to the situation you and your mom are in. You may have as many hugs as you need, your credit is good.

Hugs,
Erin

= Give everyone the benefit of the doubt because certainty is a fragile thing that can be shattered by one overlooked fact.