When I moved in to my brother and sister-in-law's basement, one of the things I agreed to was to take over the outside chores - mostly snow shoveling and lawn care.
At that time the thing I worried about was that my mental health issues would make doing these jobs tough.
I never dreamed how fast my physical health would deteriorate.
I never imagined that there would be a time when being out working for an hour would be a serious challenge.
I honestly dont know how long I can keep up to my promise, or what happens when I cant anymore.
sighs ...
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(((HUGS)))
Oh Dorothy, (((HUGS)))
I feel your pain. Even when I am in an up-cycle I dread having to do yard work, so when I am down I have a tendency to blow it off, which just makes me have more to do, which drives me down, so I delay longer, making it worse, then things get bad enough that it takes me twice as long as it would have, which pisses me off – so I hear you dear.
Even after a long hard winter (90 inches of snow, 45 days below freezing, and lows in the 20’s below zero) I dread the color of green that I see in my yard. Instead of blowing snow in spurts, the green means I will have to be out every week doing it! Sseeesh This year, I decided to try for a hour a day, instead of cramming everything into one day I only have to struggle through an hour a day. Then I take a hot shower and relax. I hope this works better for me, if I can keep it up.
Thinking about you!
Hang it there.
Hugs Jeri
Jeri Elaine
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Awe Hunny
I am sorry your dealing with this.
My memory issues (dissassociative amnesia) atm suck, so I apologize if anything I say contradicts any of your current situations.
I am unsure, but I do believe your in the process of transition, yes?
If so, you have to understand, you are going to become weaker, your muscle mass is diminishing tremendously.
Your bones are going to become a bit more brittle, more fragile.
Your immune system will not be as it was.
You are at risk of a lot of ailments; heart & respiratory issues, cancers (mainly testicular & breast)
You are going to experience mood swings, hot & cold flashes, dunno if its my color blindness or something else personally but if like me, your going to experience a complete intollerance of humidity, sunlight, anything that can trigger a serious hot or cold flash.
Your CPTSD (complex-post traumatic stress disorder) which is the type of ptsd, those of us, that have had the same 'experiences' ;( are going to have freezes, hiccups, still motioned disassociation and many other things.
Please do not beat yourself up about this, its not your fault.
Yes their request, is potentionally understandable, perhaps fair, but I do not know what your entire arrangement with them domestically and economically is.
If the grounds maintance aka horticulture & winter maintenance etc is your responsibility & you are incapable of meeting that demand.
I would honestly consider, dishing out a little for a youngster to do it...I hate to say it but think back to when we were kids, I used to get paid 5$ for shovelling snow & 20$ for mowing, when I was a kid, preteen/undeage from parttime arrangements.
It doesn't need it everyday, unless a blizzard or snow has accumulated to a necessary degree.
Ice, just throw down sidewalk salt
I do remember my paternal grandmother, paying me 50$ for raking & bagging, particualrily during fall.
Thankfully when I began my transition, I used my stepdad's sexist & mysoginistic principals and statements against him; 'yard work is man's work' ugh but it got me out of all that crap ever again lol
I am more then happy these days voluntarily and or even getting payed quite well for babysitting...guess I am recapturing a bit of that teenage girl status I missed out on.
Know this hunny, yes your not as young as you once was, I get that...I feel it myself everyday.
But, you are capable of doing things, but never let anyone treat you as an invalid...let alone do not overdue it.
There is NOTHING wrong with asking for help luv, infact its more then a womans perogative, its our right & we are expected when needed.....
None of those male inhibitions about not asking for help, your a girl sweety, own it!
With Love and Light, and Smiles so Bright!
Erin Amelia Fletcher