“I’m on the run, nowhere to go. Living where I can.” Those are the thoughts that are running rampant in the head of 7 year old Kyle. Kyle tries to forget what happened to his family, but he cannot out of fear for his life. What does life have in store for Kyle? Will he find the meaning of life? Or will he live in agony for the rest of his life?

Chapter One:

Living alone is something that has become normal for Kyle. Having lost all of his family, he has nobody to go to. Now Kyle is just fighting to stay alive. He hasn’t gotten a haircut in 2 and a half years and his hair is down to his back. All Kyle wants is someone to love him for who he is, and not be forced to act the way society wants him to. Kyle was never a fan of sports. He loved to read and write. He had no friends and was always alone. On this very day Kyle is just trying to find a place to wind down for the evening. He’s been walking for days now and is just trying to get as far away from where he grew up as possible. Having to go back there would scar Kyle for life. Having been abused by his father, Kyle wants nothing to do with the town he grew up in. Kyle finally decides to take shelter in a nearby park underneath a gazebo. As he is unloading his Sleeping Bag and pillow, he starts to feel dizzy and as soon as he gets his sleeping bag set up he slides in and falls asleep.
The next morning while Kyle is still asleep a Woman is arriving with her kids and happens to notice Kyle laying there. She contemplates waking the boy up but decides to wait for him to wake up before talking with him. “Go play” the woman says to her kids and goes to sit on a nearby bench. While her kids are playing she can’t help but notice that the boy under the gazebo looked helpless.

Kyle finally wakes up and starts to put his stuff away when he notices that a woman is watching him. Out of fear he quickly puts his stuff away and keeps on walking.

The woman notices Kyle leaving and asks a woman sitting next to her if she could watch her kids for a moment. She starts to walk towards Kyle and she notices that he isn’t in good shape. He’s as small as her 2 year old daughter and is very thin. “Excuse me son?” she says to Kyle.

Kyle hears someone talking in his direction and notices the lady that was watching him earlier trying to talk to him. He runs to a nearby tree and starts crying.

The woman follows Kyle to the tree and notices him crying. “It’s alright kid, you’ll be fine. What’s your name?” the woman asks Kyle.

“Kyle” he says very quietly.

“Kyle, are you okay?” the woman asks.

“No I’m not, I lost my entire family three days ago and I’ve been trying to get as far away from where I used to live as possible.”

“Do you have anywhere to go?” the woman asks.

“No I don’t.” Kyle says

“Would you want to come home with me?”

Kyle thinks for a moment before answering “You won’t hurt me will you?”

“I would never do that, come with me” the woman says as she picks Kyle up.

Kyle buries his face into the woman’s shoulder.

The woman says to Kyle “You can call me Amanda”

Kyle says to Amanda “Thank you.”

Amanda then says to her kids, “Come on kids it’s time to go.”

With kids in tow Amanda heads to the car and buckles in her kids then goes into the back of her car and gets another Car seat.

Kyle then asks “What’s with the car seat?”

Amanda says “With you being as small as you are, you need to be in a car seat.”

Kyle then says “Am I really that small?” he then realizes that he is the size of her oldest kid.

Amanda then picks him up and straps him into the car seat.

In the car nothing really happens. Amanda takes Kyle home with her for the evening and the next bit of dialogue is set at her home.

“Kyle honey can you come here please?” Amanda asks Kyle as she shoos her girls off to play.

Kyle looks very nervous as he walks over to talk to Amanda.

“Kyle, I need to ask you a few questions. Whether you answer them or not is up to you but, I encourage you to open up to me so I can help you.”

Kyle nods his head and Amanda takes out a pad of paper and a pen.

“Kyle, what happened to your family that you ended up out here?”

Kyle thinks for a moment on how to respond.

Kyle then says “My house burned down and I got my few things out and left. I couldn’t stand living with my father any longer, he was hurting me almost every day for every little thing I did wrong.”

Kyle is sobbing by this point and Amanda gives him a minute to collect himself.

“I also ran because he wouldn’t accept me for who I am. He kept forcing me to be something that I am not. He was trying to get me to do things that I’m not interested in.”

Amanda then says “Sounds like you’ve had a rough life there Kyle. Did you ever know your mother Kyle?”

Kyle just shook his head no and said “She died when I was a baby.”

Amanda then says “Kyle I get the feeling there’s more about you that you’re not telling me. You alluded to something but never actually said what you meant by what you were saying to me. You don’t have to tell me right now but it’d be easier if you told me now so I can try and help you.

Kyle thinks for a moment then decides to come out of his shell that he’s been in since he was 2 years old.

“I never got a normal childhood Amanda, I was forced to grow up really early and never got the chance to be a kid. I was forced to do everything myself because my dad was always busy and never had any time for me. To add to all of that I have some other issues that are bugging me that I’m afraid to tell anyone in fear of being beaten senseless.”

“Kyle, it’s ok. Just tell me what is on your mind. I won’t be mad at you for what you tell me. I’m here to help you, not hurt you.”

“Well um, ever since I was about 2 I’ve always felt like a girl inside. I’ve wished I was a girl for years but could never tell anyone because I would’ve gotten in trouble.”
At this point Kyle was bawling and Amanda just came over and cuddled him in her arms.

“Kyle, it’s ok. I’m here for you. But I need to ask you a few more questions than you can lay down ok?”

“Ok……..” Kyle says while sniffling.

“Kyle, do you wet the bed or have accidents during the day?”

“Yes I do, I’ve wet the bed all my life. I was never fully trained during the day either. I wet myself almost every day and can’t control myself.”

Amanda is looking at Kyle shocked by what she just heard. Bedwetting at his age is somewhat common but not being Day trained shocked her.

“Kyle, I think we can knock two birds out with one stone here.”

“What do you mean?”

“What I mean is that I can allow you to express yourself as a girl and help you with the wetting.”

Kyle looks shocked, gets up and hides behind a chair and says “I need to be alone for a bit, I need some time to think.”

Amanda says ok and goes off to check on her kids.

“Hey girls, how’s it going?”

“Good mommy!” They all say in unison

Amanda then proceeds to check their diapers one by one and all are dry. She then goes out to the kitchen and gets herself a glass of Lemonade.

After she gets her lemonade she goes out to check on Kyle.
“Kyle honey, are you ok?” She asks as she notices him in a fetal position looking frightened.

Kyle then says “Just scared right now, I need help!”

Amanda picks him up and says “its ok Kyle just calm down. Would you like some water to calm you?”

Kyle nods and Amanda proceeds to get him a glass of water which he drinks and calms down.

“Now Kyle, I understand you’ve been through a lot lately. But, I need your cooperation so I can help you okay?”

Kyle nods and Amanda carries him to her daughter Haley’s room.

“Now Kyle, I’m here to help you not hurt you. If at any point you get uncomfortable just say so and I’ll stop ok?”

Kyle nods and Amanda proceeds to get clothes out for Kyle.

“Would you like a dress with Dora on it or a shirt and skirt with Princesses on it?”

Kyle says “Dwess please.”

Amanda grabs the dress and gets some tights as well to go along with the dress.

Grabbing a diaper Amanda says “Until we start training you, you’ll be wearing these ok?”

“Also what should I call you now that you’re a girl?”

Kyle thinks for a moment then says “Lilly.”

“Ok Lilly, let’s get you dressed ok?”

Lilly nods and Amanda starts to get her dressed. Starting with the diaper, she powders Lilly up and then tapes the diaper up. After the diaper, Amanda puts the tights on Lilly.

“These tights feel good. I wish I could’ve tried them on sooner.”

“That’s good to hear Lilly.” Amanda says while smiling.

Amanda then puts the dress on Lilly and puts her hair into Pigtails.

Lastly, Amanda puts some socks on Lilly and leads her over to a mirror.

Lilly is looking at herself in awe. She never imagined she’d look this good as a girl.

Lilly then says “Thank you Amanda.”

She proceeds to hug Amanda and cry tears of joy.

“Would you like a nap sweetheart? I bet you’re exhausted after today.”

Lilly yawns and nods. Amanda takes her over to her 2 year old daughter Haley’s bed and tucks her in.

“Sweet Dreams Lilly.”

Lilly falls asleep almost instantly and Amanda turns the lights off excluding the nightlight.