Well, the last couple of days have been filled with anxiety, and last night I finally put together why.
It goes back to an article on Facebook which was about child abuse, and the idea of making a Valentine's day card for your younger self.. I thought it was a really good idea, and was going to work on making one for the 7-9 year old me, but I didn't realize how much I was triggering myself until my anxiety was at Defcon 5 and you could almost hear the robot from "Lost in Space" going "Danger, Dorothy Colleen, Danger!"
So now I feel very frustrated. How do I heal when any healing actions I could take trigger me that badly? I feel like not only am I paddling upriver, I'm trying to paddle up a waterfall.
Ah, well.
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Huggles
Sorry that didn't work for you. Not every trick or technique does for solving problems because we're all unique. Huggles Dorothy. Don't give up on finding a solution.
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Dagnabbit
One of the few references I can actually understand!
You still have us around to be there, Dottie.
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hugs and waterworks.
Sending hugs your way. Take as many as you need.
They'll build you a nice canal with locks for your river and waterfall, so it will be easier to get up river. (hey I am from the Netherlands, we are famous for our waterworks. A girl can dream!)
Anne Margarete
Keep in mind.
How do I heal when any healing actions I could take trigger me that badly?
Keep in mind your intentions were only for the best. And the exercise in question was meant as a way of deep personal reflection on one's past, as a way to help the person doing the exercise.
You need to figure out what part of this exercise is triggering your problems. Is it specific memories? Are you upset are remembering how you were as a child? How you are now? Or, are you upset at how of you journey from being a child, to as you are, presently?
Once you are figured out what the trigger is, you can confront that trigger, by accepting what was done was done. That the event can no longer harm you, and that you should move on.
I hope this helps you.
Triggers
Since you get triggered so severely and so frequently, perhaps you should consider extensive psychotherapy by a trained professional who is versed in childhood trauma, sexual abuse, regressed memory syndrome and is trans friendly. There is always a danger of hindering progress and making matters worse if you are not versed in psychology and even if you are, it's a poor field for self practice. Though people on the internet are your friends and probably have your best interest at heart, many of the cues one needs to pick up on are simply not present digitally.
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