I'm sorry I haven't been giving any updates recently. It just feels like I'm pretty much stuck in a rut - I go to work, I sleep, I go to church, I sleep again ...
But here goes.
My grief over losing Kylie is slightly better, I guess. I almost feel guilty about that ...
I got the green light to do a talk on trans 101 for my church, and I'm super nervous about it. Honestly, I think I may have bitten off more than I can chew with this ...
My local trans support group has officially called it quits, seriously limiting my offline support system. Its so bad I honestly would be in serious trouble if something happened to my computer ...
While there is a slim chance I might be able to get SRS, I am starting to think its time for me to figure out what my life looks like if I cant have the operation. Since a romantic relationship seems unlikely at this point in my life, I don't have a pressing need, but I suspect that if I get a definite no I'm gonna need as much support as I can get ...
I'm not sure where I am with my PTSD. I think I've really turned a corner, but it would take only one flashback to put me right back down again ...
Don't let the giggles and huggles fool you. I've got a pile of sadness I sit on ...
There. Now you're updated.
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Hey...
you know if you ever need to chat, PM me.
*huggles*
~And so it goes...
Hugs
You're one of our stalwarts, Dorothy, stronger in yourself than you know. Hang in there.
Hugs,
Erin
= Give everyone the benefit of the doubt because certainty is a fragile thing that can be shattered by one overlooked fact.
Dottie
I may not know the specifics of exactly how you're feeling but I know what it's like to be in that kind of rut, to have no real world support system, to be plagued by flashbacks, and to be uncertain about the future. I've been there and in a lot of ways I'm still there.
Try to take it one day at a time and remember if nothing else you have good friends here who care about you. I may not be able to give you a real hug, and you sound like you really need one, but I will give you a big virtual one. We're all here for you.
*Great big hugs*
Amethyst
Don't take me too seriously. I'm just kitten around. :3