Imagine for a moment that there was something you had seriously mixed feelings about.
Something you ached for, but were ashamed of, and afraid of.
Then, one day, you push down shame and fear enough to try and reach for that thing, while believing it would be impossible to reach.
And then some time later, you find yourself staring it in the face.
Or in my case, the mirror.
That's what happened to me yesterday. I was getting out of my mom's car and I caught a glance at my reflection in the window of my own car.
And staring back at me was a woman.
Not supermodel materiel, but actually rather pretty.
I have no words to truly express how this feels.
But "ecstatic" comes close ...
And it wouldn't have been possible without all the amazing support I've received from "Team Dorothy"
So huggles all around!
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Dorothy -
what else did you expect. I am wondering why it took so long for you to clean the glasses you have been waring.
Ruth
May the sun always shine on your parade
but ... gran-tante Ruth ...
I'm still learning to see myself that way.
I remember when I had that
I remember when I had that kind of moment for the first time. It was actually on Christmase Day of 2010 when I was passing a mirror in my home on my way to do something and caught a woman out of the corner of my eye. That first moment of recognition of yourself is very moving and I actually wrote something when it happened to me.
I saw... her
For the first time today
Out of the corner of my eye
And my shock caused me to stray
I stepped back
And retraced my steps to stare
With fascination into the glass
And when I looked she was still there
She stared back at me
Shock, recognition and then delight
Passing fluidly over her features
And in that moment my heart took flight
She was still familiar
Though it was clear how she had changed and grown
Her features were much softer now
And more feminine than I had known
She was becoming a woman
I realized that yes that time is near
And I smiled at that with tears of joy
As I walked away from the mirror
I'm so happy to hear that you've had your moment Dorothy
*big hugs*
Amethyst
Don't take me too seriously. I'm just kitten around. :3
beautiful poem, hon
a very sweet moment, indeed.