I am crying all the time now. I know it is one of the gifts of HRT. Here is something I wrote about it.
Tears
I cry for reasons I do not understand.
And it is a release in a way.
Through the tears,
I am finding the inner me.
The hurt that I have felt,
The joy that I feel now,
The sorrow and loss.
The fear of the future;
Both of the happiness I know is coming,
and the fear of losing it.
I don't try and understand it.
I just let it be.
My body knows what it needs
And my soul dances in the tears
Like in a summer rain
That is washing away the old
And making ready for the new.
And I'm afraid of what it to come.
The changes first bring pain,
and I feel it so much more now.
But I have lived in fear all my life
And I will not let it control me.
I will embrace it, love it,
and watch it melt away
into love and hope and peace
so very deep inside.
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Thank you.....
You have written my soul.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Dallas
D. Eden
Dum Vivimus, Vivamus
If my words can reach out
and touch someone, anyone. Then it has all been worthwhile.
Love & Light,
Cassie Ellen
Suddenly A Million Cheshire Cats Are Smiling
Beautifully articulated. Very lyrical too.
And I will not let it control me.
Damn right you won't.
And they should be
To laugh in joy, and cry in sorrow, both at the same time is truly wondrous.
Thank you for your kind words, they mean a lot to me.
I do not know where I am going, but I do know I will get there as long as I keep taking the next step. Still, life is really more like a dance. A few steps forward, some back, and others maybe side to side. I am learning the trick is to dance in joy. Then everything else follows.
Bright Blessings,
Cassie Ellen
Wow!
That was soooo good. I just completely relate to every line. It's constructed really well; it just flows into a glorious end.
Best, best, best luck; it should all happen as you have written. Don't worry about surgery pain. Compared to all that we have to go through, physical pain damped by good drugs, is trivial!
Hugs and Bright Blessings,
Renee
You're welcome
Things like that, just flow out as is. There is not really any planning as much as my need to write provides the form.
I've started journalling again in the last month, and that has sort of opened up the way to get this stuff out. Things like this piece, I feel I need to share.
Love & Light,
Cassie Ellen
very beautiful, thank you
thank you for opening up your heart to us.
It is really who I am
I think to truly love, you have to open up, especially to family. And y'all are all my sisters.
I had stopped writing last year due to some overwhelming personal issues, and I have been making an effort to start back again. I had also forgotten, how much I need to write just to stay sane. I try to share what I can.
Love & Light,
Cassie Ellen
Hi Cassie
Looking forward to seeing you again girl! And yes, I went through it / go through it still. Woman are allowed to have their emotions, unlike the poor guys, who just have to repress.
May the tears become more of joy ...
May the tears become more of joy, emotions more deeply felt and some days may they stay away so you can enjoy your new life more clearly. I feel blessed for your sharing and hope a future poem shares your journey further in your life.
Hugs, Jessie
Jessica E. Connors
Jessica Connors
Happy tears for....
Sweet Cassie! Loving Hugs Talia