Tears

I am crying all the time now. I know it is one of the gifts of HRT. Here is something I wrote about it.

Tears

I cry for reasons I do not understand.
And it is a release in a way.
Through the tears,
I am finding the inner me.
The hurt that I have felt,
The joy that I feel now,
The sorrow and loss.
The fear of the future;
Both of the happiness I know is coming,
and the fear of losing it.

I don't try and understand it.
I just let it be.
My body knows what it needs
And my soul dances in the tears
Like in a summer rain
That is washing away the old
And making ready for the new.

And I'm afraid of what it to come.
The changes first bring pain,
and I feel it so much more now.
But I have lived in fear all my life
And I will not let it control me.
I will embrace it, love it,
and watch it melt away
into love and hope and peace
so very deep inside.