I find myself wondering why I feel so fragile. Is it that in taking of the male mask I am more vulnerable than I have ever been? Is it that I am now on hormones that equal what a teenage girl deals with? Is it that trying to deal with both my gender issues and my abuse I dont have a lot of emotional strength left for anything else?
I don't know, but the truth remains - I am more sensitive, more fragile now.
So be extra careful in handing me, okay?
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drops you
*CRASH*
Hmmm not that fragile. Your still all in one piece...mostly.
Your tougher than you think.
no fighting kids
no fighting kids we don't need a long train of you going at as neathere of you are fragile
tries to glue herself together
I'm not that tough, Jaci-girl
Ha Ha Jaci!
But the last part applies to YOU to "your tougher than you think" GIRL! Great Big Teddy Bear Hugs for both of you! Popcorn Lady
You're not made of glass
but it can feel like it. For so long you've hidden behind that mask. It was a shield. Now you've put it aside. You're facing the world as you now and yes that can scary. However, since you had the strength to put that mask away, You're proved you can also face the world.
It's clutch you no longer need. Stand tall dear!
Hugs!
Grover
Common reaction
Dotty, I had the same problen_gift when the treatment really started to have effect on my body ( the itching breasts a s o ). I have tried to find out what it is that really cause this., but not found any reasonable explanation. You just have to live with it. To me it could be just normally scenes that I might not have notices earlier. Trigging could be someone that was misstreated verbally or manually. BUT also when I saw really happy persons, like a mother with her newborne kid. The way she looked at the kid move me into tears abd that could sometimes be a little frustrating. Just that the tears came rolling because of something good or nice that I saw. the increased sensitivity continued for about a year with a slow reduction. Still after all these years it can come bak now and then, but not so strong today. Just accept it and take it as an enhancement of your skill to see the world in a new way.
Have a good weekend dear Dotty
Ginnie
GinnieG
fragile
Treat me nice
Treat me good
Treat me like you really should
'cause i'm not made of wood
And i don't have a wooden heart
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Papa is watching
I am watching both of you , you know, after that , Dotti just remember that these dys are different and will be for a while. However we here in the closet are always here for you ,whenever you need us..HUGS
*hugs!*
I hope it all gets better for you soon.
For the last month I've felt like the next little thing that goes wrong is just going to kill me. :(
*hugs*
~And so it goes...
When breaking out its shell
A butterfly first must inflate her wings and allow them to harden before flying off into the world. We dont have the luxury of waiting to harden up after we shed our shells. Once the shell falls away we start to trust people and eventually someone will hurt us.
If were lucky it wont happen for a long time but for some of us the thrill of showing our "true selves" leads to people taking advantage whether emotionally, financially, or sexually/physically. Our new bright shiny shell will start to harden hopefully with no lasting scars.
I gave myself to the world. All bright and shiny and got shit on financially and emotionally. I know from where you are speaking.
It too will pass
Dayna