My flashbacks are what started the whole process. My rape and subsequent breakdown the next year was all neatly packaged away and blocked. Then when I was 48, the miracle of modern pharmaceuticals opened that damned dam. I totally fell apart, the second time, but this time eyes wide open, remembering everything. Four years later I am still clawing myself out of the pit, but as Cassie, I am a much happier girl from the ground up.

I'm trying to say that you are not alone and you do have more people who understand and care than you may have realized. And that I know that it feels like it is too much to bear, but at some point, I had to learn to have faith that I have a pool of strength that will bear me through it all. PM me or catch me on facebook if you want to talk more.

Love & Light,
Cassie Ellen