Those of you who pray, please do so for me.
I haven't written a word 4 months and I miss it a lot. I have some really radical story ideas and hope that I can somehow find the time to put them into bytes and bits soon.
I've joined a faith group that I never thought I would, and they have been so kind and gentle with me. Some of my friends that I have known for years either won't speak to me or do so only angrily. It seems that they accuse me of sleeping with the enemy. It has been my intention, driven by instructions of other members to fight for our rights from within, and there has been astonishing success. I just feel worn out and need to lay on someone's shoulder and cry for a while.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wVR38mm4Hzg
Against my best judgement I have read two of the Fifty Shades of Grey series. I should be alarmed that my Bishop would find out, but after getting this far, I am prepared to stand in front of him in my best petulance and defend my actions! TO WAR !
My defense is that !!!finally !!!! I have found an author who really gets the effect that extreme abuse has on a small child. Oh, it is sexy as HELL, but there is also humanity and deep understanding in it. And, the way that the author caries out her wordsmything brings joy to my soul!
I know that this has been waaayyyy off topic but this is the only place I can really be honest without the fear of reprisal. I thank you and love you all!
Gwendolyn
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Gwendolyn
Go for it girl!
Huggles Gwendolyn
Angel
"Be Your-Self, So Easy to Say, So Hard to Live!"
Thank you so much
I am not usually a whiney pest. Thank you for the encouragement.
Gwendolyn
Hold on love. I miss you and
Hold on love. I miss you and wish you all the luck and love you deserve. If you want to just yack about it, please message me and I'll listen and maybe help a bit.
But know that you are missed and treasured.
Faith
I have always believed Faith is a deeply personal decision. If approached correctly it really can make you a better person. Too many other people look it as a license to control you IMO, but if you can learn to say no to these types then you can grow to be the person you and God want you to be.
Remember the difference, God speaks to us personally. I'm glad you decided to come back.
Just a thought, I like TG fiction, but it isn't the only genre out there. Ever thought about expanding your boundaries to a wider audience? We will still be here, and a lot of us will offer constructive criticism, something that can not be bought for any price. You might even be able to sell to the outside world, a bonus! If you have a story with a TG theme that needs to come out, well, we're here for that too.
Not really TG any more.
After my first few stories, TG content really took a back seat, usually being handled in a para or two. For me it is boring and unglamourous; having done it all in real life.
Inshallah, when I get well, I shall write again. It is like a safety valve for me.
Did people think I left? I did not say that, I just said I would have less time here.
Thank you.
G
I'm not quite sure about a
I'm not quite sure about a lot of things, but it has always bothered me that there are those who profess Jesus as their personal Savior and then put multiple layers of 'flappers' (Gulliver's Travels) between God and the individual.
How can one have an intimate conversation with their Creator with all those other folks in the way?
Sorry, but when I hear of others getting in the way of someone's spirituality, I become upset. For me the Good News is that we each have a direct connection with the Creator, that we don't need priests, bishops, etc. to intercede on our behalves. It is good to have people who study and concern themselves with interpretation whom we may consult. But this does not give them right or permission to interfere in our lives.
As for the writing, I understand the frustration, but maybe the ideas still need some more processing before they want to come out. It's like 'to every season there is a time to...' and maybe it's just not quite time.
It really sounds like you're processing a lot, lately. Keep going and you'll get there.
My prayers go with you.
Janet
Mistress of the Guild of Evil [Strawberry] Blonde Proofreaders
To be or not to be... ask Schrodinger's cat.
Re: the Flappers Oh, GODS
Re: the Flappers
Oh, GODS yes! It's one of the main problems I have with most institutionalized religion. If during prayer, God speaks to you in your heart, then what need to you have for someone to tell you what S/He means? They just said it to you, no interpretation needed.
It's the main reason I'm Wiccan. I have an intimate relationship with my Deities, and no one else can stand between me and my Gods. Simple as that.
Anyhow....
Good for you. May you be
Good for you. May you be continually blessed.
Janet
Mistress of the Guild of Evil [Strawberry] Blonde Proofreaders
To be or not to be... ask Schrodinger's cat.
It's not my church that is hurting me...
The gays, lesbians, bi's and some T folk are the ones being peckish. They have no idea why I went the direction I did, and when I try to tell them, they sneer. I have been told by several members that I need to be who I am in that church and let the nay sayers be convicted by my hopefully kind and loving personality. It is their hope that my presence there will aid in the fight to bring change.
Yes, the task feels too big for me but so far, the LDS have been the best game in town for me, ever.
I don't understand,
Is it they don't like your choice of churches? Or something else?
As much as I want to wave you
As much as I want to wave you off the Latter-Day Saints, if you found solace for your soul, then good for you.
But if you are having doubts about them, PLEASE don't go further. I managed to escape, and while I can't comment on recent changes in policy, I know that the overall attitudes will wind up hurting you more in the long run.
If you want to talk about ANY aspect of the LDS, let me know.
Three Things
Let's start with the writing. I have had story droughts before. In fact I a in one. For example, I have written only two stories in the past two years. S*** happens.
As far as religion is concerned I agree with you about fighting within. Knowing you as well as I do, I, however believe that you still don't know what you believe. You are a seeker, with only a few firm beliefs. The only way you can firm up your beliefs is to ask yourself the hard questions:
1. What do I believe?
2. & more importantly, Why?
3. Can I accept another's belief as that person's own?
Be honest with everyone, especially with your religious leaders. Seek TRUTH, what ever that is.