You might catch "NEWS" (?)
Just to warn anyone who wants to try things of this sort. Didn't work for me; wasn't gay. Oddly enough I had no attraction to men at all until well into transition. It took me a long time to resolve the pure, unadulterated, revulsion I had for men, but after a long time, living as a woman, it slowly ebbed. I don't know how.
In this one, I will say that the psychobabble is impressive, but you can still see the conflict in the face of the man who was interviewed.
http://news.yahoo.com/video/us-15749625/22933983#video=22934675
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i tried something like this
went to a christian counseling center, tried to "affirm my masculinity" the whole thing. never took. Always ended up feeling worse after every session, felt like a total failure.
dorothycolleen
I always felt like an impostor.
I thought that the back slapping, yo ho ho, men were acting like idiots; did not feel real to me.
Gwendolyn
Old Whine in a New Bottle
Like most (but not all) of the born again types I have known, they must constantly be told what they are doing is right. Go to church three nights a week and Sundays, read the Bible in between, then a throw in few retreats for extra effort. Cut yourself off from the rest of humanity lest you be tempted. If the feedback stops then the whole thing falls apart. Nobody seems to question why a person must be constantly urged, reminded or coerced behave like they are 'supposed' to behave.
I am so with you on this
My theory is that church is like AA meetings and you 'keep coming back, it works if you work it'. Sometimes I wonder if it is merely coincidence that so many AA meetings are held in church basements. So you are constantly fighting the evil tendencies in yourself and you can't change unless you are constantly pounded upon to do it. It also reminds me of CS Lewis's 'The Silver Chair' where Prince Rillian straps himself every night into the Silver Chair else some 'evil persona' will appear.
As a consequence I have never felt the need to go to church on any regular basis to say the least. My relationship between myself and the power of the universe ( or not ) is my business and nobody else's, certainly not some bible thumping old coot.
Kim
Looking back, my step father
Looking back, my step father nearly killed me in the name of God. I was trying to be me, a girl, and he said, "If you don't straightn up I will kill you".
Much later when the children were toddlers, I was afraid that I might screw them up. I was so angry that I might easily have killed them. So, when religion came at me, I took the hook; wanting to learn how to care for them. After that, I stayed with fundi Christianity because I subconsciously felt I needed barriers in my life; knowing that my mind was out of control. I don't have a police record of any kind; was too afraid to do anything wrong because I might get in trouble. The horror of the childhood abuse was still with me.
It was not until I got outed, lost everything, and lay in bed weeping that I really began to seek God. But, these days, I see God, (Allah SWT to me) as one who is extremely kind to me, and helps me often in oh so many ways. I do not conform to all the rules of my faith, though I am still Muslimah. I simply try to be the kindest, most loving person that I can be. The Haram police, and the religious pin heads can all go bother someone else.
Gwendolyn
Yeah, the Idea is Pretty Funny
When I told my parents I was trans and was going to transition and "go all the way", they sent me some weird book about men going out in the woods and beating drums. I never opened it, but I think I gave it away to Goodwill or such. Possibly, I should have destroyed it so no one else would be contaminated, but I was brought up never to deface or damage a book. For me it's like being against the first amendment and brings up images of old films of Hitler's book burnings.
Hugs and Bright Blessings,
Renee
Ready for work, 1992.
Hugs and Bright Blessings,
Renee