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By Andrea Ribeiro Many thanks to Stanman63 for editing.! Previously:“See you soon sis.” he said giving me a hug just before everything went white again. |
I wake up and stretch my arms. What a dream., I think to myself.
I look around and see my mom seated on a chair next to the bed.
“I see you are finally awake.”
I yawn and ask, “How long have I been asleep?”
“A few hours. We decided to let you sleep, you had a very exciting day.”
“Mom...”
“What is it, Sweetheart?”
“I’m not dreaming, am I? I mean what the doctor said about me being really a girl.”
“No, Sweetheart, you are not dreaming. And don’t get to exited either or you’ll faint again,” she tells me trying to suppress a giggle.
“It is becoming a habit of mine, isn’t it?” I say blushing a little.
“It is understandable.”
“OK, I’ll try to not faint again.”
"We'll see, Sweetheart."
“What time is it, Mommy?”
“Just a little after 5:00 PM. Why? Have a big date?”
“No, I’m just anxious. I wish I could have the operation today and be over with. Also I’m a bit hungry and I don't think that I be able to eat later.”
“That’s true, the doctor said you can’t eat after 7pm and no liquids after 10pm. I think they will bring you your dinner soon.”
“Where’s Daddy and Jenny?”
“He went home to sleep a little, and Jenny will be here in a few minutes.”
“Does she know?”
“Yes, I told her.”
“And Mindy?” I ask and blush a little.
“What about Mindy?”
“Nothing, it’s just that she came earlier with Jenny and I was wondering if she knows too.”
“I don’t know, maybe Jenny told her.”
“OK.”
I lay my head back and start looking at the ceiling.
Why did I ask about Mindy? What happened earlier? When our hands touched earlier I couldn’t even think straight. Why I am even thinking about that? What does it mean?
“Sweety? Are you ok?” I hear my mother ask with some consern in her voice.
“Hmmmm...? Oh. Yes mom, I’m fine, I was just thinking.”
“Thinking about?”
“About what will happen after I leave the hospital, school, things like that I lied.”
“After you leave the hospital you will stay at home a couple weeks while you heal, and after that you’ll go back to school.”
“I hope not as a boy, right?” I ask her a little preocupied.
“No sweety, as a girl. The hospital are preparing some of the paperwork necessary to correct your records and to change your name.”
“Change my name?” I ask her a bit confused.
“Yes, sweety, John Heart Junior isn’t a name suited to a girl.”
“So I will be Joan for real?”
“Joan Erica Heart, actually.”
“Erica?”
“It was my grandmothers name, Sweety. I hope you like it.”
“I love it, Mommy.” I tell her as I give her a big hug.
At that moment Jenny arrives, “Aren’t we in a hugging mood today?” with a giggle.
“Mom just told me my new name, Sis.”
“Really? What is is? It is still Joan, right?”
“Yes, sis it is still Joan. Wanna tell her, Mom?”
“Sure, Sweety. Jenny, meet Joan Erica Heart, your sister.”
“Ohhh Sis, what a great name. Where did the Erica came from?”
“It was my grandmother’s name.” Mom tells her.
“It is very beautiful. And congratulations, Sis,” she tells me and give me a big hug.
“Thank you, Sis.”
“You know, I always wanted a little sister. We will have so much fun together. I have so much to teach you,” she tells me with an evil gleam in her eyes.
“Oh oh! Should I be worried, Mom?”
“Not at all,” she tells me with the same gleam in her eyes.
Oh damn, what are they planning? I think to myself, “Why is that I think you two are up to something?”
“Who? Us?” they say in unison and flutter their eyes.
I start laughing, and soon we are all laughing like mad.
A few minutes later, I hear Doctor Lisa knock on the door, “It seems we are in a good mood this afternoon.” .
“Yes, Doctor.”
“What did I tell you earlier young lady?” She tells me with a stern look.
“Hmmm..... drop the Doctor?” I ask her a bit worried.
“Yes, sweety.”
“Ok, I’ll drop the doctor, Lisa.”
That set her off a bit and I hear her trying to suppress a giggle.
“What happened?”
“The way you said it was a little funny.”
I start thinking of what I said and then it hit me and I start giggling which also set Jenny and mom off and soon we are having another laughing fit.
A few minutes, later we were able to stop laughing and Lisa said, “I think Joan and I need a few minutes alone, if you don’t mind.”
“Not at all,” Mother said. “Jenny and I will go to the cafeteria for a bit while you two talk. Do you want anything sweety?”
“A tuna sandwich?”
“Sure thing. We will be back soon. By sweety,” she said while giving me a kiss on my forehead.
“See you later, Sis.” My sister said asd gave me a kiss in my forehead, too.
After they left, Lisa sat down, “They seem to love you very much.”
“I love them very muc,h too. Too bad it took me so long to notice it.”
“I know it is a bit of a cliche, but its better later than never.”
“That’s true.”
“I heard the news from your doctor and I want to know how are you feeling about it.”
“Ecstatic, couldn’t be happier. It’s exactly what I wished for my entire life. It’s like a miracle.” I tell her with happy tears.
“And how do you feel your family is coping with it?”
“My mother and my sister are happy for me, I think my dad might be a bit shocked, but dealing with it.”
“Why do you say that?” She asked me with a questioning look.
“I don’t know, it’s I feeling I have. Woman intuition I guess.” I tell her and giggle.
“Hmmmm... can you tell me what I am feeling?”
I look at her for a few minutes and then I said. “You are happy for me, but still a bit preoccupied that I don’t see the implications of what happened. Am I right?”
She then opened her eyes wide and said. “That’s very good, how you did that is beyond me, at least the preoccupied part. Were you always like that?”
“Hmmm... not really. Actually ,I just noticed it.”
What is happening? Could I really feel her emotions? I better not say anything more about it.
“You do understand the implications, right?”
“Of what? What I did or the fact I just discovered I’m a real girl?”
“Both, actually.”
“Well... I know I shouldn’t have done what I did, and I feel bad about it. But at the same time, it was because of what I did is that I discovered that I am really a girl. And about me being a girl, I know that even if I have a full reproductive organ set inside, some people will not accept me, thinking that I am a freak or an abomination or both, but I’m not afraid of them.”
“That’s a good way to think. And you’ll need all the support you can get.”
“I have my family on my side now.” I tell her firmly.
“Yes, and you’ll need their support. I’m glad you are feeling better.”
“Thank you, Lisa.”
“Now I think we should let them back in.”
“Yes, I’m starving.”
“I’ll see you soon, Sweety.” she tells me and leaves the room.
A few seconds later, they come back and Jenny gives me the tuna sandwich and a cup of apple juice.
“Thank you, Sis.”
“You are welcome.”
“How is Mindy? Does she know?”
“She is fine, and I told her. She is happy for you.”
“You think she will come to visit me again?”
“Yes, she said she would come tomorrow after school. Why do you ask?”
“No reason.” I tell her feeling my face on fire.
She then looks at me with a questioning eye and say “Do you have a crush on her?”
“N...no!” I lied.
“I don’t believe you.”
“W...we are both girls.” I tell her
“So?”
“I... I don’t know, sis. Ever since our hands touched I can’t stop thinking about her. I felt all mushy and tingling, I couldn’t even think straight.”
“It seems you do have a crush on her.”
“B...but I hardly know her.”
“These things happen sis. We can’t really control it.”
“Yeah, but its not like anything can happen between us.”
“I wouldn’t be sure of that.” I hear her saying under her breath.
“What did you say?”
“N..nothing.” she said looking at her feet.
“Hmmm... OK.”
“I think I better try to get some sleep, I can’t wait for tomorrow to come.” I tell them excitedly.
“It’s understandable.” Mother says. “Remember, no liquids after 10 and no more food today.”
“Yes, Mother.”
“And don’t ‘yes, mother’ me young lady.” she tells me with a smile
“Yes, Mother.” I tell her and giggle.
“I’ll see you tomorrow morning, OK?” my sister asks me.
“OK, Ssis. See you tomorrow.”
“See you tomorrow, Sweety,” Mother hugs me and give me a little kiss on the cheek.
“See you tomorrow, Mom. I love you.”
“I love you too. Sweet dreams.”
After they left I lay down on the bed, close my eyes and think about my day. ‘What a strange day. I still can’t believe that I am a real girl. And do I have a crush on Mindy? I’m so confused right now. And what about my dreams? Are they just dreams? Is Josh real?’
To Be Continued...
Comments
Joan - Chapter 7
Love the interplay between Joan and the others.
May Your Light Forever Shine
May Your Light Forever Shine
It does look like Joan's
It does look like Joan's serious depressive mindset is now a thing of history. She shows a complete change around since finding out she is a Genetic girl and only had a birth anomoly which is going to be corrected. I have a feeling that Joan is going to really shine at school and as Admiral Dewey stated once "damn the torpedoes, full steam ahead", as she "storms the walls of education and life". Jan
Your writing seems to get stronger and more confident
with each chapter. I am troubled just a bit by her family. Her sister and her father both seem to have warmed up to her rather quickly, not just in terms of choice, but their behavior seems awfully cordial for two people who practically hated her when she was a boy.
And the fact that her real gender seems to be the driving force behind their acceptance? I'm glad they've reconciled, but it would have been nice to see her accepted for who she was before they found out.
I'm also a little frustrated at the lack of attention she's gotten regarding her suicide attempt. That wasn't a cry for help; that was an earnest attempt to take her own life, and the emotional stresses that caused her fragile ego to despair will likely arise again as she continues to change and grow further into adulthood.
Really fascinating interplay between her personae; is it a dream, or her self coming to grips with her womanhood after years of believing she was a boy. Excellent take on that.
Thanks for this story!
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Andrea Lena
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