Darn. I messed up. I finally realized how. It took me a couple days, but I got there eventually. After trying my new breastforms on with every different bra I have, and I have several of different sizes, types, and brands, the reality is finally sinking in. I think I ordered the wrong ones.

I so wanted to believe these were right, and I had to wait so long for the delivery. They got lost in the mail and the vendor had to send them out again. It was such a relief to finally get them, and my old ones were so messed up that I threw them out immediately.

The truth, though, is that the ones I bought are for someone who's very flat-chested. They're really not suitable for someone like me. I need the ones that are hollow in the back to accommodate an actual breast. These have just a slight concave to fit over a ribcage. I'm more of a AA or small A-cup. I should have known something was up when I checked the weight of the new ones against the old ones. Without the pronounced hollow in the back, the new ones weigh 400 grams each. My old ones, which were actually the same size, weighed only about 300.

So, I can use the new ones if I wear them in a really tight bra so they mash down my own breasts, but they don't really look right. Even if I use tape to make some cleavage, they still don't sit exactly right. The new forms have a quite pronounced nipple, and they end up not pointing in the right direction. At the very least, I'm going to have to buy some nipple covers.

I think I'm going to have to bite the bullet and buy some new ones. Again. Sigh...

Does anyone else have problems like this? Or, is it just me?

Now I'm all depressed again. Plus I saw my father yesterday, and his parting words to me were, "You know, you could use some Rogaine." He's getting a little forgetful. He told me this before, and I actually was on Rogaine 5% foam for several months. It didn't help anything that I could see. I've got female-pattern hair loss. It's just thinning evenly all over the top of my head. No actual bald spots, but you can see my scalp through the hair. Damn, it's depressing. I really like my long hair, too (it reaches down to the top of my bra cups), but this is convincing me I need to cut it short and just buy a wig for when I want to go out dressed. Another depressed sigh...

By the way, I've deleted my prior post. It seems that only a few can identify with me and my troubles and my rambling posts and it was just TMI.