Well, I'm going to confess something, and every non-trans woman and transitioned trans woman will have the right to laugh at me for it.
I'm struggling with the hormones.
They told me it was like going through puberty again, that there is a reason why teen girls can be such a mess sometimes, and I think in my heart I downplayed the warnings.
I think I believed that because I'm an adult, having been there before in my own teen years, that it couldnt be that bad.
Let me tell anybody considering this - yes, it is.
I cry at the drop of a hat, and my mood swing has swung faster than it ever has before.
Now, I'm a little bipolar (okay, I'm a LOT bipolar), and the last little while has been anything but stress-free, but still ....
Ah, well.
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It gets better
At first yeah, you're a mess, but as your body gets used to the hormone and you fully open up the range of emotions that happens with estrogen in your body it gets much easier to deal with. Mood swings can happen at any time and also one thing to note is some transsexual women who take estrogen experience a sort of... phantom period every 28 days or onc ea month. I happen to be one of them, had a period since as early as the age of 13, was really confusing for me, as if being a teenager wasn't bad enough xD
But yeah, so be ready for that possibility too :D I synchronize with my best friend forever Katrine (and best sister too, she's awesome :D Maybe not sister by blood but as far as I"m concerned she's my real sister) and often have about 4 to 5 days of it. It's kinda uncomfortable but just like every other girl, you learn to live with it ^^
Oh just make sure there are no men present when on it too, as you will want to murder them horribly ^^'
I know who I am, I am me, and I like me ^^
Transgender, Gamer, Little, Princess, Therian and proud :D
Accentuate the positive
Accentuate the positive Dorothy! It means the hormones are working and it does get better with time (at least it has for me anyway). :-)
I remember crying once in a meeting I was at because someone strongly disagreed with me. Seriously embarrassing...
"Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it."
Now you see why men do not understand women
because of all of our emotions! We feel and display what we feel more openly. It is nothing to be ashamed of and in time you will regain control. It's a new experience for you and overwhelming too. But I have faith you will come out of it fine hon ^^
Do not be ashamed to display what you feel. Its part of being a woman.
Sephrena
Been going through the same things
I take it for granted. The spiro caused me to be really bipolar (I'm not normally), but the Celexa has stabilized that.
There is no shame in crying, even in male mode (before I came out to myself) I understood that. Now it is cleansing.
There are aspects of being a woman that are very different, I fully expect to grow in my emotional range. It is a good thing. From what I can tell it starts early in HRT, and accelerates.
When I get depressed nowdays (it still happens now and again) I walk (usually 3 miles), it works for me.
Are your levels right?
I had no problems when I started hormones but about 6 years later I started crying for no apparent reason and was quite moody. I finally went to my doctor who ordered tests for estrogen level and found mine too high. After cutting down the dose everything got back to normal. I hope you find your level. Are you taking anything for the bipolar condition? Some meds can intensify the mood effects of the hormones.
So what is your dosage?
What are you taking?
When I was taking Estrodial (The little blue pills), I was on 2 Mg, however I knew people to take as much as 20 mg and it is hard as hell on your body. It was strange for a couple months but after that it was OK. These things are mosty psychosomatic.
The patches are 5 times more effective and not upsetting at all.
G
It is like that!
Sometimes if feels like you are skinless. Ãlmost anything can bring you to tears. It doesen't matter what it is, something horrible that you see in the TV-News or if you see a woman with her newborn kid that just show her joy with her glistering eyes. Just try to close your eyes to the uggly things in life and save those happy moments, even if they might bring tears to your eyes. Once your body has reached an equilibrium between the different hormones, those sometimes embarasing signs of your increased sensitivity , it will get better. I can still, 10 years after the op, get tear-eyed when I see something that makes me glad, but have somhow learned to be less sensitive when I see the uggly parts of Life. Just bear with it. It took me a year or so to get back to more normal balance.
See it more as a clear sign of the effect of the hormones you are taking.
Best wishes
Ginnie
GinnieG
I am with u sweety
If memory serves me u and I have been within our puberty for the same amount of time (march 18th 2011) with my emotions, pms, moodswings, prenatal phantom pregnancy, and meonpausal type continual state, it drives me nuts then it does others, often my cisgender girlfriends laugh about and there always like welcome to womanhood, and omg this reminds me of when i was a highschool etc. which sometimes makes me laugh too. If u need a sister to talk to just send me a private message, and we can talk ok. may even give u my cell, email, or even skype info.
Hugs from ontario,
Erin Amelia Fletcher
With Love and Light, and Smiles so Bright!
Erin Amelia Fletcher