I wept for my father today.
See, I've been reading C.S. Lewis' autobiography, and he talks about his father a lot, so maybe that's why my dad came to mind today.
But regardless of the trigger, I wept for him.
I actually think this might be a good thing. I never really grieved properly for my dad, so getting this out of my system is a step in the right direction.
Or at least I'm hoping so ...
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grieveing
These days it's difficult to properly grieve for anyone. When my father died, his body was still warm on the floor and unmoved when people started trying to claim stuff. Followed by funeral arrangements, and legel battles, property transfers and one headache after another. Any sadness i had was replaced with a cold fury and anytime i think of him that mess comes to mind ruining my memories of him over the course of my life. The results of his death caused a massive split in the familly and i have several anuts and uncles now whom i'd gleefully spend a few night in jail for the satisfaction of knocking them out cold....even to this day, 3 years after his death.
My dad passed about 7 years
My dad passed about 7 years ago. My regret is I didnt tell him I loved him
Fathers and disappointments
My father passed recently and my regret is a little different. While I told him frequently that I loved him, to the best of my memory he never once in my life told me he loved me. I know this sounds a little whiny, especially since I know he did love me despite our differences, it would have been nice to hear it just once.
Oh, well. Life is what it is and people are what they are, no matter what we wish. At least, we reconciled a couple of years before he died. It would have been nice though.
Waterdog