Chap 20
By poetheather
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. There should be no way that these characters are like anyone else, but if that isn’t the case, it has definitely been unintentional. Also, if you happen to find that your life is represented in these pages, I’ll be impressed.
Chapter 20
A number of us blinked stunned by what she had said. Holly came up to the actress and said, “It will work out. Honestly. Come on Britt, we need to hang together.”
However, before any resolution could be made on the issue with Brittany and her wanting to leave, they came for us. Gwen was standing there, at the doors smiling at us. “Come on ladies, time to get cleaned up for dinner. You have thirty minutes.”
I was allowed back to my room to get ready, as were the other girls who lived in the house. The rest of the girls were using the bathroom downstairs to get ready. I was fine with that. I really didn’t want to shower and stuff in front of them. That was way, way too much sharing.
When I got to the room Meredith was there working on a psychology paper that was due Monday. She looked up as I came in and smiled happily. “Hey there. I’ve missed you.”
I came over there, gave her a hug, and kissed her. This was what had been missing last night. “I missed you too. They’ve kept us busy.”
“Yeah, they do that. So, are you looking forward to tonight?” she asked.
I nodded, “I am. I’m also a little nervous about things. I am not sure what I’m going to have to do.”
Meredith chuckled, clearly amused with me. “Don’t stress Caitlin. Now get going and get ready. You need to get back downstairs quickly, so don’t dawdle.”
I grabbed my shower stuff and headed right for the bathroom. One of the showers was already going and that had to be one of us, probably Dawn. I just shrugged and got in, my need to be clean and sweat free overcoming my curiosity at the moment. The warm water felt wonderful as I just stood underneath the showerhead, letting the water trickle over me and the jets massaging my scalp. I sighed happily and then got down to the business of getting cleaned.
It felt good to be clean. I wrung the water out of my hair and grabbed my hair towel. Once it was up in that I grabbed my towel and dried off. As I began brushing my teeth Dawn came out of the other shower. Oh my god she was hot. Her body was beautiful and tanned and I was really struggling not to stare. Dawn just smiled.
“It’s good to see that you aren’t into guys.” She teased.
I stuck my tongue out at her, which made her laugh. “I am a happy lesbian, thank you.”
Her laughter got louder and we were both soon laughing. I grabbed my stuff and headed back to the room. Meredith was still there working on her paper, which was nice and she made appreciative noises as I got undressed. Nothing like getting leered at by your girlfriend to make you feel attractive. I shook my head in mock disgust and opened my closet to try to figure out what to wear.
I grabbed a pair of comfy jeans with some embroidery around the bottom and up one leg and a comfy peasant top. I wanted to be comfortable and since we had been told that there wasn’t going to be anymore work today I just wanted comfort to be the primary theme but I also wanted to look good. Maybe this stuff was starting to get to me?
I was certainly not the first one back there, but I was also not the last. I went over to Alison who still looked good in her casual goth. “I wonder what they have for us to do next?”
“Well I talked to Nadia and I am a bit worried. First we’re going to get spanked and I heard her mention orgy.”
I got wide eyed and stared at Alley. When she started laughing at me, I knew it was a joke. “That’s not funny Alison.”
“Yes it is. Sometimes you are so gullible that it astounds me.” She gave me a hug and I stopped being huffy.
Soon we were all back together in the room, waiting to head into dinner and whatever torture awaited us. Nadia didn’t leave us waiting all that long thankfully. “Let’s go ladies.”
The dining room seemed to be filled with members, more than I actually ever recalled seeing at an event here. Why were they all here now? What did they want with us? I felt like I was on display and I didn’t like that. Part of me wanted to run, but another, louder part was excited. I really did want to know who my Big Sister was.
Nadia lead us to the front of the room and we stopped, all in a line. Her smile was kind of evil when she looked back at us, all things considered. She spoke loudly enough to be heard over the crowd. “Before we eat I thought it might be nice to have some pre-dinner entertainment. Ladies, please sing the House song.”
We all looked at each other nervously and then Holly took a deep breath and started. We all quickly joined in, singing the song that had been written when the Sorority was founded. I am still embarrassed by all of this so that is all I am going to say about that part, except to say that I did blush down to the soles of my feet. I am not the best singer in the world.
We were allowed to scatter, and talk with some of our friends once the embarrassment was over. I sat down between Gwen and Meredith and hung my head, the tips of my ears still red. Naturally my friends could not help themselves when they said, “Oh Caitlin, you sounded so good up there.”
“Shut up.” Can you die from blushing? They way things were going I just might, and I found that it didn’t bother me. While there was a hotshot medic at the same table as me, I was sure that if I just died of embarrassment then and there, there would be nothing anyone could do to save me. I still can’t believe they made me sing.
Dinner was great. Well, the food was usually great but somehow this tasted better. Might have been the stress? But the food was nice. Dinner ended up being a nice safe haven away from the insanity of being a pledge. Nevertheless, that safety could not last.
Once we all finished eating, Nadia had us all come up to the front again. “Sisters, these are your pledges for this Fall. We are going to sequester them and bring them out, one at a time to grill them about their knowledge of the House and the Sorority. If they fail, they will be asked to leave. If they succeed, they will get their Big Sister. Are you ready?”
All the girls cheered excitedly and my heart started racing. Test? There was going to be a test? I knew they had us memorize everything under the sun about the House, but a test? I wasn’t sure I would be able to do that.
Gwen led us off, leaving Holly behind to face the music first. As we walked I could hear, “Sisters, this is Holly, the President of the Pledge class. Let’s start with her.”
Before we could hear more, the doors to the room we were lead to were shut, locking out the sound. Several people looked nervous, and I could start to feel my anxiety begin to ramp up. Dawn came over to me and gave me a hug to comfort me. “Relax Caitlin. It’ll be okay. I don’t think they are trying to fail us. If you stay calm during this, you will remember things better, okay?”
I nodded. Alison came over then and helped me get calm and stay calm, as they next took Thuriya. Alley hugged me and looked me in the eyes. “Thank you for helping me stay in. I was so ready to quit during Pledge Week, but you helped me through that. Now I have a lot of new friends and people I consider my sisters regardless of what happens in the end. So, thank you.”
I took a deep breath and that helped me to relax even more. “Thank you Alley. I don’t know if I would have made it through this without you.”
She grinned at me and said, “Hey, what are friends for?”
She was taken next.
One by one the other girls were taken from the room until I was the only one left in there. After what seemed like an eternity of waiting but was probably a few minutes, the doors opened and Gwen lead me out of the room. I was taken to the front of the room where we had sung and stood in front of the sea of faces, some I knew and some I didn’t. I was trembling inside. I hated this.
“Sisters, this is our last Pledge from this group, Caitlin. She is special because of the circumstances that brought her here to our House, which you all know about. But that doesn’t cut her any slack.” Nadia stepped back from me and left me there all alone. I almost felt as if I was standing there naked and maybe I was going to be sick. If I could leave and go hide somewhere I think I would be overjoyed.
Sandra called out. “Say the Pledge.”
My mind went blank and I searched my mind for the answer. I wasn’t even sure I remembered my own name at that point. Finally the words came and I could sort of remember. I relaxed as I spoke, sure in my answer. By the end, the whole audience was saying it along with me, which was pretty cool.
Then I had to recite the Greek alphabet, talk about the history of the Sorority, the House and such. The answers flowed off my tongue quickly. I knew this stuff and that helped. It didn’t really feel that stressful at all.
Nadia stepped forward once the questioning finished and stood next to me, “Well Sisters, does she pass?”
The cheering washed over me and I smiled, proud of what I had done. I had never felt this way, people cheering, for me. My heart shook happily and I felt a bit floaty. I really hoped I didn’t faint. “After a good bit of debate we have Caitlin’s Big Sister. Caitlin, your Big Sister is… Gwen!”
Gwen came up to me and gave me a big hug. I didn’t know what to say and I was flabbergasted by the choice. Gwen? I think I started crying, I don’t know for sure. Nadia continued, “Okay, Caitlin, assume the position?”
I looked at Nadia confused, what? What was she talking about?
“Bend over and grab the chair.”
I think I blinked at her a few times before I complied. I was going to get a spanking? Did this mean Alison’s information wasn’t false? Orgy?
Gwen stepped up behind me and got this… paddle with the letters of the House engraved in it and painted with various things on it. It actually looked really pretty, with some daises and stuff on it. She grinned at me and gave me the first swat.
Thankfully, it wasn’t all that hard but my butt was certainly warm after the ten swats she gave me. Nadia helped me stand up and Gwen and I hugged again. As the girls in the audience cheered, she whispered in my ear, “Congrats little sister.”
I know I was crying by then.
Nadia then called out, “Alright, now that the business is done, let’s party!”
Another loud cheer filled the air.
Meredith came over and handed a beer to both Gwen and me. I got a hug and a kiss on the cheek once her hands were free. “Congrats sweetie.”
This was a bit overwhelming, I was almost a full Sister of the House. Step by step I was getting closer to the end of this, or was it a new beginning. I was living a girl’s life and experiencing things I had never expected to. I was bumfuzzled and I was wondering about what was to come. I didn’t know so I drank my beer.
To Be Continued...
Comments
I think that this experience
I think that this experience has changed Caitlin more than a little, and I'm not talking about her wardrobe.
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May the Stars Light Your Path
Maid Joy
http://i-know-i-know-but.net/
So Sweet...
This has been going on for such a long time, you would think someone would get tired of it. But on the contrary, I would love to have Caitlin as a friend, for that matter, I wish I could be one of the sisters of this house. They are all so wonderful. I wish we could enjoy this association of such wonderful women and follow Caitlin as she learns to fully enjoy her femininity. There is so much for her to enjoy. I hope this doesn't end anytime soon... Love, Mary.
Does Caitlin
Have a problem with alcohol? I can't remember if she went overboaerd and got drunk, or if she can't handle liquor. But now I wonder what misadventure is next for her.
May Your Light Forever Shine
May Your Light Forever Shine
She doesn't
have a problem it was just that she was so nervous that she drank a lot to cover it up. That's what lead to her kissing Paul.
Heather
We are the change that will save the world.
Heather
We are the change that will save the world.
The only sad thing about this installment
... is that it is one step closer to ending this series and we do not know if there will be a book 2 ... or 3 ... or ?
There is still a lot to explore in Caitlin's life ... and her life to come.
The 64000 dollar question of course is whether Richard/Caitlin will be best served by 'reclaiming' Richard. There is no question in my mind the way this story is presented so far that if Richard makes a reappearance that he would feel a loss.
I know I felt that way when I first started and had to switch back and forth. Going back always felt like my self was sliced in half ... and diced .... and muffled .... julienned ... squished .... compacted etc. It always made me feel sad and angry. I know that crossdressers do it all the time and I could never understand how they could do it - I mean, how could you sideline such an important part of yourself? Even though crossdressers claim they try to 'integrate the whole'. I am of course TS so there are different expectations on my part.
Like it or not, a returned Richard will find it is extremely difficult to fight societal expectations of your sex and Caitlin may very well whither on the vine.
Kim
Crossdressers sometimes do have a hard time...
Kimmie,
As a crossdresser I do try to "integrate the whole" as you mention, but I do feel a sadness when I go back to boy mode. I feel it especially after a long weekend or event spent 24/7 en femme. Speaking for myself, I guess I just play a Jedi mind trick on myself and view it as just a change of clothes. I thoroughly enjoy my time as a girl, just as I do a guy. I guess that is why I'm a CD and you are TS, as you say, different expectations.
Hugs!
Jenna
(For what it is worth, I think Caitlin will stay Caitlin and do the non-op TS path.)
Interesting...
Being last, in a situation like that is brutal! Being first is scary enough, but to see your friends, or even acquaintances go before you, and not know their fate, and to wonder about yours. Not fun. Not one little bit.
I find the choice of "Big Sister" interesting. It'd have been fascinating to have been a "spider" on the wall, listening to the discussion about the selection. LOL
Thanks,
Annette
Sorority GIRL
Caitlin doesn't sound or act much like any boys I've known. She sounds pretty much all girl. I wonder how she'll be after four years of living as a girl.
I also wonder how much of Caitlin's life at college you'll cover. I sincerely hope you'll eventually cover all four years so we can see how she ends up.
Whatever you choose to do, I thank you for it. I love it all and look forward to more.
- Terry
Since I don't hear her all
Since I don't hear her all that well anymore I have been thinking of finishing this series after this book. There would be a nice sized epilogue that covers a lot of the detail that would be missed. Other stories are clamoring for attention.
Heather
We are the change that will save the world.
Heather
We are the change that will save the world.
Sisters
I've been enjoying Caitlin's journey and am happy that she's now a full-fledged member of the house. Funny how I've stopped wracking my brain trying to figure out where and who Caitlin will wind up, and am just enjoying the ride ...... What impresses me about this story is that aside from your heroine's unique situation it's all so normal- life, love and friendships, school and going to the market, an everyday realism to it that's nonetheless completely engrossing the way you tell it (Maybe partly because it's so far removed from the trailer trash world I live in, the normal is actually exotic. I don't seem to know people like this...). The writing remains top notch. Just getting to know the characters like you were there in their lives instead of them finding a crashed flying saucer or what have you. (And you do the fantastic really well too, I dug the Harry Potter stories, and that Caregivers story, the Bikini Beach one, & only wish I knew enough about the Ranma series to tackle that serial.) I'm glad this chapter came so close on the heels of #19; I guess you're finding more time to write these days..
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~~~hugs, Laika
What borders on stupidity?
Canada and Mexico.
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Just FYI
Just FYI, she isn't a full fledged sister of the house yet. You get your Big Sister about one to two weeks before the actual initiation. During that, your Big Sis stands for you. So there needs to be a bit of a process there. The end is nigh, just not that nigh.
Heather
We are the change that will save the world.
Heather
We are the change that will save the world.