I thought it was a joke, it couldn't really happen. People's sexual orientation doesn't change, it is what it is and that is the end of it.
Yet, how to explain that I have gone from being attracted to women to being attracted to men, because of transition?
What a mind-fuck this is, my entire world has been tossed upside down. I need to get my head around this. None of my friends, no matter where they fit in the LGBTQ spectrum have been able to help. It isn't just admitting to myself where my interests lie, finally. The male was truly never attractive to me, yet recently the only thing that generates any sort of arousal is picturing being with a man, as a woman, having vaginal intercourse with him.
Oh gods, now I have to figure out what my type is for men as well as getting my head-space straightened out with this.
Hmmm, this seems to be a good way to look at this situation. My Sexual Orientation did not change, with the change in my body chemistry from male to female due to the hormone replacement therapy, my heterosexual orientation stayed the same, my direction if attraction got flipped. I can understand and handle this by thinking about it this way.
Thank the gods my stress level has reduced.
NOTE:
The above literally is my train of thoughts when this happened,condensed from a 6 month* period of soul searching into this posting. [ completely typed out in the post box here on BCTS ]
* Last Spring and Summer actually.
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Well...
When it comes to those transgender that transition, it is a case of the mask coming off, and they are finding out how they truly feel about things. For them, it is not so much a case of them changing sexual orientation, but finding out what their true sexual orientation is.
sounds reasonable
That sonds reasonably, but I suspect most would argue they did know their orientation and it changed.
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Mine shifted, rather than changed.
I can safely say I was bi as far back as I can remember. Through high school and my twenties I would have said my attraction was 80-20 in favor of women. Now, many years and a 2nd transition later, I would say I am more 85-15 in favor of men.
interesting
You would think that there wouldn't be much difference, if any, for someone that is bi.
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Yeah, Fairly Common,
I think.
Maybe, just maybe, the social aspect, expectations, etc. influenced your behavior more than your sexuality. You could have been somewhat bi and now that you have stronger stimuli, the estrogen effect on your thinking and your brain's unsuppressed reaction to male pheromones has awakened the male attraction part of your (natural?) sexuality.
I remember in college in periods where I'd had no luck with girls at all, I imagined I was a lesbian. To be a womyn and be with one of the attractive wimyn I'd see everyday. I think I wasn't attracted to men because I was scared of them and scared of male homosexuality. If I were with a gay man and being with any man seemed gay, the I'd be a gay man myself and that would make me more definitely a man. I was in denial about being trans, but I was embracing not being a man like my dad and being more hippy than straight or square.
When I went on HRT, my smelling very soon became much more acute and I noticed crushing on a guy at work. I knew I was turned on by guy smell, because I found an old tee shirt of mine in a drawer that was folded but not washed. It stunk and my own guy smell was turning me on! After I healed up, I was more or less with 4 guys, one was actually great in bed, but it occurred to me that I liked being dated, I liked sex if it were good, but I didn't actually like how guys acted when they were just hanging around being guys. After that I'd be with a guy (often along with Kim) if he were convenient and seemed interesting, but mainly I was with Kim and/or other lesbians.
Hugs and Bright Blessings,
Renee
common?
according to what I have heard from studies done on this subject, at most only 40% of transsexuals experience a change in their orientation. ( or are willing to discuss it with a psychiatrist )
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The brain-puberty switch
There is the 'friend' switch and the 'wow' switch. The two can be confused and 'friends' be the better domestic partners but you take those hormones, brain-puberty kicks in and one day it happens, "WOW!" - only then do you know your own sexuality.
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well, I had the wow a few times before.
always with a woman with long straight black hair and brown eyes.
haven't had a wow from guy yet.
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I am in the same boat
as a boy, I never felt any attraction to boys. But since I began transition, the idea of having a man inside me has started to have an appeal ...
huggles!
ain't it just so much fun?
not only the society disrespect of us for transitioning, the loss of most people in our lives from it, e are having to deal with a real mind fuck about our orientation, and not many can really understand the impact of the change.
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I've read and seen enough
I've read and seen enough that I know hormones shake up a lot in your brain, so when asked on this subject, I have taken to "hedging my bets". I know where I am now, and I'm not going to second guess where I might be in a year or two. You don't expect things to suddenly completely change, but you can't rule it out either. At least I know this might happen, so when it does it won't take me competely by surprise.
Oh, and btw, on the subject of "it is what it is and that is the end of it", you should always, without exception, apply the rule that you should never ever, under any circumstances, overgeneralize, at all. :-)
odd
I thought I posted this as a blog entry, since it is NOT fiction but is what I have been going through.
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