I still have nightmares. I wake up in the middle of the night and for a second or two, before the shape of my sister Olivia forms in the darkness, I think I'm him. For a second, I think with his thoughts and it scares me.

I alternate Thursdays with Mary₁ and Mary₂. Mary₁ was the one who first suggested that I start writing this. It's taken me a while to get to the end, and during the course of this, I have come to better understand who I am as a person.

I also understand the Beast better. There is a part of me now that does wish that I'd given in to him at the end. Or that I'd let the both of us die when I tied our lives together.

I need to complete this final chapter, however, so I can move on.

When I finally got back to my world, I found my house boarded up, and police tape on the door. I didn't know what to make of it, so Mary₁ made a few calls.

The police had come to our house to arrest my step-father for abuse. He got his pistol and tried to shoot it out with them, with the expected result. What was unexpected was my mother took the gun from his hand and shot herself.

When I see the scar on my cheek in the mirror, it reminds me of where I came from. The Beast inside of me smiles at their end. I mourn their loss.

Bree was adopted by Mary₁ and Frank₁. She was the first child who came to them that wasn't one of their clients. I've never seen any of them happier than they are now. I only wish that Bree's parents hadn't looked at her like she was an abomination when we'd tried to take her home.

When Olivia and I arrived home from this mess, Helen₂ welcomed me home with open arms. She welcomed Olivia home as well. She's Helen Bonham to the rest of the world now, and Mom to me. We finalized the adoption, of both of us, since legally Olivia is a new person, after the divorce.

Yep, We're twins according to the adoption records. Olivia and Jamie Bonham. Our friends call us Orange and Juice a lot. That means I have two nicknames, but most people don't know about Traveler.

Yes, we visit Earth₄ once a week, since Olivia wants to spend time with Corin. They talk nightly on the headsets.

Everything is still about the same for them there, but there have been some unsettling rumors trickling into the Fortress. Yeah, they didn't like living in a sanitarium either.

As the hormones continue to pump into my system, I grow to look more and more like Olivia, and people are thankful for the scar on my face. I wish I could be as thankful for the scars on my soul.

We babysit for Clare occasionally. She has a headset now as well. Bree's been busy, and we're actually selling a new model to the worlds of the Communion. Yeah, that's what all the worlds cal their little group. I actually run a courier service as well, since I'm still the only confirmed Traveler. They've finally been able to exchanged signed copies of their treaty. Per the rules that got me citizenship in Earth₅, I actually now have citizenship in every member dimension of the Communion. Earth₁ is in negotiations with the Communion for member status. I can't get anyone in a position of authority to believe me on Earth₂, so the Communion have assigned protectorate status to them.

For some reason, the Communion has stated that Earth₄ is outside their jurisdiction. Apparently they know something about that world that their not sharing. Well, it's expected. I'm just the courier after all.

I convinced the Communion to pay me in precious metals and gems, since paper money from one world will have no value in another. They're trying to come up with a method of making a cross dimensional commodity based monetary system. I doubt it will really take off before Bree get's her gateway working.

I forgot to mention that Bree is trying to build a device that will connect two worlds like a gateway. She's not having any luck. She blacked out the city three times before she decided to disconnect from the power grid. I may eventually tell her some of the things I've figured out about crossing worlds, but I will let her work her way through it.

Her ability is immense, but not limitless. Sometimes a basic understanding of the problem is required.

I still don't know what world Beast came from, and he maintains that it was destroyed. Some things he's said don't add up, however, and I wonder if he is as puzzled by his inability to find it as I am.

School is better for me now. Everyone sees me as a girl, and Olivia and I have lots of friends. It took them a little while to get used to the idea of calling her Liv, but it all worked out. Olivia does her best not to order anyone about. I don't use my ability at school. Mostly we're trying to live normal, mundane, lives.

Brian₂ is in psychological counseling. Apparently there are large portions of the year before these events that he doesn't remember at all. The last thing he remembers clearly, in fact, is going on a date with Liv.

She's actually considering dating him again, and if it were anyone else, I'd be more worried. I'm more worried about what will happen to her if she remakes Brian in her own image.

I'm feeling more in control every day. The nightmares plague me less. Eventually I hope to get past this point and move on with the rest of my life. For now, I go to school, and I hang with my friends. Friends. . .something I never thought I would have, but am glad of the journey that brought me to them.