What I am trying to do

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I look around and see what others post in this genre we call transgender fiction and I realize that I do not fit the mold of 90 percent of what is produced. I'm not saying that is a good or a bad thing, but i am definitely not in the majority. I have spent the last few days reading works of other authors and notice a common theme running throughout, namely a fetishy kind of approach to transsexualism. Big Closet is somewhat different from other sites because it has less of this than the norm, but it certainly does have its fair share.

So, that leaves me to beg the question, what am I doing here?

I don't write fetish, or, at least I don't think I do. I do know that there are transgender and cross dressing themes in the works that I produce, but since this is my audience, I guess it is suggested that that stuff appears if I am going to post stories on this site.

So what is it that I'm trying to accomplish? I can probably strike out fame and fortune, because a. most people don't know who I really am and b. offering free stories isn't going to make me a lot of money.

I write because I like writing. I started writing stories back in the third grade and wrote my first full length novel when I was 12. It wasn't any good, but I did finish it. But not only do I like writing, I also like making statements. I am very opinionated and I slip my opinions in my work quite regularly. But, I do have a goal. I am trying to redefine the genre of TransFiction. I figure if I'm going to have a goal, make it a big one. I am trying to show people that there are trans stories out there that are of quality without being all about sex, dressing in drag and anal sex. I often deal with stories involving children, mainly because that is what my degree is in and I'm damn sure going to put that 40k to use somewhere. Also, it is easier to show the psychological development of people at younger ages, before the facades go up.

That said. I want to produce something. I want to produce something that will change everything. I know this is probably sounding a bit like bragging, so what. I think I have the ability. I have in my mind a story. A good story. Maybe as good as the God Bless the Child series. It is trans-based, but like most of what I write it will not be a romp in lacy underwear and making a mockery of what being trans is. It will be a romance story (not the dime store trash kind). So, after I finish writing The Test Taker, I will be going into hiatus.

Why am I telling you all this? Because if I don't I will continue to produce works of lesser quality while something important sits on the back burner while I try to get acclaim for something that takes minimal effort. I will still visit from now and then, but I really think it is time for a mega-product. I might come by and post bits and pieces. So, feel free to send me messages to check in on me, continue to read my older stories, continue to buy my books (I will be putting a few up on Amazon to hold people over).

But for now, an outline must be written. TTFN.

kl

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What's posted...

What's posted here goes in cycles. If you could look at the large body and categorize it over time, you'd see that things change. We went through a period where it felt like 80% of what was posted was super hero stuff. We've had bouts of forced fem, etc. Perhaps right now, it's more leaning to fetish (your term) stories. I dunno. I don't even try to read a majority of what gets posted here... Sometimes because of mechanics of what's posted. More often subject matter. *shrugs* That's one think I like about BCTS - there's a LOT of variety. If you look - the single largest body of writing (one ongoing saga - something to do with a bike, I think...LOL) posted here has no fetish component (that I've noticed - if it's been there, it's been handled in such a way as to make it work out invisible).

Write what you like. If you're concerned about the "quality" of your writing or some other issue, find an "editor" (or three) who you trust to provide you with feedback and help you improve. Don't assume that what you see being posted is what most readers are looking for.

Annette

Clarification and Citation...

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Specifically, Katie says, 90% of what's posted in the TG Fiction Genre not, 90% of what's posted here at BigCloset... BigCloset may be one of the large (soon hopefully, largest) TG Fiction Archives on the internet, but it's only one of many, and certainly not the oldest either!


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What I am trying to do

Little Katie, I myself enjoy reading your stories and blogs. Please keep on posting.

    Stanman
May Your Light Forever Shine

My two cent's worth.

Well I've been reading 'trans fiction' for over 50 years and writing it on and off for about 15 years. My writing emerged mainly because and when the internet arrived.
My own perception about trans fiction is the simple but well tested adage that people write about what they know, or at least they all start out like that.

The logical follow on from that is that trans-people, like everybody else, will naturally write about what they know and an overwhelming majority of what we know concerns our growing up, and the problems we encountered both externally with others and internally with our conciences, our sexuality and our fears.

It's inevitable therefore that trans-fiction sites will attract all and every sort of trans-writer, good or bad, who will wish to write about every aspect of transgendered life. We none of us have the right to judge others on the content of their stories though we might have some right to expect a reasonably grammatical text and language.

We all write what we feel and what we can and what we know and none of us is entitled to judge others because all of us have endured or encountered different histories.

For example I steer clear of stories with strong emotional or sexual content because those are the areas where I was bruised and battered in my formative years. I cannot write about romance or love because I never encountered it or experienced it as it should have been experienced. If love ever appeared in my early years it was invariably as a tool to use against me or manipulate me. Emotion was something I avoided like the plague for it demonstrated my disfunctionality or alternatively, weakness to the other disfunctional specimens that surrounded me.

Consequently I tend to write 'kitchen-sink' stuff surrounding the social, political and economic factors aurrounding transgenderism. It's only recently that I've grown brave enough to dare display the slightest whisper of emotion and even then, the shutters go up immediately if I deem that display to have invited unwanted attention.

By and large, I try like crazy to avoid offending but occasionally my guard slips and I let rip. Usually to regret it soon after.

I could write about some of the most horrendous abuse imaginable like being raped by dogs as a child but I don't. What's the point? I could never draw on sufficient depths of emotion or sensitivity to properly portray the consequences of those years. No matter how I put down the cold, hard, facts they never, never seem to reach that kernel of hatred and despair that lies deep and now buried within.

Consequently, to me at least, my own writing seems shallow and inadequate to me because it doesn't go deep enough. I keep asking myself if I'm only skimming the emotional surface because I'm either too disfunctional to be emotional or I'm too afraid to dig.

My writing will never satisfy me that's why I look to other writers here on BC and elsewhere to fullfill my needs.

Then, when some particular passage has moved me I wonder if I've been too effusive with my praise and sound like an 'arse-licker'.
There's just no happy medium in my eyes. (Dammit, there go my feelings of inadequacy again!)

Anyway, enough of my self-indulgent ramblings. Good luck with your novel Katie.

See you when I see it. QED.

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I wonder why I am here.

I used to go to Fictionmania but when she shut it down, and then it came back, I lost taste for it. ASSTR was interesting at first, but later when I found out that some of the very extreme stories could likely be true, it made me ill, and I have seldom returned. Storysite was quite fun for me, but I always felt inadequate to be there. I think that some of Crystal's stories are some of the best ever. I do not remember how I came to be at BCTS, though over the years the experience has been quite pleasant for me, and I do hope that someday I will grow up to be a really good writer, though time is running out. :)

I do not feel like my stories are strongly fetishistic, though there are elements of that in some of them. Thinking about it, I think that it is mostly Forced Fem with a good outcome. And, I think the reason for that is my own coming out was definitely FF, and very painfully so. The outcome has been mostly good.

If you remember, many of the movies of the 30's to 50's had thinly veiled elements of DID in them. Though I remember my own Mother saying some of them were pure "bullshit".

I don't think I would diminish the use of fetishistic elements. Some would be surprised to know that the use of the Niqab (you'll have to google it) is quite arousing to some Middle Eastern men.