Had a flashback yesterday, and I'm going to try and reproduce it here: (Readers are cautioned)
It was like seeing it from the outside, but there was one thing that didn't fit.
I was a girl.
Like my inner me was showing, so obvious I could only wonder how no one else saw it.
I was already discovering I wasnt like other girls, and was fragile for that reason when the hammer fell.
HIM.
The act itself is... shrouded in fog.
The fog lifts, and this girl, this person I really am is .... utterly broken and lost.
And a second ... personality? is formed.
A male one.
And the girl gets buried.
Now, the girl is uncovered, and I am slowly bringing these two sides together.
Its confusing, frightening.
Pray I'll succeed, if you please.
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Your sub conscience is
Your sub conscience is letting you know what your inner child is. The inner child has been buried many times so the person you were appeasing others with could survive. Its not really a flashback but more of an inner self vision. You are having growth and it is showing your positive.
I went through this with my therapist in 1996, it took me almost ten more years before I accepted myself.
Two things I learned: 1. There are no wrong answers, and 2. Those that mind don't matter and those that matter don't mind. I transitioned shortly after that and haven't looked back since.
Just be yourself and you'll do fine, there are always minor bumps. If people don't accept you its their loss not yours. I have a lot of people who support me in my transition.
Jill Micayla
Be kinder than necessary,Because everyone you meet
Is fighting some kind of battle.
Jill Micayla
Be kinder than necessary,Because everyone you meet
Is fighting some kind of battle.