The worst part of my downs is the horrible feeling of hopelessness i suffer with. It is hard to even conceive of a good outcome, much less make positive plans. I guess i thought that the anti-depressants would be a magic fix, and not surprisingly, they are not. I am still stuck in male form, still without even hope that i will be able to change that, and wishing that it all would just end. But I am needed, by my daughter, my mother, even my ex, and taking my life would be utterly selfish. I appreciate all the support i am getting here, and I will find a way to hold on.
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I am glad that you said you'll hang on
because hopelessness is worse than the depression.
Is there anyone in your RL who you can confide in? That helps tremendously. My wife knows and understands how I feel. Caring for others, doing for others, is an excellent way to get outside yourself. You have a daughter who needs you. That is wonderful.
Focus on those things you can change, or in ways you can help others. There is happiness in life, but you have to work to find it at times.
And take care.
SuZie
SuZie
Oh, Dorothy, You're singin' to the choir!
I know just about exactly how you feel (although I hear you can pass okay-in my case, it would be ridiculous). I too have felt that dark, hopeless feeling where it just seems like a waiting game, hoping that there are multiple lives in our future, if only to hope that in the next one we somehow get it right. Rest assured that, while it won't make it any better, you are not alone. Somehow we have to just play the hand we are dealt, however painful it may be. I send you my love, sister.
Wren
Hugs to both of you:)
Dorothy and Wren as far as this guy's concerned you are two of the nicest sweetest Women a guy could know. Dorothy you've got a deep soulful, faithful and forgiving spirit and Wren you're literally one of the sweetest people I've had the honor to know, I love your heart on your sleeve quality you have. These are qualities scarcely found in menfolk, so by my math that makes you two awesome girls.
Bailey Summers