Being the lead up to the Christmas/New Year's holidays can stress one out.

If you live in the north like I do this is also the period of minimum sunlight and that can medically cause depression. They actually sell light boxes or you can download plans for them that help mitigate the symptoms of sunlight deprivation.

And from what Dorothy said your family situation is not a happy one currently.

That may change as time goes on. Perhaps someday they will understand and be supportive.

Whatever the case you must be true to yourself.

You give a lot if pleasure to us here at BC. I must believe the same is true in the real world. You have worth. We are better for knowing you, tels.

In the mean time you have friends here, even if all most can give is a virtual hug.

-- HUG --

John in Wauwatosa